"Feelings never do make sense.
They get you all confused.
Then they drive you around for hours
before they drop you right back where you started. "
B L A I R E W A L D O R F

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"So what? You say all this shit about more and then you just ignore all of it over one fucking night where I made one mistake? I thought you out of all people would know a thing or two about second chances?" He raised his eyebrow, almost fighting it when its what he wanted, it was clear he loved torturing people but I wouldn't give him any satisfaction.

I wasn't sure what made me think that perhaps everyone judged him too harshly that if someone just showed him they could put up with all that came with the wolf he would be comfortable enough to let his guard down completely.

The small bits of a goofy smile or suppressed laughter gave me hope. Kisses underneath a non-mistletoe or a random kiss on the top of my head before messing up my hair. His drunken state where he claimed me as his where I sunk into the idea of more instead of using my common sense knowing it was a rambling mess. Even his jealousy towards the idea of Dolph and I but it wasn't that, it was just his ego not wanting anyone else getting too close to someone he happened to view as his fuck toy.

I briefly glanced at him and saw his eyes focused on me but immediately looked away because I had made my final decision when I spoke to Bryan.

Baron had always been the exception for my moods and now he would be the only one on the roster who completely hated my guts. Well that would make it obvious...

"Yes there's no point in trying to stick around for someone who wanted you gone all along. Where the most effort he puts in is stripping off his shirt and tossing it your way before doing you a favour by sleeping with you." I shrugged staring blankly at him and I saw the anger fill his eyes at being beaten at his own sick twisted game before he nodded and pushed past me and I heard the door slam shut.

"Oooh look what I got!" I heard Nikki, interrupting my thoughts and smiled as she entered Bryan's office with a bunch of roses.

Bryan was off wherever and I wasn't really in the mood to be friendly to anyone tonight after I had been walking around like a zombie thanks to a major hangover, so I was hibernating until I was needed.

"Jon finally remember it?" I smiled but she set it in front of me.

"It was left in catering, for you, no card though"

I frowned and stared at it but felt a bitter taste in my mouth just staring at the beautiful red roses and chucked it into the bin.

"Why did you do that?" Nikki practically screamed my ear off.

"Its probably his idea of a sick joke!" I shook my head before sinking back onto the couch while she stared at the upside down set of roses. "He is fucking married, why does he see the need to rub it in my face that I'm alone?"

"Are you sure its from him?"

"Last year he sent me a collage of us together. I get it, I ruined his life he feels nothing but come on, like grow up. Karma made a loser out of me so why can't he leave me alone!" I groaned staring at the roses hearing noise in the hallways but not feeling like heading out to play peacemaker. I didn't need him creeping into my thoughts joining a certain wolf.

"Fuck him, but those roses are nice though"

I rolled my eyes and heard Dean's music playing out reminding me briefly of the beating Baron had laid on him two nights before.

I liked to believe maybe I had angered him before the match but even if I had I doubted it would be for the reasons I wanted. Which was the loss of our time together when I knew he wouldn't miss it. He probably regretted it all considering he had done everything he hated; laughed with me, kissed me, spooned me...

He lost, he was pissed, so he did what the Lone Wolf typically did which was destroy everything in sight.

"What the hell?" I heard Nikki as my mind had drifted and saw Dean being dragged out by Baron himself.

Dean tried to put up a fight but Baron wasn't having any of it, while I didn't really react Nikki clearly seemed upset. I guess due to Dean leaving with quite a few bruises on Sunday, mostly at the hands of Baron's brutal attack.

"Seriously, this man needs to get some control" She shook her head in disapproval.

I giggled, " you weren't complaining when he beat Dolph up"

"That wasn't like this. Did you see what he did to Jon on Sunday? My poor man was hurting."

"So you have told me, its his job to beat people up" I reminded her, trying to ease her mood.

"He didn't need to go so far. I know he's your travel buddy but that shouldn't make you feel obligated to cover up for him"

I frowned slightly at her words not the travel buddy part because I hadn't bothered telling them I was travelling with Bryan instead but her tone towards me annoyed me a bit.

"It doesn't. He is the fucking ruthless wolf Nicole, come on!"

"Whatever, it seems one fuck with Corbin and you are rolling on his bandwagon" She shook her head.

"Its just a segment and I didn't sleep with him, Nicole!" I ran my hand through my hair and watched as he walked backstage.

"Renee, I fucking know you. I saw how your eyes lit up when you saw him even though he was dragging my boyfriend around. Way to be a good friend" She sighed.

"You clearly don't know me Nikki, you saw nothing. I'm just being objective. You know Jon loves feuds like this.."

"Yeah whatever"

I sighed and walked away feeling sick to my stomach, so much for hibernating. It might have seemed like nothing but it was an argument with my best friend and I wasn't sure what was wrong with me.

Maybe the Yes person needed to say no and just leave.

I leaned against an equipment box, taking a breather knowing I still had Talking Smack.

"You really need to not be in the way" I heard Baron and briefly stared at him before giving a nod and moving away but saw him in front of me.

"What Baron?" I breath not hiding my irritation even though he hadn't really done anything besides be himself.

"What's wrong?"

Like you actually care.

"Nothing."

"Are you mad cause I beat your friend up?" He whispered, ready to fire at me but I honestly wasn't.

"No." I whispered. "Can you please let me go so I can do my job?"

He moved away and I immediately walked ahead of him.

I wanted crazy and rough with a thin line between pain and pleasure while I was closer to pain...

"What the..." I felt myself being pulled into what I realized was the female talent locker room, which luckily was empty.

"Baron what are you..." I felt his lips on mine and tried to push him away but he held my short locks in place.

I slowly returned the kiss because me being fucking googoo eyed Renee missed it and allowed a moan to escape as his hands travelled up my body.

He broke the kiss and bit my lip before pushing his tongue past my lips and lifting me up against the wall.

"You're not done honey" he whispered and I frowned for a bit before shaking my head.

"I am"

"Fine don't fuck me, just come sleep with me again. I'll promise not to spoon you either" he mused and I almost smiled but shook my head.

"These fucking people just make me fucking angry." He slammed against the door beside my head before letting me go and moving back.

"You got to beat someone up. Why are you angry?" I frowned knowing he enjoyed the physicality more than running his mouth.

"Because they fucking stick someone on me who can't fucking deal with me." His hands rested on his waist as his back was turned to me.

"I'm sorry that I didn't last Baron." I sighed not sure how I had ended up alone with him when that was what I was trying to prevent.

"I'm not talking about you. I'm fucking travelling with idiots since I got to this roster because they want me to get some advice from veterans instead of letting me hang with Matt or someone I can tolerate." He wavered still not looking at me.

"I'll speak to Bryan and tell him you'll be okay with Matt. I'm sure if he..." I began but him turning around with a glare meeting his frustrated tone stopped me.

"I don't fucking want Matt anymore.."

"Then who do you want?"

"You. "

My eyes didn't widen like I thought they would maybe because my body actually wanted to keep the stupid strong front, "I didn't last..."

"But that was different. I made the mistake of mixing things but this time I won't touch you."

I'm sure that will be easy for you...

"I know you won't. But I don't want to do it anymore, I told you I was done."

"Why?" He frowned as if I hadn't told him the reason multiple times in the last week.

"I told you why but you don't listen to me. You just wait for the part you can use to inflict anger on me, wait for me to offend you. You're so used to people pushing you down because you don't have a wrestling background. Talking behind your back because of that or your arrogance, well Baron everything I feel when it comes to you I have told you. I told you, you annoyed me, angered me, hurt me, fulfilled me, humoured me and..." I sighed and shook my head stopping myself.

He sat down, "I'm not sure how I crossed a line really. I mean if I hurt you, you should have said something, I was angry and I keep saying it but I never meant to scare you."

I didn't like the pained look in his eyes and slowly moved towards him.

"You didn't. I just wanted to hurt you so I said that."

"You're lying." He stated.

"Why would you say that?" I frowned as I stood in front of him.

"Because you never say shit unless you mean it"

I laughed a bit and sat down on his right leg, expecting him to tense like he usually did but of course this time he didn't, "I guess, and you're sure showing it out there aren't you?"

"Everyone's pissing me off more than usual" He admitted and I heard the doorknob being turned which wasn't surprising since we were in the locker room.

"We should go"

"So you're done but don't mind being seen leaving a locker room with me?" He whispered into my neck.

"I don't see any other way to get out of here."

"They'll go away. So you still mad at me for beating him up?" He questioned and I rolled my eyes brushing his long wet hair to the side.

"I was never mad at you for that, Corbin."

"So you were mad at me."

"Yeah"

"For what?" He questioned and I briefly thought we were back in our room until I head muffled voices and the doorknob turning again.

"I'm sorry that you zone out instead of listening to me Corbin" I mumbled not sure whether he was just trying to be funny.

"Sorry what did you say?" He mused and I narrowed my eyes at him but then rested my head on his shoulder.

I heard him sigh, "You're crazy, Renee.."

"You always say that."

"Cause you are"

"Not crazy enough to join you again" I shook my head as I lift it and he stared ahead. I noticed dark bruises on his neck or what I hoped to be bruises, just picturing Baron with some brunette made me feel sick all over again.

Maybe that's why he dragged me in here so I could see the fresh marks that had been covered by his long hair.

"Was I that bad in bed? I tried my best to dominate you" He chuckled causing me to ignore the cause of his marks.

Probably left the club with some brunette Corey set him up with, I remembered seeing him but not much after, maybe because I downed a few more drinks despite Corey telling me to take it easy.

Waking up this morning to the sound of Nikki's knocking made me wish I had. She seemed annoyed while she had locked herself out, not me, at least she had been sweet enough to change me into sweats last night before heading to Jon's and well drive me back since I wasn't sure how I got to the hotel.

"You did a great job." I finally said, pat his back but it only caused his laughter to die down.

"Until I went too far"

While I forced myself to believe he was what everyone said, the fact that he seemed to be beating himself up about it confused me.

"That's not the main reason"

"Then what is?" He finally stared at me again.

"I'm going to say it once and only once that I l.."

"I don't know who.." I heard Maryse as the door had been unlocked and immediately jumped off his lap as she entered with Miz.

"So you'll be fine with those questions and... Hey you two!" I smiled while Baron rolled his eyes before standing up.

"Hey you locked the door?" She smiled back, briefly hugging me as she entered.

"Yeah I was running over my questions, figured no one really needed it" I shrugged as Baron moved past not bothering to say anything. "So yeah I'll see you guys later."

I turned the corner to see Baron and frowned.

I was trying my best not to be rude to him when all I wanted was him to leave me alone but I couldn't very well be mad at him for not feeling the same way, "I have to work"

I moved over to the Talking Smack set despite it being early in the night.

"Baron, are you okay tonight?" I sighed as he continued following me.

"Not really. I went from not sleeping with anyone in quite sometime to having someone in my bed every night and now she's gone." He sighed and if we weren't at work I would have questioned his sobriety.

"Go find someone. Raw will be joining in again later in the week I'm sure Corey can help you find someone to clear your head with." I stopped myself from pointing out that Corey had clearly helped him succeed last night.

I hopped onto the table, looking over my questions but felt him move between my legs.

"So I was thinking.." He stared down at my thighs before glancing around.

"About how you are defeating the purpose of me leaving you Sunday by following me around" I smiled even though I wished he wouldn't because he wasn't making it any easier.

"Sunday?" He smirked.

"Yes Sunday Bar.."

He rolled his eyes, "No that you had a point on Sunday. I did want to teach you a lesson because out of everyone here I always thought you were okay and then you came waltzing in, springing yourself on me and I was annoyed that I didn't have any choice. And I tried my best to hate every moment with you, but you're crazy.."

"Baron..." I didn't need his insults right now when I would have to be sharing a room with a grumpy Nicole before we went on the road tomorrow.

"I was thinking, since they're in minority around here if you'll be happy to join my friends list." He smirked seeming proud of himself.

Get me a gun because I just got friendzoned.

"I'm honoured" I shook my head setting my pages down but not looking at him.

"I'm serious." He said firmly. "You said you wanted us to be friends remember?"

That was before I wanted you to be moooore!

I wanted to scream out recalling our conversation in the car so many weeks before about how he didn't want to be my friend.

"Okay Baron..." I nodded and he opened his arms causing me to frown.

"Friends hug?" He shrugged and I wrapped my arms around him as he seemed serious about it all.

"Now will you be my fuck buddy again? Friends with benefits? Get it?" He smirked reminding me of the goofy side of this big bad wolf.

I narrowed my eyes and he sighed, "I'm kidding. See what not clearing my head with you does to me? Following you around like a lost wolf"

"I like it. Its only been two days though" I mumbled.

"Told you I hate you being mad at me" He shrugged hopping up next to me, well with his long legs, just sitting back.

"But we're not forced together anymore so it shouldn't matter." I stared down at my feet swinging back and forth.

"I have a couple friends here and you are one of them now. That's what you wanted so we are" He stated seeming happy to give me what I wanted when it really wasn't anymore.

If it took him this long for that step...

"Here I thought I got rid of you." I rolled my eyes not being able to contain my smile because I guess being Baron Corbin's friend was better than nothing.

"Has anyone ever told you, you are mean?" He rolled his throwing my past words back at me while amusement filled his voice when he had been so angry in the locker room before.

"I have work. Get lost." I blurted out because I needed distance, he chuckled and surprised me as he kissed my cheek before leaving the table.

"See you later buddy." He waved in the air as he walked away.

"What are you looking at?" He snapped at one of the jobbers and I frowned.

What just happened?

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What's up with Baron?
Yeah so Renee does not remember their night together.
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