So, I read through my chapter from last year about the PWA, and I've realized that I remember almost nothing from these past few years. I don't remember anything that I talked about on that chapter except Kat joining and saving the awards at the last minute.

That's just weird to me because it's making me realize how little of anything I remember? I don't remember any of the books that I read and judged last year, and the only reason I remembered any of the books I this year is because I wrote extensive notes on each. I don't know why my memory is so horrible, but it goes to show why I don't belong as an admin for a competition of that scale :'D sorry for how I disappeared this year, I was a really horrible admin and it's well deserved that I'm no longer a PWA staff member.

Anyways, beyond that, this whole PWA ending thing has left me really depressed because, again, I don't remember anything that's happened recently. Hell, I just read through TCIAF in hopes of working on it again and I was shocked to realize I didn't remember anything from it. SO basically I'm just mega sad that this awful memory of mine and The Big Depression made for this year to be particularly awful for me in terms of the PWA

I don't wanna dwell on that for too long though, because there's no one to blame but myself and I don't want people feeling bad for me because it's entirely my fault. On the bright side, I can participate in the PWA if I remember to work on my book!

As for updates, I'm going to work on and hopefully finish TCIAF, but you won't see any updates for a while. I'm going to finish writing it, then I'll post chapters as I edit them because I know this book will need a LOT of editing.

Idk how much I'll get done though, because my dad's making me apply to a bunch of private schools that I don't qualify for at all so I'm writing, like, 14 essays for that. If I could just apply to the schools I actually want to go to, I'd already be done with all this, but unfortunately I'm not.

tl;dr I'm big depression (what's new) and I spent this year dissociating and being basically useless but i want that to change but idk how to do that until i find out the root of my memory issues. sorry for the vent but i thought y'all deserved to know what's going on and why i disappeared for like a year