Michael sat in the passenger seat looking at me the whole time I was driving back to Neverland.

"Stop starring at me" I said as I pulled through the gates of Neverland.

"I can't"

I parked the car and got my suitcase out of the car. I closed the door and Michael was right behind me. He tried to take the suitcase from me but I didn't let him.

"Don't try an be Mr. Nice all of a sudden, I can carry my own things."

He nodded and I unlocked the door.

We step into the house and was greeted by his maids and chefs.

"You guys can take the night off. You look tired." I said to the chefs and maids because they all looked terrible.

"Is it alright Mr. Jackson?" One of the maids asked.

"Oh you don't have to ask him, I said you can take the rest of the night off. Go ahead. It's okay."

They nodded an went to pack up their things to leave for the night.

I started up the stairs, heading for the guest room.

"You're not sleeping in the bedroom Fee?" Michael asked following me. I shook my head no.

"No"

"Why not?"

"Because I hate you right now. I don't want to lie next to you"

"Babe, I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said. It was just out of anger."

"You know what, I am tired of hearing 'sorry' you are always sorry. You never mean to do things, but you do them anyways.

Can you ever do something right for once. You know, ever since I have been all laid up in the bed for those few days that I found out my quote unquote stupid little nana died you've been acting strange.

You've been more bossy and rough. Why is that? huh. Tell me."

"I don't know what you are talking about."

"You don't know huh?"

"No, I don't. Are you going to sleep in the bedroom or not?" he answered me so quickly, it's as if I'm suspecting something now. I wonder what this fool has done now.

"No. Now get out."

"C'mon please sleep with me. I can't sleep peacefully without you beside me."

"Well looks like you're going to be sleeping terrible tonight. In not sleeping next to you. Heehee, I'm actually sorry for once ha. This is some crazy ass shit."

"Please stop cursing!"

"You sound mad. What are gonna do? Huh? hit me? yeah okay. Get out."

He stared at me for a few minutes. The way he looked at me sent chills down my spine. It gave me goosebumps all over my body.

He finally spoke.

"I'm not leaving unless you are sleeping with me"

"Just tell me to leave, and I will not stand in your way"

"What?"

"I'm not sleeping with you"

"Just sleep in the bedroom please"

After 20 minutes of begging I finally gave in and said "Fine"

Why am I so caught up in his love?

It's the littlest things he does that makes me fall harder. I decided to take a shower to get away from him because he kept following me around, watching my every move.

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After taking my shower, I got in the bed and took up as much space as I could.

"Baby girl scoot over"

"No Michael."

"C'mon. Please."

I scooted over alright. All the way to the edge of the side of the bed.

"Babe-"

"Shut up Michael. You wanted me to scoot over so I did. Go to sleep."

I fell asleep and woke right back up in the middle of the night because Michael was near me and was touching all over my body.

"Stop Michael."

He didn't say anything, he just kept on touching my body. I huffed and grabbed the pillow I was laying on and the pillow he was laying on, and the cover we were both under and lied down on the floor.

"HEYYY!!" he yelled when he felt the cool air hit his naked body.

Yes, he was naked.

Don't ask me, I have no idea why. Sometimes I wonder about him.

"Well stop fucking touching me. I'm trying to get some sleep." I said as I fluffed out the pillows that were on the floor.

"It's cold."

"Go to sleep Michael" I said while my eyes were closed. He kept complaining and I tuned him out and went to sleep.

******Next Morning******

I fluttered my eyes open because someone was touching my body.

Again!

ugh I swear I can't sleep peacefully without Michael messing with me.

Just one peaceful sleep and I swear I'll do anything.

All I ask for is one peaceful sleep.

Is that to much to ask for?

I opened my eyes and saw Michael lying next to me butt naked. His eyes were red and puffy, as if he was crying.

"Good Morning baby girl"

I just looked at him. He obviously can't sleep without me but really. Come on now.

"Why are you lying next to me?"

"I couldn't sleep."

"I don't care Michael. I don't want to sleep next to you. Get up and go put some clothes on. The whole point of me getting on the floor was to not sleep next to you. I still hate you."

"You don't hate me."

"Oh yes I do. You just don't know."

"Then why are you still here?"

I've thought about that question.

Why am I still here?

"See, you don't hate me."

"Yes I do. I do hate you"

"You don't"

"Oh really?"

"Yes really"

I got up and regretted it. My back hurts so much now. And so does my feet. I went to the dresser and pulled out all of my things. I grabbed a suitcase and threw all of it in there.

"What are you doing!?"

"I'm showing you how much I hate you,"

"By packing all of your things?"

"Yes, and leaving you."

"What!?"

"Yeah, I'm showing you how much I hate you. I hate you so much Michael that I'm leaving you. I'm done with you. I'm over you."

"Wait, no please don't leave me. Look I apologize for everything I've ever done wrong. I don't mean to hurt you. Please."

As I was putting stuff in the suitcase, he kept on taking it out, placing the items back in their original spots.

"Stop doing that Michael."

"No. Please stay."

"Noo! I wouldn't--"

He kissed me

The kiss.

That kiss.

Never have I ever been kissed like that before. It held so much meaning to it.

He backed me into a wall and continued to kiss me. He let his kiss trail.

"Michael." I said out of breathe.

"What are you doing. You're trying to seduce me."

"No I'm not, I'm trying to let you feel how much I love you. I can't loose you girl. You mean so much to me.

Please don't leave me. I love you. You can't leave me now. We have to tour. We start rehearsal tomorrow and I want you.

I want you there to dance and I want you there for your support and your talent. Your amazing. I love you so much.

I can't loose you girl. I love you too much to let you walk away. Will you please stay?"

"I don't know Michael. You've hurt me so much."

"I know I have. I'm sorry though. I just...I don't mean to hurt you. I never meant to hurt you....Baby please don't leave me. Please. I swear I'll change. I'll do my best to keep you. I want you. I need you girl. You can't leave me. Please give me another chance. Please."

Should I?

I mean I do love him but I also hate him.

But not as much as I love him.

He has always been there whenever I needed him.

I mean everyone deserves a second chance.

Right?

"Please?"

I hope I won't regret my decision. I need advice. The first person I could think of was Lisa.

"Michael, where is Lisa?"

"In the guest house why?"

I just left and headed to the guest house. When I arrived the lights were on and I heard singing.

I knocked on the door and some guy opened it.

"Who are you?" I asked the guy that was standing there.

"I'm Justin and you are?"

"I'm Sofia. What are you doing here?"

"I'm Lisa's boyfriend. I spent the last couple of days here checking on her."

"Does Michael know you are here?"

"Yes, he does actually. Lisa told him about me and he said I could stay. I met his girlfriend to."

"Girlfriend?"

"Yeah. Her name was Rachel. She is very beautiful."

"Oh really?"

"Yeah. She's-"

"Honey who's at the door?" Lisa said as she was walking to the door.

"Hello Lisa, how are you doing?"

"Justin give us a minute," he walked away before kissing her on the lips and telling her he much loves her.

That's cute.

"I'm doing great actually. How are you holding up?"

"Well, I don't know. I need advice."

"Okay. What do you need advice on?"

"Well the past couple of days we, as in Michael in I, spent them at his parents house"

"Mhm"

"Well he's been acting really strange lately, you know rough and bossy."

"What exactly do you mean by rough and bossy?"

"Well yesterday morning after meeting the whole family, we went back to his bedroom and I told him that his family was cool. He said thanks and was like c'mon let's go back downstairs. I told him that he could go and I'll be down there in a little bit. I was going to take a nap because I was sleepy."

"And what did he say?"

"He said how are you sleepy c'mon were going downstairs, no more sleeping"

"And what happened after that?"

"Well he grabbed my arm and pulled me to the door, I told him. That I wasn't handicapped and I could walk. He let go of my arm and pushed me forward. Then when we got downstairs I was looking for my mommy and sister,"

"Where were they?"

They were talking to Katherine and Janet. When I went to go over there Joseph stopped me and told everyone to quiet down, they did so."

"What did he say or do?"

"He started to walk up to me and got a little to close and I got scared and walked backwards trying to get away from him. He said I have one thing to say to you"

"Then what happened after that."

"He nodded and that's when Michael grabbed my arms an held me in placed. I asked him what he was doing and everybody pulled out a super soaker and started to squirt me."

"What?"

"Yeah I know right. Anyways long story short I got mad because that was the only thing Michael packed for me and my eyes changed to reddish brown and hazel. Randy was fascinated about it and Michael realized it."

I went on an on and told her what happened then I told her what he said about my nana and how my mother and snickers bitched slapped him an my reaction.

She was in tears when she heard what he said about her.

"Why would he say something so cruel to anyone like that?"

"I don't know he said it was out of anger"

"That should have never came out of anger no matter how mad he got."

"I know right. What should I do?"

"Well, do you love him?"

"Yes. So much, like words can't describe my love for him, literally. Like I've done so many things with him."

"What is your heart telling you?"

"My heart is telling me to stay, but my mind is telling me to go. My body is telling me to let him feel all of the pain he's caused me."

"Are you in love with him?"

"I am. Very much in love with him."

"Here's what you do, you do what your mind, body, and heart is telling you. Mix them all together and let it all out."

"How do I do that?"

"You guys start rehearsing for the BAD tour tomorrow right?"

"Yes. That's what he told me."

"Okay. Is dancing your getaway? Does it help you clear your mind?"

"Yes it really does. That's like my only getaway. It helps me a lot."

"Okay. I want you to put everything you got into those rehearsals. Let all of the anger get out of you and don't pay him any attention."

"Ok. I can do that. But what if he wants me to dance with him?"

"Dance with him. Don't say a word to him at the rehearsal. He'll understand that he's lucky you stayed and didn't leave."

"Okay. Any rules?"

"No eye contact, no kissing, no looking at his lips because I know when he bites down on that bottom lip it gets you all riled up."

"Ohh yes it really does. I will definitely not look at those lips."

"And his butt."

"What. Why not the butt. He won't know I'm looking at it."

"He will if he catches you. That's all I got. Don't do any of those at rehearsal. Okay?"

"Okay. I can do this."

"You want to stay the night with me and Justin in here so you can stay...you know, not break the rules before you even start."

"Haha yes sure. Where will I sleep?"

"I'll sleep in the middle and Justin will sleep behind me an you can sleep in front of me."

"Okay. Thanks. You know you are a good person. People say that you are selfish and mean and all of those other things, but once you sit down and talk to you one on one. You're awesome."

"Awwwn thank you. You're awesome to." We hugged and she kissed my cheeks. I don't care if Michael said not to let anyone kiss my face but hey it's my body and I can do whatever I want with it. He doesn't control me.

"Wanna go out for breakfast?"

"Yes sure. And let go baby shopping."

"Ooh really?"

"Yeah sure. I can't wait until you pop that baby out."

"Hahah me either. Yay!! I finally have someone to go baby shopping with."

"ahaha yeah you do."

"C'mon let's go."

"I can't go like right now. I need to take a shower haha."

"Okay. I'll wait. Don't forget the plan."

"Okay. I won't. Love you"

"Love you too"

I hope this plan works. I really do.