Zay's POV

Today is one of the few days that Elliot and I don't work together and it feel strange to wake up in an empty bed.

He went to his own apartment last night after the two of us went out for coffee and had a good time. I didn't really want him to go, but he said he needed to be home at least for a night or so. But his whole vibe seemed off when he left and I can feel myself begin to panic that he's just going to go back to the way he was when we first met.

Trying not to let myself panic into staying home, I make my way to the kitchen to turn on the coffee pot before making my way back doesn't the hallway and into the bathroom.

Ahh the bathroom.

I can't wait to get fucked in here.

Even though Elliot and I have only had sex once, I'm definitely ready for a million more rounds of him pounding me into the mattress. Though I would never boost his head or ego, that was the best fuck I've had in my life, and I've been basically full ever since.

The man has a dick of the Gods.

Having cheered myself up, but also making myself horny, I feel a little better as I turn on the shower and step inside, grabbing my Scented soap as I let the water run down my body and my hair, loving the feeling of it.

I lather up the soap in my hands before i let them spread around my body, trying my beta to ignore my cock thats throbbing between my legs, willing it to go down.

And it starts to.

Until I start thinking about Elliot behind me helping me get my body lathered and wet and then I'm horny and hard all over again.

And endless cycle really.

I wash my cock as best I can, trying not to let the pleasure of my slick hand on me get to me, and luckily my phone rings just as I think about saying fuck it. Literally.

I sigh in disappointment before I turn off the shower and reach out of the curtain to my phone thats blaring from the counter. I pick it up before putting it on speaker. I grab my towel before stepping out on to the rug in front of the shower and greet whoever is calling me.

"Hello?"

"I can't come in today." Is the first words I hear and I groan loudly as I think about going over to the stupid man and shooting him in his kneecaps.

"Why not?" I ask Ares, knowing that we had the same schedule today. I had planned on talking to him today, but apparently that option is going down the drain. I haven't seen my boyfriends in forever and I miss playing with Thomas' cat, Snow, even if the white cat can be an evil little fucker some times. He sighs to me and I immediately sober up, knowing what that means. "It's one of those days."

It's not a question, but a statement and he confirms it with a sad and tired voice.

"He had a nightmare last night while I was in the shower after I got home. He's still not okay. I can't just leave him here to fend for himself when he's going to be needing me here." He explains to me, but I don't need the words.

"I know. You don't have to tell me." I tell him softly and I hear him sigh again. Not wanting to hold him up, I tell him one last thing. "I'm going to drop by before work and give you guys some stuff I have." I tell him.

"Alright see you." Ares says and he's quick to hang up though I don't take offense.

Even though it's been months since Thomas has gotten back, I think everyone knows that those thoughts and fears aren't going to go anywhere except maybe to the back of his mind.

It sucks to see someone so full of life and so secure within himself he so scared and anxious. But I know that Ares will do any and everything he can to make sure that Thomas will always be safe no matter what, even if that means he has to give himself up. He made me promise that if anything ever happens to him, I have to make sure that Thomas is okay.

Which is a heavy promise to carry.

But I would do it for him. They deserve it after everything they've been through. After I get out the shower, I hurriedly get dressed as I get ready for work, not wanting to be late to work.

I go inside my kitchen and grab some snacks, drinks, and a few other things to make their day in a little better since Ares will be hesitant about even going to the store. I leave my apartment after making sure I have everything before I make my way down the stairs and to my car, throwing everything into the passenger seat as I pull off.

It only takes me eight minutes to get to the brothel that they're packing up to move out of. I grab all the stuff for Thomas before getting out of the car, locking it, before making my way inside and up the stairs to their apartment.

I knock on the door and after a few minutes, it's pulled open to reveal a tired looking Ares, bags under his eyes as his tatted hand comes up to rub the back of his neck.

"It's a bad day, but you'll get through it." I tell him as I hand him the bag and lean forward to give him a tightly hug that he gratefully returns before I pull back. "Feel better Thomas." I tell the Vampire at normal volume, knowing he's not too far behind Ares on a day like this. And sure enough, I see his white hair peek from behind Ares, his eyes red and just as tired as his lovers.

He waved as me and mouths his thanks before I give them both a smile and I'm on my way, hoping that the two of them have a better day.

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Since Ares didn't come to work today, my parents turned out to be Brice who did not look too happy to not be with his girlfriend.

In fact, all he's done today is day dream about her and tell me about all the adorable things she does that she doesn't want anyone to know. At first I felt a little jealous of the relationship that they have until I begin to wish he could help. And with a leap of faith, I ask him for it.

"How did you and Syd get such a perfect relationship?" I ask him at lunch and his first reaction is to laugh loudly, his wide smile and teeth gorgeous as he does.

"It's far from perfect, especially in the beginning. She didn't want anything to do with me. She called me annoying and stupid. She still does but at least I'm her's now." He tells me and I frown at him, not because of his happiness but of something he said.

"How did you make her like you and submit to the Bond?" I ask him, needing to know so that maybe this thing between me and Elliot can work out like I want it to. But Brice's smile dims a little as he answers my question.

"You can't make someone like you. If you're with them or if they're your soulmate, then to some degree they already do like you. But the worse thing you can do is try to force it. If you try to do that, it'll make them resent you." He tries to explain to me but it doesn't make sense and I tell him so with a frown on my face.

"But being someone's Soulmates means that you have a promise and an obligation to love that person and be with them." I tell to him earnestly.

"Thats what it is, you're mistaking the Bond for the Mark. That tie that rope that you feel to them is the path, the Mark is the destination. If you give him detours and push him to take an exit too early, he'll never get there." He tells me and I sit there as I think about the words he told me and about my current situation.

This soulmate thing is a lot harder than I thought.

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Guys we're getting so close to the chapter that Im excited for. It's really going to open some of you guys eyes. What do you think about Zay and his thoughts on Elliot and the Bond?

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