I quickly caught up to them as we walked out of the club with Jokers one security guard that he brought everywhere with him close behind. 

Suddenly I felt a strong hand on my arm and the person pulled me close to them as I screamed out. Another man grabbed Harley and the joker spun on his heal.

"Look at these pretty two."

"c'mon fellas let em' go."

The Joker said as he growled slightly, I could see his gun shining from inside its holster. I wondered why he didn't just shoot them as well and leave.

"Oh no no no, you killed one our men J, so now we're taking one of yours."

"Fine, then let her go."

He nodded towards me and my eyes widened as I realized he had chosen me. The man grunted and pushed me forwards causing me to stumble a bit as the Jokers bodyguard got a hold of me.

The joker and him started to walk again and I couldn't believe he left Harley so easily. He had worked so hard to get her back and now he was just going to let two random guys have her.

"What about Harley? We can't just leave her!"

He growled as he stopped and turned slightly to me, clenching his Jaw.

"It was her or you, I chose you Doll. now thank me or shut the fuck up."

He turned back away and started walking but I knew I had to do something, I couldn't just let Harley go, especially since we had just connected. I quickly reached under my dress and pulled out the gun.

The two guys were walking away from me so they couldn't see. I was shaking but I knew I had to do this.

C'mon Autumn, they're criminals. They deserve to die.

Finally, I shot. Once and then twice. My ears started to ring from shooting in such a small area and I motioned for Harley to come. She nodded and we both went running down the hallway and out the doors where J was sitting in his Lamborghini.

He looked surprised at first when he saw Harley but then just rolled his eyes. Harley ran right past his car and to the truck, which confused me since she always rode with joker but I decided to take the chance and get in the purple car.

I quickly got in and closed the door, the joker speeding off as soon as it was shut. This was my second time ever riding in the car and it still amazed me. The interior was white leather with gold trimming and the feeling you got while riding in it was something I couldn't explain.

I bit my lip as what I did finally started to sink in. I had killed two men. Two men were dead on the floor of a club with bullets in their heads now because of me. I imagined if I ever killed someone I would be plagued with regret but I felt great.

It was like a drug, knowing I had just done that and gotten away with it. No one would know that I pulled the trigger and I actually wanted to do it again.

"I killed them. The Two men."

"I figured."

"I can see why you like it."

I smiled to myself and I could feel his eyes on me. I turned to look at him and he had a grin on his face, matching mine as he started to laugh. I couldn't help but do the same as we drove out of Gotham.

If this is what insanity is. I don't mind it.

*_*_*_*

I put my hair into a messy bun as I undressed, laying on my bed. I couldn't believe I had just done that. I had actually killed someone and liked it.

Now I started to regret it and I groaned. I knew I was losing my mind. It wouldn't be long until the practical side of me was completely gone.

"No. No that's not true. You are still sane Autumn. You didn't want to kill those men, you had to. The only reason you felt good was because you knew you had succeeded at getting Harley."

I nodded, yes that was it. The insane part of me has still locked away, the only reason I had felt good was because of the suspense and success. It was just my brain congratulating me on succeeding. In no way was it because I killed those men.

I sighed and rubbed my face, I hated this. It was like my brain was splitting. It felt like inside my head there were two different people. I knew one of those people were insane, and sometimes they made me think things that didn't make sense. But then there was the logical one, the real Autumn and the one who was in control of most of my brain.

I knew that not everyone was perfect, physically or psychologically and this was a normal thing. My brain was trying to protect itself.

I wished I knew more in depth what was happening to me but at the moment all I could do was theorize. My brain must be trying to protect itself but in a different way than most people's brains do. That had to be it.

I didn't want to think of this anymore, though. I didn't what to think about psychology or what was happening to me. I just wanted to be happy that we got Harley back.

But that made me have more questions, the biggest one being:

Why did he choose me over her?

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okay so this is a shorter chapter.

It is also complete shit.

Yay for complete shit chapter!

So sorry if the ending was a little confusing because I don't want her to just suddenly be going insane y'know.

I don't exactly know how to say it without spoiling my plans for the future so thats all i'm going to say. 

But pray for me because I have to write 5 more chapter with no clue what I'm going to write and then once I get to chapter 20 it'll be smooth sailing.

But yeah, I'm sorry I took so long to update, I am still going to try to update as soon as I reach 500 reads so it'll go faster. I just didn't this time because I didn't know what to write. which kind of scared me because i'm known for getting writers block and scraping full stories.

Also i need to get my mind back on suicide squad cuz my brain wants to start a new fanfiction about something completely different and I'm just like, fuck you brain.

but yeah.

pray for me

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