I talked to my girlfriend about my little prolbem... And some things shall be erased for privte reasons... But... I will post it here.

Your not ugly! Your beautiful! Your face isn't a disgrace! You don't even see what others see and what I see. Your not a suicidal freak. Because you can fight the urge to cut. If you want to see a real suicidal freak look at me. __________ You wanna know why? Because I'm weak. I'm not strong enough to fight the urge. I've been trying so much. But you different you make have a little breakdown but you still find some way to fight it. You may say that's not true but I know it true. Your so special because not only are you beautiful on the outside but on the inside. You can try not to believe all of this but it's all true.

Me: Why do you care about me so much?

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, YOU BAKA!!!! You mean so much to me you can't even understand!! I worry about you so much!!! I cut myself and started crying when I realized I was hurting you!! You wanna know why?! Because I LOVE YOU!! I'm here for you! And I feel like your forgetting that....I feel like your forgetting that there's someone's willing to give their heart and everything to you...I care so much and I feel like you forget I'm here right in front of you...caring about you and loving you...I'm sorry for snapping but I feel like your forgetting I'm here for you...