Ahh so it begins.

Elliot's POV

"You're staring."

"I know that. Keep driving." Zay tells me and though I can tell he's trying to have his typical uncaring flirtatious vibe, it's still very much obvious that I get him flustered.

I chuckle at his response and shake my head even as confused panic falls over me. I'm straight as a fucking ruler, but as soon as I saw Zay in that sweater that made his skin glow, I felt my dick twitch, a lot harder that it did earlier this morning. And while I try to remain cool on the outside, I feel like cutting my dick off and running away.

Well, maybe not. I don't think I'm quite done using it yet. I snort to myself as we pull up into the café parking lot and turn to look at Zay who's wiping his hands on his skinny jeans.

"Nervous?" I ask him and he turns to me to scoff and roll his eyes.

"No. I'm hungry. Let's go." He says sassily, opening up his door to get out. I was going to call a smart ass remark after him, but after seeing the way his ass fills out the jeans he's wearing, I'm not quite sure what my brain is functioning.

Holy fuck, Elliot. Catch a fucking grip. He's a man.

Shaking my head from the weird thoughts I've been having lately, I get out the car on my side, closing the door and locking the car behind us. Though he seemed confident just a second ago, Zayvion looks scared shitless right now. In an effort to calm his nerves I place my hand in the small of his back, the way Bambi likes when she's all over the place, and lead him across the street.

My hand tingles in the spot where our bodies touch butt I try to ignore it as we reach the building and I let my hands fall from his body to open the door for us.

We walk in to the addicting smell of cinnamon and coffee and a million other scents that seem perfect. I find myself drooling over all the pastries and everything else I find and I catch Zay laughing at my awestruck face. I only roll my eyes at him happy to see him not as uptight as before.

I'll say it once and I'll say it a million times: Awkward people don't mix.

And least when it comes to things like this anyway.

I order myself a black coffee and Zayvion gets some ice cream looking thing before we buy some pastries. At least I did. The Hybrid just stood there apparently highly amused. Once we have everything we ordered, we grab our stuff and make our way towards a random table closer to the door but not so close we get a burst of stuffy autumn air.

I settled back into my seat and I try not to let myself think too much about what's going on.

About the fact that I am basically on a date with a man. A male. A dude. A person with a dick slinging between their legs.

Fuck.

But I try to swallow the mixed feel sing about that thought as the two of us finally begin to get to know each other. "You know, the only thing I know about you is that you're human and you're a terrible flirt." Zayvion tells me while sipping on his drink and I chuckle to myself with a reading expression.

"Oh yes. Because I'm the one the gets flustered whenever you te without three feet of me." I say and he rolls his eyes and shake his head.

"See, you're wrong." He says before taking a pause with his lips twitching and I raise my brows before he explains himself. "It's five feet actually. Anything less sends me into cardiac arrest." He tells me and I find myself laughing at his joke, surprisingly having a good time despite the thoughts running in the back of my head.

"Why didn't you get coffee?" I ask him as I watch him basically drink ice cream and he looks at me like I have four heads.

"I did get coffee. It's a Frappuccino." He tells me and I roll my eyes before pointing at my drinks and then his.

"This is coffee. It wakes you up and tastes like shit if you do it right. That's semi liquid ice cream. No caffeine, no coffee." I tell him and he glares at me before gesturing around in the shop with sassy hands.

"Coffee shop. So this is coffee."

"So what about hot chocolate and tea?" I challenge him and he huffs our a breath before flipping me off.

"I liked you much better when you were the cute boy standing ten feet away." He tells me and I laugh before shaking my head at him. We both know that every word he just uttered is a lie. Zay is practically glowing as we talk and pick as each other. I've noticed since I've started the flirting thing, hes begin to go back a little not to normal, which is a relief to know.

It doesn't sit right in the soul when someone is hurting over something that's so simple to fix. If I knew that being someone's Chain only meant flirting throughout the day and going out every once in a while, I wouldn't have freaked out as hard as I did.

I lightly grab his hand that's resting on the table and lay it palm up before my fingers lazily traces the soft skin there. I circle around his palm and up his fingers before sliding off of his fingertips and starting on another.

I'm so lost in what I'm doing I don't even notice that Zay has gotten quiet until I look up and see the Hybrid with a dazed look of arousal in his eyes.

And just like before I damn near jump when I feel my cock twitch behind my pants at the sight. I shiver at myself slightly in arousal and shamefully in a little disgust, my body and mind still not on the same page. I open my mouth to say something when I hear the bell over the door open.

And when I turn my head I see some guys form class and Mike's football team come up. I quickly jerk my hand away from Zayvion's and sit up straighter just as some of the guys sees and notice me.

I turn back to Zay in slight panic as the begin to walk over only to see a frown on his face a mix of hurt and anger that I can't focus on at the moment. I try my best to school my features as the boys come up to the table.

"Oh shit. Elliot? I haven't seen you in almost two weeks. What happened to school man?" Q asks me as he lowers himself to give me a man hug and I return it with a clap on the bag and a shrug.

"I got a job that has the best hours and pay during the day. I'm doing all online now. I'm still on campus with Courtney sometimes though." I tell them trying not to seem suspicious while sitting here with another dude by ourselves.

"Thats cool, I know you had been looking for one. Congrats man." He says and I can see the instant his mind registers Zay sitting across the table from me. I expect for him to look back to me with a frown and a look of disgust but for some reason his whole demeanor changes when he and the guys turn to see him. "And who is this?"

I'm so caught up in the anxiety of the situation, I miss the way he asks and how his voice changes as he gets closer to Zayvion.

"Uhh he's training me a work. We came here to talk about my first week." I say trying my best to cover my ass, my view of Zay blocked by the guys in front of me.

"Well, if you ever need to have a private talk, let me know, baby. I hope to see you again." Quez says and I blanch as what he says just registers in my mind. He just flirted with Zay and wasn't even bothered by it. In public. It takes a few seconds for the bodies to clear away but when they do, I find Zay sitting across from me looking green it's tears in his eyes.

"Zay? What's wrong?" I ask him and he scoffs at me.

"You can't even say that I'm your friend. I'm just a coworker. And you just sat there while those friends of yours poured their sexually energy into me. Anyone's other than yours makes me sick to the point where I can catch a cold or fever. What the fuck was the point in inviting me out of you can't even be comfortable being seen with me?" He asks and I open my mouth to speak, but he's already getting out of the chair and making his way to the door.

And I notice that he's now limping and his walk is slower than before.

Fuck.

I messed this one up bad.

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Ah and so it begins. I told you guys to love Elliot while you still can. The internalized homophobia is REAL. And lot of guys do this. I think you'll get two chapters of Unforgivable before I gts and I'll try to tsk the other two before work.

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