I hoped that kid was okay, I remember him constantly popping back into my mind throughout the day, it even worried my boyfriend, Laurence. I guess I'm always spacing out and not showing much interest in what he says. I don't know how to feel anymore, we worked really well in the beginning, we started as friends and became more over time, but why?
What spark was there?
I wasn't sure if it existed anymore, or as intensely as it once had.
Maybe it was because I was in love with someone else, someone I had never even met.
How was it possible to have feelings for someone who could be feeding you lies every single day?
For all I knew, he could be a 50 year old psychopathic pyromaniac just waiting for me to slip up so he can burn my house to the ground.
Extreme?
Maybe.
But plausible.
So is it bad to feel this way?