Ever noticed that when you're so fucking happy and suddenly something happens which ruins your day? Or you feel horrible when you weren't able to be there for someone? Ever felt a mix of these emotions? Yeah...

Or felt nothing? Like you're pretty sure your supposed to feel an emotion but you feel nothing? You're not happy or sad or angry. It's nothing?

Why do people get attached? Why? Why do i have to get attached to people who end up leaving.

I'm happy for them but i also wanna slap them because they've left and not coming back. A goodbye or maybe explaination would have helped

Just imagine waking up one day and checking your phone to see someone who helped you so much just...be gone. And finding out about it from someone else.

Just... don't get attached. You meet someone and talk to them a lot about everything and nothing. Then you start to get attached. At some point they leave due to problems and it kills you.

I might be making a big deal of this but look at it from my perspective.

Irl best friend? School closed. Lost contact.

Other great friends? School closed. Lost contact.

Almost a year missing those friends and having no social interaction? Check

New country. New school. No friends for months? Check

" Friends " remembering you exist when they need you? Check

Internet friends disappearing? Check.

I'm tired okay. I'm fucking tired of losing people. At this point I'm Sam Winchester because of my amazing luck.

Unless I'm already attached to you. I'm not talking out if character. If i want to share ideas. Maybe i will.

Because you meet someone through rp. You talk and rp and you get attached. You get attached and people leave at some point. That's the truth and you gotta learn to live with it.

I'm just gonna stay away from here till i clear my head...