Kate's pov

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Life can be full of disappointment, making us lower our expectations in life

When that dissapointment crashes, we learn to protect ourselves so we don't feel that pain again

Simple things like not hoping for that promotion or expecting to win that spelling B

I've learnt to make others happy, never to make myself happy

That's why I stood frozen when Autumn's words left her lips

"I like you" Autumn whispered

My brain went on pause as everything became inaudible in a flash. A trance seemed to take over me when I noticed her lips moving in slow motion

Was I dreaming? It was almost 2 in the morning, surely this was a hallucination of some sort.

"Kate?" She whispered, yet I was still in my own little trance

Maybe my mind was faulting and imagining things right? I was wrapped in the arms of the most breathtaking girl I've ever seen, the way her dark hair cascaded down her back and curled at the ends were just perfect, the way her nose scrunched up when she laughed, the way her blue eyes twinkled with excitement when she thought about chocolate. She was simply perfect, but I fell for her for other reasons

I fell for her heart that no one else knew, that heart that held so many tragedies, that heart that weighed heavy and fought off any and everything that tried to get close. I fell for her and now I was imaging her wanting me back

"Goddammit Kate" Autumn groaned, snapping me back into reality

"I knew I shouldn't have said anything" Autumn hissed

"Wait what?" I asked

The raven hair girl shook her head as she tried to break away from our embrace, her arms fell to her side and the warmth I felt immediately left my body

"I thought it was obvious but I guess it was just sex for you, I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anythin-"

That's when it hit me like a big Mac truck running over a crunchy fallen leave. My brain was functioning right and God knows I wasn't imagining it

Autumn likes me. Autumn fucking Hester actually likes me.

I know y'all are yelling at me in your brain right now but I DIDN'T KNOW

"I'll call a car, you can ride with Ric-"

"Autumn" I said sternly

"I'm sorry I didn't mea-"

"Autumn" I chuckled softly, taking another step closer to her

"I really shouldn't have said anythin-"

"dear God. AUTUMN" I laughed, wrapping my arms around her neck again

"Yes?" She whispered

I could tell there was panic in her eyes, they seemed more gloomy than usual. Her fingers trembled slightly and her cheeks seemed pale, the blood had drained from her face and I was sure to return it

"I like you too" I chuckled

It took a second for realization to hit her but when it did, God knows how beautiful it was

Her gloomy greyish eyes lit up into the bright blue sky as the corner of her lips twisted up into a smile

I squealed when I felt her arms wrap around my back and lift me off my feet. On instinct, my thighs wrapped around her waist and I gripped her shoulders even tighter when I felt our bodies swing around

"YES! OH MY GOD YES" Autumn yelled out causing me to giggle

"SHE LIKES ME. KATE WILSON LIKES ME BACK. FUCK YES" The raven hair girl screamed

I honestly had no idea how to contain my blush, my cheeks felt like it was on fire and Autumn screaming my name at the top of her lungs wasn't helping either

"You're gonna drop me" I laughed

"Shut up, you like me!" Autumn yelled

My head threw back in laughter as she continued to spin, the cold breeze rocking against my skin was nothing compared to the warm feeling boiling side of me

"God you have no idea how much I've craved to hear those words" Autumn chuckled

Maybe it was the way her smile lit up the dim parking lot or the way she squeezed me tight in her arms but I felt all emotions release into me in that moment

"I'm tired of just sex, I'm tired of teasing, I want to hold you Kate. I want to fucking hold your hands whenever I want to without thinking you'll push me away, I want to kiss you whenever the fuck I want to, do you have ANY IDEA how hard it is to resist you!? You're always on my goddamned mind, you're all I think about and who I want to be near. I've never met someone like you Kate and it's.. It's so goddamned scary to take this leap but I want you. I want you to trust me on this. I won't hurt you, I won't fuck up like everyone else Kate, I'm different and you know that. Just give me a chance, let me take you on a date. A real one, fuck the deal, fuck the media, I just want to take you on a real date Kate Wilson, if you'll have me" Autumn stated as she came to a halt

Something started inside me, like the blossoming of the sleep and wake flowers when the warm ray of the morning sun blessed the delicate petals.

My forehead leaned against hers in attempt to calm myself. The rush of adrenaline pushed through my veins while my heart throbbed in my chest, my lips trembled and my eyes closed as the feeling consumed me.

Happiness flowed through me, warming my skin like the rays of an early summer sun. My customary cautious grin exploded into a radiant smile that I had never worn before, not even as a small girl

Autumn was making me feel so many things and she had no idea the control she had over me

"You.. You have no idea how badly I've wanted you" I whispered against her lips

Autumn's eyes shut tightly as a deep exhale left her lips that were trembling slightly.

"I've wanted you for so long" I whispered again, squeezing my arms around her neck even tighter

The pounding of my heart seemed to sync up with another feeling, it was only then did I realize Autumn's heart was racing through her chest and beating against mine

"I can't stop thinking about you Autumn. When you're not there, you're the only one I want to be around. You never leave my mind, just the thought of you makes me smile and I hate it because I'm always fucking smiling now" I chuckled

"Ugh god" Autumn groaned, her fingers dug deeper into my back

With one swift move, she spun herself around and pressed my back firmly against the concrete wall of the building

"If you keep talking, my knees are gonna go weak and my heart is gonna leave my chest" Autumn whispered

A sharp electric feeling ran through my body that travelled down my arm, raising the small hairs on my skin

God knows I couldn't control how I was feeling right now

Our cheeks brushed together and I could feel each and every movement of her heart from our chests pressed against each other. There was one thing on my mind right now and I couldn't shake it

Those soft pink lips called me, lingering behind my head like the devil and angel on my shoulders, debating whether to lean in or keep to myself. The month was ending in a couple days either way

Autumn's lips barely brushed against my ear and I immediately lost all control of my own body. But then again, I should be accustomed to that, only Autumn could make me feel like I was travelling to the moon, on a different high

"Kate" her voice whispered against my ear

"Ye-yes?"

"Can.. Can I kiss you?" She questioned, sending my heart into another flutter

I swear I was going to lose my mind any second now. She was a drug, I was addicted from the start and I couldn't get rid of her even if I tried. Her lips was poison yet I wanted to ended it all when she glanced my way

Our lips moved closer, hesitating to lean in or not. Perhaps because we knew what would happen when we do. Our bodies were already going crazy, I remembered what it was like to kiss her

What it was like to feel like I was floating, what it was like to have my energy body light up in one go from just a simple touch of her lips

And so she came closer, those icy blue eyes I knew were now as warm as a summer's pool. Our lips barley brushing against each other as we both leaned in

I could never control my craving for her, it lived deep within me, each day devouring my soul

Her loft lips brushed against mine in a slow kiss, a lingering kiss that was meant to stop all train of thought and make decisions when there were no question of choice

I almost melted, my eyes closed tightly as Autumn captured my bottom lip between hers. This was a kiss that meant more than lust, more than sexual desires, it was passionate in its own way with our soft, slow lips moving against each other. Chills ran down my spine and the familiar electric charge coursed through our veins again.

It was a kiss enough to bring you to your knees yet strong enough to keep you standing. A kiss that made you claim each other

I felt my body shudder in pleasure as she ran a tongue across my bottom lip, begging for entrance. I opened my mouth and allowed muffled moans to escape as her tongue roamed my mouth moving against my tongue.

Weak, I was. Weak in every fiber of my being was only being controlled by my urge to hold her. Her palms locked the nape of my neck as I moaned against her mouth, feeling her pull me even closer

Our lips never broke contact, her tongue flicked over my bottom lips begging for entrance which I granted. I moaned against her mouth when her tongue fought mine, the small dominance in her seemed to drive me crazy

My head was getting dizzy from the lack of oxygen but I didn't care

I needed to taste her if it was the last thing I did

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