vent abt feelings #1

it's kinda weird

lately i've been feeling this weird detachment from my life. like, the people i consider my best friends are super funny and outgoing, but they're closer to other people than they are me. and i recognize that and i know they'll probably forgot about me because i'm really not that exciting / memorable irl,, and i feel detached from it all. kind of like a "oh. oh well" attitude about it.

but on the other hand it sucks because when i get home after a long day of school and dance, i don't have anyone to talk to. so i guess deep down it really does bother me. i dunno. i've just been super super stressed and anxious and edgy for no reason the past few months, so maybe that ties into it.

also, school is so draining. everyone there is so negative, and they cuss and yell a lot and i hate it. then there's that whole friend dynamic i mentioned earlier. i can feel my happiness being sucked out of my body every time i walk through the front doors.

and i feel so inspired to create dances and stories, but it won't come out of me. i cab think it, but when it comes to dancing / writing it, i can't. it's gotten so bad that someone's had a request for a oneshot up for three months and i still haven't hit 200 words on it yet.

i know no one reads these, but sorry for complaining so much. i'm okay. i just needed to vent.

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