hello my lovelies!

my last few posts have been kind of sad and downright depressing lately but I just came back on to tell you that I've been doing much better since I posted that rant about anxiety and those two poems.

i was feeling really down and full of anxiety and stress for the past two weeks up until last friday. it was starting to take a toll on my physical health, i would start feeling nauseous every time i woke up in the morning because in the morning and at night before i go to sleep are when i'm alone with my thoughts and that's bad because that's when the anxiety and stress kicks in. there was a reason for all of this, but i'm not gonna explain it because it's related to my personal life and shit.

i realized i pretty much self-diagnosed myself with "anxiety" when i did my anxiety rant, i apologise for that. but honestly the things i've been feeling relate to a lot of you who actually are diagnosed with it, so it must be real right? anyways i learnt a few things from this experience because i feel like this was the lowest i had been in like forever. so i thought i'd share these things that may or may have not helped me get through this phase.

This worked to some extent for me, it may not work for everyone but maybe it'll help some of you (:

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- one of the things i learnt that was good for me was venting. i vented on the daily to like three or four friends about what i was going through. you also have to know the right people to vent to, like you have to know which friend to go to if you're expecting a particular type of response. like go to a friend whom you know will comfort you and say the right things you want to hear to make you feel better, and make you feel like you're not bothering them. if you don't have friends, make some online here on wattpad! three of these friends were from wattpad and they are the nicest people on the planet. you can also come to me to vent whenever you'd like to :)

- I tried exercising as well to help me quit thinking for a moment because sometimes it just got too much. i would do like a 3km jog and blast music in my ears so that i can just focus on jogging and the music instead of whatever my problem was. plus exercising in general is good for you when you're stressed or anxious as it releases endorphins in your brain that help with a lot of things such as reduce the stress in your mind.

NOTE:

Don't listen to music that's relatable. i kept listening to Linkin Park and Twenty One Pilots because i knew they sing about anxiety and depression and feeling alone and misunderstood, and i happened to be relating to some of those things to some extent. it just made me feel like crying and screaming, so honestly listen to happy, uplifting motivational music.

- distracting myself was something I tried to do to stop thinking about my problems. it was pretty hard but I remember when I watched the originals because the new season came out recently, I was filled with so much like joy and excitement I totally forgot that I've been feeling like shit lately. I listened to some motivation music by Macklemore after such a long time and I felt better and pretty hopeful. Idk if this song is motivational but it's about Macklemore finding peace after his struggles with drug abuse it's called Excavate. Give that a listen.

So try to distract yourself by doing things that make you feel good!

- if you like to write like me, one of my friends suggested writing poetry or just writing out my thoughts and everything that's been bothering me. The poetry thing helped and I hope I'll be able to write some happy poems too. But that's another idea (:

- my problem with certain people is I expect a lot and sometimes not everyone gives as much as you do. it was a sad realisation but it happened and I've lowered my expectations with certain people so that I don't get hurt. I don't want to tell y'all that's it's better to expect less, but it helped me to stop caring as much (to some extent, i'm still trying). Sometimes it's better to do that and protect yourself because the world isn't nice to us sensitive, anxious people and we need to be careful with that and look out for ourselves.

- now if you're like me and you know the reason for why you're feeling like this, then the best thing to do is confront it. like if you're having trouble with a friend, your partner, family member anything like that is causing you to feel this way then you need to confront them and be honest. it's the best way to get things sorted out.

- i remember reading this quote on twitter that was apparently said by Chris Evans, which read "maybe the thing you're most scared of is what you should do", and that's true. I was afraid of confronting the person i was having problems with because i was afraid of the reaction, but it turned out to be the thing i needed to do all along to help me get through this phase. a friend of mine also said that you need to face your fears, which is also true. it's scary i know, and it's easier said than done, but at some point you're gonna feel tired of feeling this way and JUST DO IT *says this in Shea's voice while flexing muscles.

- lastly, be patient because things will work out one way or another. everything happens for a reason, and i am a firm believer in that. even though i'm sort of past this anxiety phase, i'm still stressed about exams and other personal problems that i'm so confused and worried about but the only thing i can do about it is just wait it out. give it time, and be patient.

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I hope this advice and these tips help in some way. Just be patient and pull through the tough times life puts us through because it will get better. Always have hope and stay positive. I know it's easier said that done, once again, but start believing in it.

Also I just wanted to say that if you know someone who struggles with anxiety, or depression or anything like that. Just hug them, text them and tell them that you love them and that you're there for them. Always be kind and caring to people especially when you're online because you really don't know what someone could be going through.

It's so important that if it's a friend or a family member or something that you pay attention and take into consideration their worries and insecurities because it'll really help that person. Even just saying something like "are you okay?", "how are you?", "I'm here for you", are good enough and can be so reassuring to a person who's struggling. It just shows that SOMEONE cares you know?

I love you all and I am here for you❤️

THAT'S ALL FOLKS