~a few days later~

I stretched, yawning and taking the heating pad off my forehead. I told J that I was alright but he wouldn't listen, it was cute, though. Today I would make sure to prove that I was strong enough so that we could go to that black masx's guys place and kill him.

Just the idea of it excites me.

I was like a kid who couldn't wait for Christmas and I figured I'd go see J. I was almost skipping as I walked upstairs and towards his room. I debated knocking but figured since he has confessed his love for me he wouldn't care if I walked in and surprised him.

However as soon as the door opened, I wished I had never met that man.

~Smut...I guess? warning~

My eyes widened as I watched them. Harley was sitting on his desk, her legs wrapped around his hips. His blue Arkham pants were pulled down to his ankles and I watched as he aggressively thrust into her, a hand on her mouth so no one could hear her moan. 

I was frozen as tears rushed down my face, watching as Harley moved her hands from his hair to his back, digging her nails into him and dragging them across his back causing red lines to form, a few of them bleeding. I heard him groan because of the pain.

"Do you like that Dollface?"

~end of smut, i guess?~

That was it, dollface made me snap out of my trance and I slammed the door. Tears rushed down my face and my chest hurt but my mind felt nothing. Insanity took it over, changing pain into anger. 

Everyone was against me, I could never be loved.

I didn't even bother grabbing clothes as I ran down the stairs and out of the house, wiping my tears. I heard a door slide open and looked back to see the joker on his balcony, his pants sitting awkwardly on his hips.

"Where do you think you're going doll?"

"Does it matter?"

I yelled back. Harley then stepped out, still naked and stuck her tongue out. Her body was perfect, sure she had scars and tattoos but they all added to her beauty. Her boobs were large and her stomach tight, with silky pale skin covering it all. 

Hell, even I could fall for her.

"I should've never let myself get comfortable, around someone like you, a hideous monster!"

I made sure to add the last part knowing that was something that would hit him deep as I quickly started running down the street towards what I hoped to be Gotham. But at this point, I didn't care where I went, as long as I was far away from him.

*_*_*_*

I walked down the streets of Gotham, I was still only in my underwear, trying to find my way to my apartment. I was only a street away from it when I heard a car pull beside me.

I started walking faster knowing the types of things that went down at night in Gotham. For all I knew it could be a rapist or a serial killer and no one would bat an eye.

"Slow down doll."

I groaned as I heard his voice, I didn't want to think of him. I didn't want to feel. I just wanted to go home and forgot this all happened.

The car stopped and I started to sprint as I heard the door open. I sprinted down the street and straight to my apartment building. It didn't matter, though, I didn't have the key.

"Why are you running doll?"

"Because that's all I can do."

I finally turned and looked at him, his green hair wasn't slicked back for once and pieces of it were thrown everywhere, a few dangling over his eyes. He looked beautiful as he walked towards me, clothes in his hand.

"Why did you come after me? Batman isn't even in Gotham right now anyways. That's what you said right? So why'd you come and get me."

"Oh doll, you mean more to me then bait for batsy."

"Sure I do."

I could feel the tears swell in my eyes as I grabbed the shirt and shorts out of his hands, quickly putting them on before turning on my heel and walking the other way. He followed me, though, I could hear his footsteps close to mine as I continued to walk.

I didn't know where I was going but I didn't care. I just needed to walk, to forget it all. I passed a few people who looked at me strangely or ran to the other side of the street when they saw him behind me but no one stopped and talked to me.

No of course not. They all hate you.

I somehow knew they didn't all hate me but yet the idea of just going into a hospital and shooting it up entertained me. It would teach them a lesson, I'd give them a reason to hate me.

But I didn't. I walked right past the hospital and continued down the dark streets of Gotham.

It started to rain but I didn't care as I just kept walking, the new clothes getting drenched. As I turned the last corner I realized where I was going.

The Board walk.

It was always my happy place. The lights, laughter, colors and people. By this time everyone was gone though and most of the stands were closed, the lights the only remaining bit of happiness.

I inhaled deeply and walked over to the edge, putting my hands on the fence and looking out at the water that splashed against the cement siding. The rain started to subside and I turned around as I heard him finally come to a complete stop.

His hair looked darker than before and was half covering his face, his purple shirt drenched and his dress shoes no longer shiny, but instead covered in pebbles and mud.

"I guess I shouldn't blame you. It's who you are."

I sighed and waited for him to talk but he didn't, he just stared at me from under his hair. It was like he was different now as he looked at me, his eyes a piercing blue. I had to look away for a moment.

"I wanted someone to love me."

"I do."

"Bullshit."

I swallowed hard as I let a few tears fall, probably looking like raindrops that had fallen from my sopping brunette hair. It looked black now though as I took a piece in my fingers looking down at it.

"Listen do- Autumn, what you saw was nothing. She means nothing. I don't love her. -"

"I know. You never did. But you don't love me either..."

I looked straight at him now as I took a few steps forwards.

"You only love yourself, Joker."

He shook his head, a bit of rain springing off of his green locks as he looked down the boardwalk.

"That's where you're wrong. I don't love myself, but truly, I do think I love you."

He looked back at me as he layed a hand on my hip and I felt then that I wasn't seeing the Joker. I wasn't seeing the prince of crime. I was seeing the man behind the mask, behind the insanity, the man that only I knew.

Slowly he leaned in and out lips brushed against each other as we kissed. Our lips moved in sync as he pushed my mouth open, letting his tongue enter and interlock with mine. I never wanted this to end. But all good things have to come to an end.

"Put your hands where we can see them!"

We pulled apart as we heard a man yell at us. I looked in his direction and saw it was a swarm of cops.

We're screwed.

I figured this would be it, the end. They had caught us kissing. I'd be put in jail as an accomplice of the Joker and killed for my crimes.

Or at least that's what I though.

J had other ideas, though. He suddenly pulled me close to his hip and put a gun to my head.

"Leave or she gets it."

The cops looked at each other but didn't move.

"Do you realize who this is? This is Autumn hill, a praised psychiatrist, and Bruce Wayne's best friend. Do you really want to jeopardize her life?"

He started to laugh like a maniac as he moved his finger to the trigger. The cops put their guns down however and slowly got back in their cars driving away. Once they were far enough, Joker put his gun down.

I knew why they had done so, Bruce was the richest man in Gotham and although he wasn't a cop himself he could easily fire anyone on the police force because of his friendship with commissioner Gordan and his authority in Gotham. What I was confused by was how Joker knew I was best friends with him.

Most people didn't know. Mostly because I wasn't rich, but I had met before his Parents died, they were sweet people and offered me a place to stay when my mother was in the hospital. For a while, they were like a family to me but once my mother died, I moved out of their estate and in with my father. I still hung out with Bruce though and I was there for him when his Parents died.

A few people thought we were dating from us hanging out so much but not many knew I was his best friend so I wondered how the Joker knew.

I was pulled out of my thoughts so when J suddenly picked me up bridal style and started walking with me.

"Listen deary. I do love you." 

"I know."

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OKAY SO THATS IT

AND ITS A LONG CHAPTER

YAYYYY

SO I WANTED TO ADD THE THING ABOUT BRUCE JUST BECAUSE A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE BEEN ASKING HOW SHE'S CONECTED TO BATMAN.

SO NOW YOU KNOW.

ALSO IN THIS BOOK HES ON A BUISNESS TRIP.

OR WILL BE FOR A FEW MORE CHAPTERS

HINT HINT.

UM BUT YEAH.

IDK WHY THIS IS IN ALL CAPS BUT YEAH, THATS ALL.

BYE BYE