Chapter Five - "I've Missed That Laugh."
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Avery's P.O.V

That night, I couldn't sleep at all. The thoughts that were running through my head were driving me insane. How could they not? He had figured at that River is his daughter without any clues. It scared me at how fast and quick he realised but I could sort of understand by the resemblance between River and him.

The thing that ran through my mind the most though and basically kept me awake was what he said to me when I told him that River is his child.

"Why would you keep this from me though?"

Honestly, how could I not keep it from him? That night when I was going to tell him about the baby after I told him that I was in love with him, I heard that Katie was pregnant and Logan was the father. How the hell am I suppose to tell him that I am also carrying his child?

But then again, what if I did tell him? Would he have still chose me over Katie if I did tell Logan? Oh my god, here I go with the 'what if' bullshit. See, this is what happens when you stay up all night thinking about the past.

But anyway, back to the topic, did I really have a different reason aside from the fact that I heard that my boyfriend at the time was sleeping with the school's slut and got her pregnant 'by accident'?

No.

Why? Because maybe, if Katie didn't say in front of the whole school that she was pregnant with Logan's child, I would still be with Logan and we would be raising our child together, not me raising River by myself.

Katie, your a stupid slut. I just wish I actually made the boys shove that chainsaw up your hairy monkey ass.

"Mommy, your hurting my hand." I hear River say, pulling me out of my thoughts. I look down at River and stop walking as I let go of her hand. I frown and shake my head.

"I'm sorry baby, I'm just really stressed out right now." I say and River smiles at me.

"Well maybe Logan can help you just like he helped you yesterday." River says and I bite the inside of my cheek.

He is the reason why I am stressed out, got no sleep last night whatsoever and why I am so moody in the first place. It's always Logan. Always.

"Logan isn't here-"

"Hello girls." I hear a person greet behind me and I suck in a deep breath.

Great.

I turn around and watch as River hugs Logan's legs. Logan picks River up and smiles at her, kissing the top of her head, making River frown at him.

"Yuck. Boys have cooties and you just kissed me." River says ans I grin when Logan looks over at me in confusion. I cross my arms over my chest and watch as River starts to rub her head.

"She doesn't like boys kissing her and touching her. She accepts hugs but that's about it." I say and Logan looks at River a proud grin on his lips.

"Thats good, River. You know, if a boy-"

"Don't start that speech. Joshua has told her, my father has told her and even I have been forced to tell her." I say and Logan rolls his eyes.

"Typical. Your that mother who encourages their children to go out with boys and have fun though." Logan says and I narrow my eyes at him.

"I'm sorry that I plan to let my daughter explore the world when she is older, Mr Over Protective." I say, rolling my eyes at him. Logan chuckles and places River on the ground, holding her hand.

"I'm not criticizing. I'm just saying that you can't just throw her out into the big bad world because it's dangerous. Luckily, I will be here to help you lead River in the right direction." Logan says as we start walking and I roll my eyes again.

"And how do you plan on doing that? You live with a phsyco bitch now and you have a child with her. I'm sorry for bagging out your 'future wife' but I can seriously see her tying you up and leaving you in a secret room beneath the house." I say and Logan laughs.

"First off, I don't live with her, she lives with me. Second, she is most definitely not going to be my 'future wife' because I'm saving that spot for someone else and lastly, I can definitely see her doing that to me also." Logan says and I frown at him.

"You didn't answer my question." I say and Logan grins at me.

"I think I have a right to escape my house once in a while to visit you two." Logan says, glancing down at River who is now running off to a shop that has a large teddy bear in the window.

River has some weird thing with teddy bears...

"You can't keep doing that forever, you know. River is going to grow up and question if she has a father or not and you know what I'm going to say if she asks me? I'm going to tell her that you decided to run off and have a kid with a phsyco bitch and now she locked him in a tower and threw away the key into a volcano." I say and Logan laughs.

"Wow, you always did have such a different mind then others, Avery." Logan says as he wipes the tears away from his eyes and I frown at him.

"I'm serious." I say and Logan sighs.

"I told you before; I'm going to make things right. So trust me, okay?" Logan says and I roll my eyes, walking towards River and grabbing her hand.

"Are you done staring at the bear now or would you like another minute?" I ask and River pouts.

"Mommy, I want the teddy bear." River says and I sigh, rubbing my forehead. Suddenly, Logan takes River off me and flashes her a smile.

"You want the big one?" Logan asks and I watch as River nods, a large smile spreading across her face. I narrow my eyes at Logan as he sends me a grin.

"Come on, let's go get it then." Logan says and I watch as they walk into the shop. I lick my teeth in annoyance but somehow, I can't help but feel happy.

I never thought that seeing Logan buy something that River wanted would make me feel happy.

Is it the fact that he is actually being a pretty good father towards River or is it because that even though River doesn't know that Logan is her father, he is still acting like it towards River?

God, I'm confusing myself.

"Mommy, it is so soft!" River squeals as she runs towards me, carrying the large bear that is twice the size of her in her arms. I smile and pick River up, resting her on my hip.

"Oh it is." I say, feeling the bear and River rests her head on it, her eyes slipping shut. I smile and kiss River on the head.

"Should I find it weird that she likes teddy bears?" Logan asks, appearing by my side and I laugh, shaking my head.

"No. That's normal." I say and Logan smiles at me.

"I've missed that laugh." Logan mumbles and I frown at him.

"Is this apart of your plan?" I ask, referring to his words in the dance studio.

"Let me make you fall for me again."

"No, it's true." Logan says, his face turning serious and I nod. As we begin to walk into a grocery story, I feel Logan's hand hold mine, sending my heart crazy.

But the wierd thing about it though is that even though I am trying to hate him, I can't find the hatred that I am suppose to have towads him to let go.

Am I giving myself up that easy?

No way, my brain says and I nod.

Of course not.

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Hello, this is a short chapter but I'm sorry. I felt like I should leave it here. What do you think? Please vote and comment, people!

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