We went to the hospital. It was so damn big and had people laying everywhere....out in the parking lots and many places. It was quite crowded.

The waiting was empty for some reason. The service was crappy. And my other sister in law and my step mom left me all ALONE IN THE ROOM. When they left...a minute later a man walked in. They weren't letting men in. Only women. So i was immediately in panic mode.

I was too scared that I didn't even understand what he was saying. I said something and around... trying to find another way out because he was literally blocking the entrance. He stayed , staring at me before leaving. THEN he stood outside the waiting room and keep glancing around then inside. I was very scared by that. I don't do well around males in real life! I tried calling my step mom but she didn't answer so i tried calling my brother and thank god he answered. I told him and he told me to leave. I was also left around the stuff we brought so i was clueless as to what to do. I had two thoughts in my stupid mind that I'll either die or mugged...or worse. But yeah. He disappeared as soon as he saw my step mom and sister in law....yeah...i have a reason for having bad thoughts...anyway. for the fangirl part!

Soooo.... I met my nephew. he's so damn adorable. So tiny and fragile. He wouldn't wake up! I know newly borns don't wake up much I've heard he just kept sleeping. If he'd wake up , he open an eye and look around before falling asleep again. He also looks like his mom! Not like my brother at all! They had swaddled? Him and but him in little... Something like this...

I'll call it a baby case...baby packet?

And he was too tiny for it! Well the thingy was big idk. He was wearing boots on his hands because they couldn't find his gloves. The little idiot was sooooo adorable! And looked a little too angry. He also had little to no eyebrows. Felt like all his hair had ended up on the tiny head of his! And what else? My other sister in law was rushing me to leave and stuff.

He did open his eyes at one point. First he opened one eye and looked around. I did my best to make it a little dark so he'd open his eyes and he did! I wanna hold him for longer but we had to go back. I miss him ):

I'm suffering from baby cuteness... don't judge me.... Now i shall pass out