"And please,
make mistakes,
learn from them and
always follow your heart desires. "

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"I don't need the concerned friend act now, Baron" I snapped knowing I wasn't really mad at him but the last thing I needed to see was him.

He said he missed me?

"Why are you here?" He glanced around the house filled with boxes, the house my friends said I should have gotten rid of so long ago.

I ran my hand through my short messy hair feeling a bit frustrated and uncomfortable because if I had my way. Baron would have never set foot in this place, "You just walk into my.. Into this house and question me?"

"You're not angry at me" He slowly folded his arms making me frown as I waited for his temper but he appeared calm. Calm enough to realize he wasn't the reason for my bad mood, for once.

"I got humiliated in front of the whole world and I'm here because Vince gave me the week off without pay for slapping one of his wrestlers. " I shook my head still annoyed that once I got out of one hole I managed to dig myself into another, the big reveal always seemed to be out of my hands though.

"You had to pay for that shit?" He rolled his eyes.

I shrugged and lifted the box I had hastily shoved everything into but felt it tip.

"I'm sorry that being associated with me was so humiliating." I heard him.

"Fuck!" I groaned and quickly scrambled for his things before Baron...

He picked up the frames and simply placed it in the box, not giving it a second glance but the first was enough.

He stared longer at a frame and tossed it in before standing up with something in his eyes. "I'll be going then. See you next week"

I quickly sprang to my feet wanting the confusion to end. "Why?"

"I don't even know why I flew here Renee." He shrugged.

I sighed, "because you're my friend and you were worried. Its normal"

"Its not fucking normal because I'm not your fucking friend!" He snapped.

"Okay" I nodded and set the box down before moving away from him.

"Is that all?"

And there we go, the wolf is back.

"I don't have the energy for your bipolar moods, Baron. I really would appreciate it if I were alone."

"You're a fucking idiot you know?" His words surprised me as he stared down at me.

"What?"

"I have fucking given you everything you wanted. I gave you friendship, gave you a fucking date and you still won't tell me! And now you're humiliated"

"I didn't mean being with you was humiliating. You'd think spending so much time with me you would know that wouldn't fucking be the case but no you're yet again making fucking accusations!"

"Because you won't fucking tell me! You choose to make me so fucking pissed every fucking time."

"Which you loved but I'm sorry that we don't fuck anymore so you can get rid of your moods!"

His jaw slowly clenched and he turned away from me briefly running his hand over his face before moving closer to me. "Just fucking tell me what you told me that night, every fucking time you are drunk you can tell me shit but then you want to act like you didn't know a thing. But you're drunk again aren't you? So that's why I'm going to fucking leave because I don't feel like listening to your rambling shit. And then the next time I see you I have to hear about how I don't want you, how I fucked up over and over fucking again and apologize over and over again. "

"I'm not drunk I... I was crying and those bottles I threw out." I whispered or more so croaked. "You should still go though."

I moved upstairs but felt him grip my hand and pull me to his chest. I wasn't sure why but I felt him hold me tightly as his head rested on mine. I didn't want him to go but being with Baron was accompanied by arguments and I didn't feel like having fights. Especially here...

"It annoys me when you're fucking hurt. Annoys me when you're mad, sad, angry. You're annoying. It annoys me because I fucking notice it all..."

I ignored him and held him tighter suddenly feeling comforted just by his arms, being able to pretend I wasn't in a place I now hated but in the arms of a wolf that I liked and perhaps, a great big perhaps he liked me too and this wasn't just his friend instincts kicking in.

"It annoyed me when you were fucking happy with everyone else. But you weren't happy, you were trying to stick it to me."

I didn't say anything as I felt fresh tears running down my face but he didn't notice and I didn't want him to because they weren't for him. So yes people, your bubby correspondent had her days too...

"I fucking give you everything you want you know and then I still have to sit there while you tell me the bad person I am. But it was okay because you were bad too and then you fucking ruin everything. The moment you set that girl after me. Left me alone with her when you know I don't fucking speak to other guys let alone a fucking woman. And then you make me so mad and I end up ruining everything. I hate.. Hate fucking being in a position to ruin shit, with wrestling I fucking know what I want so its easy. Just say fuck everyone and beat the shit out of them and you just fuck everything up with making me confused"

"You were the one who couldn't believe Dolph could like me, so I was offended and I made a mistake. Baron, we got over this, we're best buddies now. Why are you bringing this up?" I mumbled into his chest, my voice weak.

"Yeah I said that cause he fucking has no right to, you're mine. If I'm not at work I'm with you so when would he have the chance? Random pictures, he ain't fucking you."

I stared up at him before moving out of his hold as he allowed me to despite frowning due to my tears, "I'm yours?"

He sighed and sat down as his jeans clung to him. And I tried to ignore the guttered part of my mind but it was already there considering I had just raised a question to Baron.

"Well yeah, you're screaming out my name every night, well used to. When I said that shit about Nick, Dolph whatever it was my idea in my head getting the better of me I guess. There are plenty of reasons to like you, I just didn't like that he did when he knew you for so long. If he knew you he should have liked you sooner..."

I smiled at his words while he avoided my eyes, wait did Baron just admit to liking me? I honestly couldn't be sure with this guy.

"I do miss doing that" I whispered which caused him to briefly look at me after taking in a deep breath.

"It seems you're always drunk when making decisions so you wouldn't remember when you did" He shook his head and I knew he was mad I disappeared last week but I had no choice.

"So are you" I whispered recalling his drunken night.

"I wasn't. Well maybe one night before we went to my mom but other times I wasn't. And that night you fucking pissed me off when I was fucking annoyed with Corey for showing me fucking pictures of fucking brunettes."

"What?" I frowned recalling all the times he had come stumbling in and our first night together.

"I was never drunk when we slept together, you assumed somehow so I just let you think that. Most of the time I wasn't even pissed either, what was there to be pissed about? Normally I get back to the hotel and a guy has a girl in the room or more guys hanging out making a noise. With you I get to the room and you're just sitting there waiting... waiting to cheer me up"

"So you were torturing me by acting pissed" I shook my head resting my head back on his arm.

"You overthink shit. So if you had known you were drunk alone maybe I took advantage of you, maybe you regretted it. A drunken mistake by both of us seemed better. Until one time didn't stick to that..."

I sighed as he stared ahead through the glass doors at the full moon, of course, perfect. I was good at knowing people, figuring them out, I made sure I could get the proper vibe off them. But maybe I was guilty, guilty of maybe being like everyone else who whispered about the wolf. And I let that always expect the worse with everything he said or did because he didn't care, he was a lone wolf so why would he care but he was here?

"How did you find me?" I whispered and he didn't bother looking at me.

"Corey. Told him I had to give you something but Bryan didn't bother telling me where you lived. Said you had a house here but I shouldn't bother cause you'll probably be in a hotel."

I nodded even though his eyes weren't on me.
"I didn't care though about the conditions. I like you, Baron. That's why I couldn't do it anymore, I know its only been over a couple months but it was every single day and I just like you but I know myself and it will grow and grow so that's why before I become a green-eyed monster and hurt myself I just .. You need to find someone else to clear your head with. It just hurt and I stopped before it could hurt more and now you have someone"

Lies, lies, lies, I already was a green-eyed monster and it had grown and it grew the moment he stepped through the door.

He ran his hand over his face, "I don't have anyone. I mean... The blonde is you, we slept together and you fucking bit my neck, sucked on it and left YOUR mark. But you fucking don't remember just like you don't remember you told me you fell for me or that you made a big fucking mistake by wanting me to fuck you straight away. So I fucking bought you roses on Valentine's Day only to see you fucking throw them in the trash, so I beat Dean's ass and come back and make you my friend. I work out with you for a couple of days after that and then you don't pitch so I go to your room and then you pick fucking John Cena over me and you pitch up late because you don't want to go with me but I fucking wait. Watch you get annoyed over Corey when the only reason I didn't tell him was because he is my best friend and your fucking best friend to and if he knew I wanted you, fucked you I'm not sure what he would do so I lied so I could take you out on a fucking date. Only to have you mad at me at the end of the night because you don't remember fucking leaving your mark on me." He stared at me annoyed mixed with anger but it didn't scare me but made me miss all our stupid arguments. Gosh this wolf...

I smiled a bit,"I didn't know the roses were from you.."

"Who else would be sending you roses?" I giggled at his glare.

"If I had known they were from you I..."

"You?"

I sighed deciding it was now or never while he wasn't closing off and actually seemed determined to let me know things, things I would have liked to know sooner but he was here now.

"They would have been kept. Baron, I told you I wanted more and you said nothing. You'd give me stupid fucking replies with that smirk that's supposed to mean what and now you come in here saying more things than you have in all this time. Are you telling me I have been miserable for the last two weeks because you kept this to yourself" I more accused because he knew I wanted him, knew I fucking fell head over heels for him since he fucked me once and he just let me drown in my sorrows.

He shrugged and I rolled my eyes and stood up.

"Renee..." I heard him as I moved to the kitchen to get away from the boxes surrounding me, seeing them made it hard for me to focus on Baron completely. Or that Baron was truly here for the reason I wanted and not for mind games.

"Why not just tell me Baron. You made me feel so many things that I'm not sure how to act anymore and now you're here. All these weeks..." I sighed wanting to just joke about it but feeling defensive taking over the happiness filling me, being in the house as a reminder of me falling for guys who were wrong.
Who used me...

"So what, should I have said it to you when you were speaking in riddles? That somehow I fucking liked the woman who annoyed me because I believed she was naïve for smiling at people who deserved it. For the woman who I thought was probably fucking everyone if she wanted to share a bed with me. You really want me to say that I fucking like you and want you."

"Yes why wouldn't I? Like you said I have told you so many times I fell for you and drunk or not have you even tried letting me know something when I was sober? I get it you hate sharing your feelings but you get mad at me but did you try? Or did you just listen to me humiliating myself? I said I was humiliated because the guy I was announced to the world as fucking didn't want me. Or didn't know he wanted me... You're so fucking closed off from even yourself that you don't even know how you feel, do you?" I rolled my eyes and tried to walk away but he pulled me and pinned me against the counter. I stared up at him as he briefly closed his eyes before focusing on me.

"No I fucking don't. I haven't felt anything for any fucking one in years, Renee. You saw how I was with my mom, I don't know how to anymore and the man who has helped guide me through everything is fucking gone. My dad isn't here, my grandpa isn't here I don't know how to be a proper man. All I know is how to hate, and shut everyone out at work because they don't know me. "

"I don't know you either.." I admitted because all I knew was from Google and that he annoyed me but in a way that made me lost without him. That he fulfilled me and his small annoyed smile brightened up my day.

He glanced away, "but I want to Baron. I mean I did mark you so you're kinda mine. You know like a mate, I haven't watched Twilight in awhile ..."

I smiled trying to get him to as well because I wasn't sure what to do. I wasn't expecting this but it somehow comforted me as well. I lift myself onto the counter to be closer to his height and he moved between my legs.

"I've never watched Twilight" he chuckled, "And Jacob has nothing on me."

"Never watched huh.." I shook my head and sighed staring into my lap and briefly running my fingers across his skulled rings with his hand set on the counter.

"I want you, I want to fuck you. I want to fucking have you back on the road with me because I sure as hell am not going to be stuck with a soccer mom or a lunatic who wants to kill me"

I giggled and kissed his cheek causing a small smile to form. "Oh how you swoon me wolf"

😍😍😍😍

"I'm serious though, Renee." He stared into my eyes.

"About what exactly?"

He narrowed his eyes knowing I knew what he was referring to well sort of did. "I want you and you want me so I ain't leaving until you leave with me. Its just weird without you, my bed, backstage. I never tried telling you because I never knew but I know I want to have what we had before and this time know I'm not searching for any brunettes or married women. I never was..."

Oh wolf, you really need to stop my heart can't handle anymore.

I ignored the boxes in the corner of my eye and focused on the brown eyes not seeming so lifeless as they had in the beginning. "You missed me."

"Unfortunately I did." He leaned his forehead against mine. "Come fucking on honey I'm trying to not be closed off here, fuck what more, tell me. "

I shook my head with a small smile, "I missed you too..."