I've been absent the past couple of weeks and I apologize. I intended to have several things published and I planned to be talking to you guys but something has happened.

A few weeks ago I found out a dear friend of mine was found dead. I've felt every emotion a human can feel within a three week period. I'm of course sad and devastated, I can't hardly move my eyes without pain because I've been crying so much. I've been in denial since I heard the news, I've been leaving her messages and voice mails telling her she needs to call me, I keep checking her social media to see if she's active or not. But most of all I've been angry at myself. You see, I promised her I would come and visit her this month...This month...And now I can't because she's dead...She's gone and I can never apologize for not visiting her like I promised and I'm so fucking angry at myself for it. She died alone and I should have been there to comfort her, but I wasn't. I can't seem to forgive myself, I can't stop grieving, I can't stop thinking about her...

Guys, please pray for me. God has to help me through this pain because I can't handle it on my own. I need his healing hand. I need him to heal my spirit and my mind. I need to rest and eat, something I haven't done in weeks. I need your love and support, prayers and forgiveness for not being here.

I love you guys. Please know that. 💜💜