We’re still going to Hogsmeade together, right?

The doubt in her voice broke my heart. It was all I could think about as I took the package out of my bottom drawer. I really had let her down already. Blaise was completely right. The longer that I drag this out, the more I’ll break her heart. She’s already having problems trusting me, what next? She shouldn’t have to doubt me at all, but with the way I had been acting, I wouldn’t have trusted me either. I was a horrible boyfriend, and an even more rotten person. I loved her with all of my heart, but I couldn’t do the simple courtesy of breaking up with her? What was wrong with me? My love for her could be the end of her if I screw it up, so I had better break it off and try to move one right?

But I know deep down that moving on from Hanna will be impossible.

She has a piece of my heart, a piece of my soul, and I’ll never get it back. I will be forever hers for as long as I live. She knows it too. I know she knows it. If she doesn’t, she’s not paying enough attention.

I sighed as I set the package on my dresser. How was I going to get the necklace to him without anyone realizing it? Perhaps I could slip it under his office door and run away? No, I couldn’t do that. I could get caught, and I don’t want that to happen. Perhaps I could send Blaise to slip it under his door? No, that wouldn’t work either. I wouldn’t want people to pin Blaise for my mission. He could get into trouble. What about sending Crabbe and Goyle in their girl personas? Ehh, that wouldn’t be a very good idea. They would just wreck it without me there to tell them their every move; the stupid oafs.

I ran my hand through my hair before lying down on my bed. A headache was coming on yet again, I could feel it. Every time I thought about my mission, I got a terrible headache. I didn’t get the stomach aches like in the beginning. I think my stomach had gotten over the guilt of how wrong I was. My guilt had then manifested itself into my head, where it probably wouldn’t go away. The mind, especially my mind, was going to punish itself because it’s morally wrong. I could feel it in my bones that it was wrong, but I couldn’t back out of it. I had already given my word to the Dark Lord; he won’t take kindly to me changing my mind on him when I’m this far into it. I could die. Mother could die. Father could die. Hanna could die, if he knows about her.

I tucked the package back into my bottom drawer. I couldn’t think about it right at that moment. It was something that I just couldn’t handle at the moment. I needed to concentrate on Hanna, on breaking it off with her. It needed to be done sooner rather than later, and it needed to be done on pretty good terms. I didn’t want to use anything as an excuse. Anything could just tear my chances of being with her ever again, that’s if the Dark Lord is taken down, which I doubt will be anytime soon. He’s much too powerful to stop now. He’s gaining control of everything so quickly it’s insane. He now has the Ministry. How much longer until he has Hogwarts?

A rapping on my door caused me to jump. I had been jumpy a lot lately. Snape had been finding me at the most random of times to try to give me advice or whatever shit he wants to call it. I still think he just wants to take the glory from this mission. Well, he can’t and he won’t do it. My family needs the power that will come from this mission if I succeed. He’s just being an asshole.

“Yes?” I called. “Come in.”

Blaise opened the door and closed it behind him. “What’s up?”

I shrugged. “Nothing. What about you?”

“Same. Want to go down to the common room? Most of the guys are down there, hanging out before dinner. Adrian, Marcus, Griffin, Crabbe, and Goyle are all there. What do you say?” he asked, heading back for the door.

I shrugged. “Sure.”

I probably could’ve used a little time with the guys. I needed to get my mind off of things, but what happened didn’t improve my mood one bit. Adrian, Griffin, and Marcus were all sitting on the couch with Crabbe and Goyle sitting on the floor. Blaise and I took the arm chairs on either side of the couch.

“I dumped Millicent last night. She got too clingy,” Griffin announce with a shudder. “She was constantly all over me. Plus, she’s not all that good looking, but she was amazing in the sack. It’s the only reason why I kept her around. She’s the best I ever had.”

Blaise and I exchanged looks. I could tell that we both had the same thoughts. This was pathetic. A girl shouldn’t have been dumped over something so petty. Besides, he shouldn’t be looking at her with only lust in his eyes. It wasn’t fair to her. Millicent was beautiful in her own way.

“What’s with the looks, mates?” Adrian asked Blaise and me. “Griffin was just stating what he did last night. Is there a crime against it?”

Blaise shook his head. “No, there’s not.”

“But there be,” I added.

Griffin snapped his head towards me. “Oh, really? What makes you say that? Oh, wait. You’re currently in a relationship, correct? You’re so in love, aren’t you? Then why don’t you look happy?”

“What kind of question is that?” Blaise asked, his eyebrows raised high.

“You look dead tired,” Adrian commented. “Is she giving you problems, Malfoy?”

Griffin laughed. “I couldn’t imagine Hanna Honeyyeager giving you that much trouble, unless she refuses to sleep with you. She’s so innocent, Draco. You’d really make her sink down to your level? I can imagine that you would. It’s all that you ever talked about when you were with Pansy, how she was great in bed and that was all that matters. What has Hanna made you change your perspective of things?”

I nodded. “As a matter of fact, she has. She’s changed me inside, and I won’t take it back. She’s changed me for the better. She’s like a breath of fresh air. She’s something that I’ve needed for a long time, but I didn’t realize it. Hanna, she isn’t like other girls. She has the power to make me weak in the knees, you know? Just one looks at her and I find myself smiling. Everything in the world could be going wrong, but as long as I have her, I see the silver lining to every situation.”

I had found myself smiling. It was the first time I had really smiled in a long time, and I knew right then and there that I really, really didn’t want to let her go. I just couldn’t do it, but I had to. Her safety was what brought me crashing back to reality. My heart would be torn in two, but it was worth it if she was alright. I had to break it off the next day at Hogsmeade. It had to be done.

“Look, the prick really has gone and fallen in love,” Griffin smirked. “Not that I blame him. Hanna is hot. I mean, who wouldn’t tap that? They would be crazy to even think about not doing it. Am I right or am I right?”

“You’re definitely right,” Adrian smirked. “I bet she’s a wonder in the sack with that tight ass and –“

I didn’t let him finish. Instead, I decked him right across the mouth. I didn’t regret it for a second. I turned to walk out of the room and found myself being tackled to the ground. Fists were flying everywhere, obviously both Griffin and Adrian had tackled me and Blaise had jumped in on my behalf. I found myself half beating Blaise when Griffin and Adrian were pulled off of us by Crabbe and Goyle.

“This is stupid guys. You shouldn’t be talking about each other’s girlfriends like that anyway. We’re all mates here; we’re not trying to get under each other’s skin. Are you finished?” Goyle had said.

We were definitely finished. Goyle had surprised us by sounding so…smart? It was weird to hear him actually make sense. We were usually giving him the orders, but he had flipped everything around. I didn’t know he had it in him. I guess people can surprise you even if you believe that you know them well.

“Thanks, mate,” I said and patted him on the shoulder.

“No problem, man,” he smiled and walked away with Crabbe, Griffin, and Adrian.

“Well, that was interesting,” Blaise smirked at me. “I was not expecting you to go all mushy on us and then start a fight. That was something.”

I laughed. “If they were talking about Bella like that, I know that you would’ve pounced on them too.”

He nodded. “You know me too well.”

“Let’s go down to dinner. I’ve worked up quite an appetite. What about you?” I said, leading the way.

“I could eat something.”

At dinner, Pansy sat a little too close to me. She had left me alone for a few weeks, since she made a fool of herself in front of Robbie. I figured that she had fallen for Robbie and was trying to figure things out, but I guess I was wrong. She obviously still had feelings for me. If the whispering in my ear wasn’t enough of a sign, where her hands journeyed was definitely a send off.

“Pansy, we’re at the dinner table, and we’re not together anymore. Leave me alone,” I had warned, but she didn’t take the hint. I ended up leaving the dinner table early with her following me. I tried to get her off of me, but it wouldn’t work. I stopped outside an abandoned classroom to look at her. “Pansy, lay off.”

“You don’t mean that, Drakie. I know you, and I know that you want me. It’s as simple as that. I know you missed me, don’t even fight it. Hanna is history to you now, and I have always been the one, right?” she smiled as she kissed my cheek. “Drakie, we can finally go back to the way things were before her.”

Before her? Before Hanna? My eyes widened in anger. If she thought that I was going to just give Hanna up for her then she was out of her ever loving mind. I used to love Pansy, yes. She was my past. Hanna is my future. I have fallen in love with Hanna and I keep falling even more in love with her every day.

“I’m sorry if you believe that, but you’re wrong, Hanna. I know that you don’t love me anymore either. I can tell it in your eyes,” I said, really looking at her for the first time. I could tell there was no love for me, lust maybe but no love. “I saw that you have been having conflicting emotions ever since you tried to make me jealous with Robbie.”

There it was. I had figured it out. Her eyes lit up when I said Robbie, but her mouth twisted into a grimace. She was trying to convince herself that she wasn’t in love with Robbie. He was a Gryffindor and Hanna’s ex. She could never be with him, but her heart is telling her the opposite.

“You’re in love with Robbie, aren’t you, Pans?”

She narrowed her eyes at me. “Oh my gosh! No, I’m not. I’m in love with you, Draco. Robbie is a weird Gryffindor who is a blood traitor. I could never love him. Mother and father wouldn’t allow it.”

I smirked. “That’s why, you’re mother and father wouldn’t be pleased with you. You know that they don’t matter, right? You’re heart is what matters, and if you love Robbie, then go for it.”

“I DO NOT LOVE ROBBIE! What will it take to get that through your thick brain? Besides, don’t you want to take me elsewhere? Your dorm for example,” she said, putting her arms around my neck.

I automatically shoved her off. “No, Pansy. I’m not in love with you, okay? It wouldn’t be right.”

I turned and started walking to the common room. Pansy had some things that she needed to figure out. Without me around, she could think clearly and not be expected to do what is expected of her, not what she truly wants. I know that she really does love Robbie. It’s only a matter of time before she gives in. I just know it.

“You’re still in love with her, aren’t you?” she called after me. “How can you be in love with someone that is keeping secrets from you? She wants you so bad that she’s willing to hide some crucial information about herself. Can you really love a liar, Draco?”

I chose to ignore her and kept on walking. She was just trying to get me to stop and that wasn’t going to happen. She can believe that she’s going to get under my skin but I’m tougher than that. My love for Hanna will make me not believe my ex girlfriend.

“Huh, Draco? How can you love a mudblood? That’s right. She’s muggleborn. She has filthy blood, and she’s been keeping it from you. That’s pretty low if you ask me.”

I stopped walking and looking down at my feet. A mudblood? Hanna? No, that couldn’t be possible. Could it be? No, Pansy was just trying to get under my skin. She wants me to stop and look at her. She wants me to believe her. She wants me to fall out of love with Hanna, but it’s just not that simple. I started walking away from her again. I wasn’t going to fall for it this time. There was no way in hell