He gently put me into his car as I continued not to make eye contact with him. I was still mad at him, just not as much as I had been. But now I knew that every word that escaped those perfect red lips were most likely lies.

I sat there, my head against the window, feeling the vibrations of his Lamborghini as he rode down the streets of Gotham. I had questions for him but it was no use asking him anything since I wouldn't know if he was lying.

But he was right, insanity was the emergency exit. I knew that now. I would still be furious, or crying if I wasn't at least a bit insane. I wouldn't be thinking of how he looked in the rain and how for once had shown who he really was.

I looked over at him and wondered if he was curable. I had seen the sane side of him only moments before this so I knew somewhere deep inside him, it was still alive. I just had to find a way to bring it back.

That, or I could kill the bit of sanity I still have left. That doesn't exactly sound like a terrible idea either.

I closed my eyes as I let my body relax on the white leather that filled the sports car that I had grown to love.

~*~*~*~*~

Blood.

There was blood everywhere as I looked around. It was all over me, all over the white marble that filled the bank and all over all the people I had just murdered.

I started to laugh and I dropped the gun in my hand walking around all the people. None of them had expected it, it was so easy.

Most of them had surprised looks on their faces and I couldn't help but laugh harder at how stupid they looked. I walked over to one woman, she had a hole in her head and looked a lot like Harley.

I squatted down next to her and took her face in my hands, squeezing it.

"Oh, were you not expecting that? poor you."

I laughed as I slammed her lifeless face on the ground, hitting it again and again so it started to cave in. I stood up and stepped on her head just to finish my job, my heel getting stuck in her skull for a moment.

This whole thing was so perfect and I could feel the insanity overwhelm me as I started to laugh again. But suddenly I heard someone walk in and turned around instantly shooting them, only to regret it.

The joker put his hand over his chest as he fell back, blood starting to pool around him. Tears threatened to leak as I screamed, running over to him.

I quickly sat next to his corpse as he looked up at me, taking his head in my lap. He motioned for me to come closer as he took a deep inhale.

"Stay evil dollface"

I felt him exhale on my ear and then, nothing. I held his limp body in my arms crying as I tried to push the blood back into him. But it was no use, he was gone.

~*~*~*~*~*~

I woke up screaming as I looked over to see joker getting out of the car. It was only a nightmare, but it felt so real. I quickly got out of the car and ran to the joker wrapping my arms around him. 

I never want to loose him.

I looked up at him, tears running down my face as he pushed his hair back, holding me close with one arm. He brought his large hand down to my face and wiped my tears, kissing my cheek before letting me go.

"Whats wrong doll?"

The door suddenly opened and out walked Harley, going straight to him and I sighed. I knew no matter how much I loved him he'd never love me back. I was just another Harley.

"Nothing, don't worry about it."

It looked like he wanted to say something but then he went back to his smiling self as he laughed and started to talk to Harley as we all walked in. I hated this, I hated how weak he made me. I needed to be my own woman.

But yet I couldn't. My feelings for him were too intense and I wanted to rip out my hair and scream at the top of my lungs because of it. I hated how he did this to me.

I quickly stomped upstairs and got undressed hoping in the shower. I needed some time alone with me and my brain, although that was also dangerous.

*_*_*_*

I layed on my bed, completely naked and still wet from my shower as I tried to forget the nightmare.

I guess it just shows how much I love him. But the question is, does he truly love me?

I wanted to believe he did but his actions didn't support his words. He said he loved me but yet two days later I catch him screwing Harley.

I just didn't know what to believe anymore. He had even called her dollface which I had thought was a pet name he reserved for me, but obviously not.

I wondered if he had always called Harley doll or dollface and just passed the name on to me when I came along, since I was supposed to be his new Harley. It made me mad to think that, not because he had done that but because I was stupid enough to think I meant something to him.

The only reason I wasn't sneaking back to Gotham and never coming back was because of what I had seen hours before. He had let his walls down for a little while and shown me who he really was.

There was so much more to think about but I could already feel myself falling into a deep sleep. So instead of trying to fight it, I let it overwhelm me and prayed that I didn't have another nightmare.

*_*_*_*

I groaned as I woke up on the floor, I had probably rolled off my bed in my sleep. But I saw that wasn't the case as I stood up and came face to face with Harley. She was grinning and I quickly reached in my bed side table grabbing my pistol and aiming at her.

"what the fuck are you doing here Harley?"

"Oh calm down."

She rolled her eyes and waved her hand but I kept my stance, not even caring that I was naked as I watched her look me over.

Shes judging me.

"Listen, I'm sorry okay. I figured we could make some breakfest for puddin' before he wakes up. Hows about it."

She put her hand on her hip and I sighed but put the gun down and quickly got dressed. She smiled over at me and I grinned slightly as we walked out of my room and downstairs.

I didn't know what to think of Harley, she seemed pretty bipolar at times. For instance, at times we'd be best friends and then the next day she'd be aiming a gun at my head. It gave me a headache.

"So, what should we make?"

"I don' know."

I groaned and looked in the fridge. He didn't have much but we could work with it. I found a pancake mix that only called for water and started making it, glad I wasn't going to eat animal products for the day.

Or so I thought.

"Hows about we put bacon in em'?"

"Bacon pancakes"

"Yeah! Puddin' loves bacon."

I sighed but nodded and told her to chop them into small pieces and cook them before we put them in the pancake mix. That was when I found out she was pretty shit at cooking. I had to save the bacon multiple times and she ended up just stirring in the ingredients.

I sighed as she grinned watching as I poured small circles onto the pan. Pieces of bacon stuck out of them and I rolled my eyes at how excited she looked. It was pretty boring, well, until she started singing.

"Makin' pancakes makin' bacon pancakes..."

I looked over at her as she continued to sing, swaying her hips and bouncing a little. It was stupid but I found myself joining in as I finished cooking the pancakes.

Just as I put the last pancake on his plate I jumped a mile because I suddenly felt arms around me.

"Always so jumpy aren't you dollface."

I sighed and looked over at Harley as I realized who it was. I don't know who I was expecting though. She looked happy however and quickly walked over to us.

"Puddin we made you pancakes."

"Oh is that right? Who cooked them."

"I did."

He bent down a little more biting my ear and whispering 'good then they might actually be edible' before unwrapping his arms and grabbing a plate. Me and Harley followed as we all sat at the table.

Harley and I seemed to be sitting on the edge of our seats as we watched him take his first bite. He didn't say anything at first and kept eating. Finally after his fifth bite he looked at us both.

"What? Why are you two staring?"

"How is it?"

"It's great, doll. Now stop staring at me."

I smiled and nodded as me and Harley looked at each other knowing we had done a good job and started to eat.

*_*_*_*

I layed upside down with my head dangling off the bed. I was bored, which was normal in this house.

Suddenly the door swung open and I saw an upside down Joker as I struggled to get up, tumbling off my bed. I quickly stood as I looked at the man.

"Don't you knock?"

"No time for small talk Deary, we have an important meeting with black masx."

I nodded as I took the clothes he had handed me, watching as he turned on his heal, a hand already running through his green locks that had grown considerably, now showing him brunette roots.

I didn't even wait for him to fully exit as I slipped on the clothing, this was it, this was what I was waiting for. We were finally going to get the man who had ambushed the manor. There was a bunny mask with the clothes but i threw it on my bed, I wanted him to see the face of the woman who killed him.

I quickly walked out meeting joker, Harley and the few goons who were always in the mannor along with the jokers head bodyguard. I stopped to grab some shoes as I exited but didn't take time, to put them on as I walked out of the manor and into the infamous purple Lamborghini.

The joker said some things to his men before sliding into the driver's seat and turning the key as the engine roared to life. He had that psychotic grin of his as he started to back out, while I slipped on my shoes.

He sped off towards Gotham as I looked out the window, knowing that this could be the end or the beginning of our story.

~

I stepped out of the car, my heals clicking on the pavement as I looked at the building in front of us. It was lit up and I could hear club music inside as well as see people dancing inside.

"He's having a party, he won't expect a thing."

I wasn't sure if the joker was talking to me or himself as I looked over at him and nodded, fixing my dress before walking over to him. He instantly snaked a hand around my waist, the other hand on his gun as we started to walk.

We walked in effortlessly, no one paying attention to us as we did so. It surprised me that no one batted an eye but as I looked over at him I realized his green hair was hidden by a top hat and he kept his face hidden. We didn't take much time before we sat in a dark corner, no one looking at us twice.

"What now J?"

"Nothing. We have to sit and enjoy ourselves until he comes down."

"But couldn't we just shoot them all and then get him?"

I smiled at the idea, a feeling of adrenaline rushing through my body as I imagined it. Insanity was such a wonderful thing.

"Be patient dollface. If we act too soon, he'll know we're coming and get away."

I sighed but nodded, standing up and swaying my hips slightly to the music.

"Fine, But i'm not just sitting over in a corner."

He smirked at me and chuckled. I took that as an okay to go as I walked away towards where lots of others were dancing.

I was able to get on a stage type thing as I moved my hips around the golden bar, locking my eyes with the crazed man that I had fallen in love with.

He bit his lip and although I wasn't close enough to hear him, I knew he had let out a growl as I watched him look me over. I knew exactly how to wrap him around my finger without him realizing.

But suddenly the music turned off and everyone looked around confused. Then suddenly a voice made everyone look up and although I had never seen him in person, I knew it was black masx.

I quickly looked over at J who had already gotten up, throwing his party hat to the floor as he walked closer, pulling his gun out. All the guards were to pre occupied with listening to their bosses speech that they didn't see the joker pull out his gun.

It seemed to all go in slow motion, but suddenly he pulled the trigger and it hit him in the forehead, making him fall backwards, dead. Then everyone started to go crazy but Jokers henchmen covered the doors as security started shooting at J.

I quickly started shooting the guards, but as time went on I shot anyone I could. I was laughing like a mad man as I got off the stage. Suddenly a girl grabbed me and whipped me back, almost sending me to the floor but I shot her. I quickly found J as we both shot everyone, blood splattering everywhere.

When it was all over we both turned to each other and laughed. But the laughing died down and suddenly without thinking, we both wrapped our arms around each other kissing passionately.

He suddenly pulled away though and whispered in my ear:

"I have a surprise and I think you're finally ready. do you accept doll?"

I quickly nodded and he pulled me out the door and into his Lamborghini.

This is going to be amazing.

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AYYYYYE

SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG!

IF YOU DIDN'T ALREADY REALIZE, ITS REALLY FUCKING LONG. BUT UM YEAH.

IM THINKING OF MAKING THE OUTFITS FOR THE DIF PARTS IN THIS CHAPTER CUZ I'M NOT GOOD AT EXPLAINING THEM.

ALSO SORRY FOR ANY GRAMMER OR SPELLING MISTAKES, GRAMMARLY IS BEING DUMB AND THATS WHAT I USE TOO FIX SHIT. BUT I'LL TRY TO FIX THEM SOON

UM BUT NEXT CHAPTER IN THE INFAMOUS 20TH CHAPTER.

WHO REMEMBERS THE SNEAK PEAK???

BUT YEAH IM REALLY EXCITED TO WRITE THAT ONE TOO.

WELL THATS ALL.

CHAPTER 20 IS GOING TO BE SHORT SO IT MAY BE UPLOADED LATER TODAY.

BUT THATS ALL.

BYE BYE!