Fun fact: when faced with a situation where I get shy and/or overwhelmed in terms of talking, my voice tends to raise to a higher-pitched and cutesy sounding voice. The more shyness and/or overwhelmingness collected, the higher. It can be a little embarrassing since it doesn't take much for my voice in such situations to sound something like a loli anime girl or baby.

Maybe it doesn't take much since, in comparison to a lot of people I met online who I know what they sound like, my voice is slightly higher than average (or at least I think so, anyway, since a lot of voices I come across are quite or rather deep).

That is to say, my voice is a little deep, but not by much. H eck, my 3-year-younger sister has a deeper voice than mine, almost as though all of the times I goofed off with my voice or sung along to songs at home was what made my voice like this.

So point is, just now my Chorus class' substitute teacher approached me when I just sat down pretty close, and I didn't even notice until she asked what my name was. She startled me, man, and I was not exactly pleased with how caught-off-guard and high my voice sounded when I told her.

Not to mention, she couldn't find my name at one point (ig it's understandable? Since it's within the lower half of the name list due to my surname and is a spelled variant of the actual name), so I had to point it out for her and say "yeah" when she asked if that was me 

Oh boy, I bet I sounded like an innocent baby. It's odd to get embarassed about it when I don't get quite so embarassed with things society would pay more attention to (like sitting on the floor in public, or whatever else my mom kept telling me not to do bc "everyone will think i'm silly and laugh at me and think bad about me, pointing at me while thinking "oh! She's weird!") but like

Idk

It's just awkward, sometimes, when people think I'm a sweet naive angel like how nearly everyone seemed to think of me back in my younger days? Ig

It doesn't help when I'm getting soft over a rp relationship atm, so my heart is weaker XD

haha

With that kind of startlement, it wouldn't be a big deal to me for any more than 2 minutes. It's different if it's paranoia, but this is just startlement. Wtf

Great im feeling awkward with this now;; well that should be resolved when my friend manages to exasperate me enough with her occassionally-displeasing conversations with her other friend

No no not because she's with a different friend, in case I created any misunderstandings. It's because sometimes, this friend talks about stuff I particularly don't like hearing about, such as racist(ish?) comments/incidents or displeasing opinions from herself or other people

She's a good friend, really, it's just that the things she talks about sometimes isn't the kind I like or is fine to listen to. This applies to like half of my friends, actually, and one is like half of that condition, too, since she never says anything displeasing to me but does say some things I don't believe I would like very much to other people who's accepting with such things

Not that all of the things are bad in my opinion, oh no, it's just they're simply things I don't like to hear/see

Ok this is why I consider myself pretty sensitive-

GAH I TALKED TOO MUCH IM SRRY-