"You love me so much
it makes up for the love
the world has refused me."
K O M A L K A P O O R

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I stared at my best friend who had decided to wake me up from what was meant to be my few hours of beauty sleep before I officially became Mrs Thomas Pestock. One could hope he would let me call him Tommy when I wasn't mad at him. I knew it was a soft spot for him because Baron was the wolf and Tommy was the interior, the vulnerable man that stole my heart after the wolf ravaged me.

It was indeed the day I would marry the man of my dreams? Well I had never actually dreamt that I would be marrying someone like Baron. Despite my rather reckless attitude I pictured what Joe was, the clean cut businessman and Baron just sort of pitched up. Some people often told me that a man like him would rock your bed but never be boyfriend material. Perhaps I had believed it or told myself that but Baron was the sweetest man.

"I must say after Joe I honestly didn't picture you going down this road with anyone. And obviously not Baron and beating Jon and I to the altar might I add" Nikki shook her head as she walked around the room while my head was rested on the pillow simply observing her movements.

I didn't want to think of any other man besides the one who would be staring at me as I walked down the aisle in my backyard. Since my fiance and I had decided the waiting game was not for us I simply turned our engagement/birthday/housewarming party into our wedding.

"My wedding is not for a few hours. Why am I awake?" I groaned into my pillow wishing I were lying on top of my wolf instead.

"Because I wasn't sure if you were going to have your hair done or not and you should be up with nerves. Pacing the room like I am, you literally dropped the bomb 48hrs ago that you were getting married." She shook her head.

I giggled, "Well I have been engaged for the past few months. Isn't that what the next step usually is?"

"Yeah but half the people who are coming didn't even know you were engaged."

"Ah true. They'll probably speculate I'm pregnant" I smiled.

She giggled, "You sound excited for those rumours"

"It beats the I'm a whore rumours. But no phones are allowed, you did make that clear right?" I raised my eyebrow as we had an official photographer of course but other than that? No thank you, I didn't want news leaking to ruin our bliss.

"Yes. I might have only been called in two days ago as maid of honour but I'm Nikki Bella bitch" she smiled proudly.

"That's my girl. And to come back to the hair situation, I don't want to have extensions in or anything. I just want to be me when I marry him." I smiled and clutched the sheet to my body as I sat up.

"Never a traditional sort of woman huh" she smiled as she sat on a chair close to the bed.

"Yeah why are you so far?" I narrowed my eyes.

"You're way too tired and not traditional so I know for a fact that Baron was in here until the early hours of the morning. You're naked, aren't you?" She rolled her eyes with a small smirk.

"Well can you blame us? We have like a week to honeymoon. We need to squeeze it in where we can" I shrugged.

"That is true. Any other things you would like to run over before I leave to make sure everything is set up in your backyard?"

"Mmm where is my future husband?"

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"So you like cigars huh?" I heard Jon and rolled my eyes as of course on my wedding day I was stuck with a bunch of people I would normally not socialize with.

"Not today" I took the box away from him and set it back onto the shelf it belonged before buttoning up my shirt. "Why are you here?"

I wasn't even planning on getting dressed just yet but I had said it in hopes he would leave but it hadn't worked and now I was stuck sweating in my suit for the next few hours.

"My girlfriend is currently with yours and I don't feel like socializing with the people downstairs."

I sighed with a small frown and grabbed the box of cigars off the shelf and set it onto the table before taking a seat myself.

"You know how bad you are making me look by getting married so soon?" He groaned.

I chuckled, "not my problem you're in no rush to marry your barbie"

He narrowed his eyes at the name before sighing, "have you met my future wife? She's been dreaming of this since forever its all going to be perfect. She needs a whole year or two"

"Not afraid you'll change your mind in that time?"

"Nah. I know you think she is all beauty but I don't know, Nikki Bella gets me. She's a lunatic in her own right and I love her for it, she was there for me when it counted and I felt the fear of losing her. When she had her neck injury I was scared as fuck, now I'm holding on with both hands. But that's what we do huh? Hold onto them because we know we're lucky S.O.Bs to have them"

I sighed and stood up, "I need a drink"

"Did I say something?" I heard him.

"You said too much." I groaned and poured myself a glass of whiskey. "She's fucking perfect, fucking perfect. How the hell am I suppose to live with that? I'm going to be standing out there with 50% of the people realizing that I am fucking lucky. Hell make it 80%, half my family would agree to that too."

"Fuck, calm down man. The last thing I need is a runaway groom. Nikki told me not to come in here but did I listen?"

"For the last two weeks I have watched her set things straight with Joe and John and I was so fucking happy. But what if they aren't even the problem you know? What if I'm just fucking bipolar" I shook my head as I gulped down the contents of the glass.

"Well we're all bipolar if you think about it cause..."

"I'm happy one minute and pissed the next. I mean for these last few weeks I have just been happy but what if it changes and she's trapped. I'm trapped. Fuck" I paced the room.

I felt the anxious feeling fill me, one I wasn't used to at all. It took me back to being the chubby kid, feeling like you weren't good enough and having people stare at you. Thinking you're some fat slob when you're actually a pretty good footballer and fighter. "You know what I..."

I frowned as I turned and saw no Jon. I sighed and sat down and ran my hands over my face before I buried them in my hands. I honestly couldn't be sure how long I sat there feeling like an idiot before I felt arms wrap around me.

I immediately wrapped my arms around her body knowing it would only be my little wolf and felt her fingers gently run over my back. "You're not supposed to be here"

"I'm not wearing my dress and we figured you needed some company since you freaked Jon out" I let go of her and sat back and saw Xander and Wolfie as well.

I smirked before staring at her, she wasn't wearing her dress but denim shorts and one of my liars club t-shirts I had gotten her. She picked Wolfie up into her arms before setting herself on my lap.

"I freaked him out because I am, Blondie" I shook my head and leaned forward to bury my face in her neck as I held onto her.

"I know. I'm calm so of course one of us needs to have a blow out. But you do know that whatever you are thinking is bullshit right?" I bit her neck at her words.

"On my wedding day really?" She giggled though as I kissed into her neck.

"I know it is" I admitted as I knew I was my happiest in the past few weeks because I let myself believe that she was mine. I didn't let the insecure kid talk shit to me but here I was on my wedding day letting him do just that.

I rested back in the chair and took the puppy into my hands while Xander's head rested on my kneecap. "Are you wearing your tux already?"

"Halfway" I shrugged as I had my pants and shirt on.

She sighed but I saw her reach beneath the t-shirt and watched as she took off the necklace with my dad's ring on. "I said you should keep it."

"Yeah but it can be your something borrowed"

"That's for the bride"

"Sure it is. " She rolled her eyes and placed it over my neck.

"You not just doing this cause I'm a fucking loser?" I narrowed my eyes at her playfully.

"Nah" She smiled and I placed a kiss on her cheek.

"Wanna hang out here for an hour?" I asked.

"Sure" She smiled and laid back onto my chest and I closed my eyes.

"We're going to nap, aren't we?"

"Yeah my future wife kept me up all night" I mused.

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"So please tell me how shocked they were?" I questioned as Nikki did my make-up with Trin helping me into my dress.

"I'm more concerned about getting you to your wedding on time"

"Oh stop being dramatic. Its literally outside, I can hear the noisy idiots from here"

"She ain't being dramatic. You were supposed to be here an hour ago so we didn't have to rush but where was your ass? Asleep on Baron's lap."

"Best nap ever!" I screamed out and Nikki rolled her eyes as she moved back.

"Well at least it was worth it because you're walking down that aisle in five minutes"

I pouted, "how shocked were they though?"

"When they thought they were here for a engagement/birthday/housewarming party? Pretty shocked when they went out back. But its so beautiful, I can't wait for you to see it."

"I can't wait to see him!"

"You sure about this? I have a car that..."

"Dad!" I giggled but hugged him. "Didn't think this day would come huh?"

"Well I accepted my daughter was a free spirit a long time ago. "

I smiled as Nikki and Baron's brother Dan made their way down the black carpet set down the aisle.

"Let's get me married" I squealed as we descended the steps that led down to the aisle. Nikki was right, everything was beautiful but my wolf in a tux was the best.

I smiled like a little wolf about to mate her big wolf for the rest of her life as I walked down the aisle. Baron licked slowly over his lips and I knew the nerves were hitting him. I felt a kiss on my cheek courtesy of my dad before Baron extended his hand.

"You ready?" He whispered as he cleared his throat and his hand tightened around mine.

"Definitely, Corbin "