5: 18 - anarbor (or 5sos bc guess what #twinningiswinning ayeeee)

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{I changed the cover say wut}

©alum

I apologised to my mum when she left for work the next day because it had been a while since I'd blown up like that. I told her I didn't know what came over me, but if did, I just didn't want to talk about it. I get a horrible feeling in my stomach and it feels like I can't breathe. Then I just seem to think it's okay to say whatever I want, regardless of people's feelings. I wish I knew how to stop it, but when I googled my symptoms it came up with things like 'panic attacks' and 'bipolar' and 'depression' which were all things I didn't associate myself with.

I'm just going through a tough patch but I'll get through it. That's what I keep telling myself, anyway.

I'd been planning on seeing Luke that day, because he had something to tell me, but I was obviously grounded for 'inappropriate behaviour' and the only circumstance that could contradict this was boxing or errands. I think I'd rather stay in, grounded for a year then go to this God damn boxing. I was just going to be there with a bunch of other angry people, and what good would that do? There's nothing wrong with me anyway, I'm fine.

Being grounded usually meant not TV, video games or computers, but fortunately mum wasn't at home to tell me I couldn't go on any of these things. I logged onto tumblr, put spongebob on the TV and put the Xbox on standby, just in case I wanted to play later. I scrolled through my feed then logged onto twitter, adding 'boxing' to my bio because, even though I didn't want to do it, it definitely made me seem cooler.

I switched the laptop off and played on my phone for a while and laughed at how much of an idiot spongebob is. I'd looked at my Facebook feed and I was bored, so I decided to do some stalking. I looked at a few of my ex school friend's feeds. They were still my friends, I guess, I just didn't go to school with them anymore. I decided to creep on Michael because, why not? I want to know what he gets up to at school when I'm not there. His recent posts weren't loading, so I just stared at his page for a while before noticing something.

His relationship status said 'it's complicated'. And I screamed.

Now before you say I'm blowing everything out of proportion, let me tell you this. Michael has never, ever had a steady relationship. I don't think he's ever been in any kind of relationship. He had some stupid girlfriend in year 4, sure, but he usually fucks then chucks. He's not picky, either. I doubt he's banged anyone from my school, but I heard he's got a rep at the other school across town for breaking lots of hearts, both boys and girls.

Michael must've been on Facebook for a few years and his relationship status has always been single. Always. It's never changed. His feed loaded and I saw he hadn't been online in a day or so. I felt stupid when I realised that he'd run away, so of course he wasn't going to go on Facebook. I went on Luke's profile to message him about Michael, knowing that Michael himself wouldn't answer. As I waited for all the buttons to load I saw his relationship status had changed too, to 'it's complicated'. I sighed, realising it was just some joke probably going round school or Facebook. I laughed at the thought of Michael maintaining a steady relationship with someone.

I put my phone down and flicked over to the comedy channel. I spent the rest of my day watching TV, managing to cram in my day's worth of schoolwork in before my mum got home. I even put some tomato soup on the stove, ready for dinner. Maybe if I'm good my mum'll let me off being grounded. Maybe.

I was stirring the soup when the phone rang so I left it. Whoever was ringing could leave a message if they liked.

"Cal, it's me. I'm going to be late back, the power went off at work at lunchtime so we're all really behind. Make yourself some tea and I'll be back as soon as I can," mum left a voicemail.

I grinned and picked up the phone as soon as mum hung up. I rang Luke's house number and his brother picked up.

"Hello?"

"Oh, hi Calum." Jack, one of Luke's older brothers, said down the line.

"Can Luke come out?" I asked nervously. I've known him for a while, but he intimidates me a little. I think he's the main reason the jocks tolerate Luke. Because he's a Hemmings.

"He's grounded for getting in a fight," Jack said abruptly and hung up the phone.

I sighed, forgetting about that. I was pretty curious about why Luke got in a fight but I'm probably not going to be finding out what happened anytime soon. I didn't know what else to do, so I decided to leave Michael a message telling him to come home. It wasn't likely he would listen to me, or even listen to the message, but in had nothing better to do with my time or my phone.

Ring.

Ring.

Ring.

Ri-

"Calum?" Michael answered. He actually answered! I stared at the phone in disbelief. "Cal?"

"Michael! You actually picked up!" I said excitedly.

"Uh... Yeah?" He said, chuckling slightly. "What's up?"

"You ran away, that's what's up."

"Oh yeah," Michael laughed nervously. "I'm okay, I'm with Ashton. I just... I can't deal with Luke right now. He told you what happened, right?"

"I haven't seen him since the day you ran away," I admitted. "So no. What's been going on?"

"He promised he'd tell you," Michael said to no one in particular. "Why the fuck didn't he tell you?"

"He'd taken like, 50 million painkillers so his head was fuzzy. And he's been grounded so he hasn't had a chance. Are you to friends or something now?" I asked, and head a girly laugh in the background. "Who's the girl?"

"What?" Michael asked. "Oh, the one that laughed? Yeah, that's Ashton."

I snorted. "He sounds like a girl."

"He acts like one, too," Michael chuckled, and I heard an indignant 'hey!' in the background. "You busy?"

"No, mum's out till late but I'm grounded. Why?"

"Good, we're coming round," Michael said, before hanging up.

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Short bc i put so much speech in it and I didn't want to put any more in

So if my Facebook bit is inaccurate it's bc I've never got round to making a Facebook, around the time I was old enough to get it without lying about my age everyone started slagging it off n I've just never had a need to get one so I have no clue wtf the layout is

I do know that ur relash status is quite important tho lol

I also don't have an Xbox so um yeah does it have a standby button or

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