Holden's pov

I started to wonder to myself what was such an gorgeously smart girl like my sweet nemesis was heartbroken over Mathew Cotton to be honest she did deserve much better than that idoit from the start even if she couldn't see it, I see it every single time and they had broken up I wanted to be the one who prevent her from wasting her tears on him who resembles a boy that tried too hard to look like a version of Justin Bieber.

However, she hate my guts right now, although it wouldn't stop me from caring about her since it must had been really hard for especially every day she was facing a new completely difficult challenge even though  i might be the biggest arrogant, annoying person to her and we had bad moments arguing constantly with each other, in addition to this i wanted to actually respect her boundaries rather than invaded them  for instance, she needed some quiet time by herself to heal which was totally understandable on the other hand, she wasn't any of the cruel words that i had used to described her as salty or cold girl because instead she was one of the most smartest, beautifully genius girl who i know deserve the world. She used her  coldest or unapproachable technique to hide who she really was underneath her mask.

Can you imagine how she got all of her friends into one of the hottest night  clubs for everyone else to have a great time even when she was at  one of her all time lowest points in life being heartbroken before so many times not having anything handed to her on a silver platter too?

"Holden, what's wrong?" asked an concerned coach Jensen.

One if the sweetest, most confident and elegantly beautiful girl was really going through a lot of pain right now, assumed that i was a player or heartbreaker douchebag even though, I wasn't  one anymore since the very first day that I had saw her knocking on the dean office door waiting to made a complained about the injustice and unfairness that she had been going through when after I listen to everything she had said I was impressed by her. I wanted her to be the only girl who see right through me as i was patience enough to want to hear her laughs or see her radiation smile as I looked toward the ice rink stand to learn that she was not there because she was still busy in her quiet science lab probably doing that to avoid me anyways, i was willing to give her all the time and space she needed to be alright in her own element.

"It's nothing to do with hockey, coach." I said truthfully to coach Jesen.

The whole of campus might listed me as one of  the biggest heart-stropes bad boy hockey player but it was just a label to me since i had a reason for all those layers and underneath them, I was much more than that as well as nobody else get to know the real me except for my teammates who had been my friends for quite a couple of years now. In addition to this, i  saw coach jensen gave me the most knowingly of understanding smile on his face as if i was easy to read as a person which was strange he just paused all of us in the midway of hockey practice to give us some advice about women whilst we stand there to listened  carefully and closely to him. We were like one huge hockey family to each other which meant I would always think of them as brothers to me. 

Slowly, we all gathered around coach Jesen standing around him in a group circle kind of taking some notes of what he told how to understand women also how to get the girl, all of a suddenly we were taking down a few notes, discussing our problems and listening to every single words or important stuff that  our hockey coach was dropping his brilliant words of advices. Therefore, i took my phone out my locker in the locker room coming right back outside to the ice rink arena to started to typed them in my phone as i remember how she always speak her mind never letting anyone else get the best of her and the way she know how to handle other people then here i was written how to cherish a prime example of a girl who had everything that i was looking for.

"Lastly, you need to cherish her  as if she was the last or first girl in the world that you would ever love and  treat her like a queen who deserves more than everything or anything in this world." advised coach Jesen.

Deep down there were a lot of stress on me to keep performing my best without letting my team down as well as not to messed up my sport hockey scholarship ride here not to mentioned that i actually had a job working with five year old to teenagers teaching them how to play hockey and i had business classes to worries about my grades to keep them up i had to worked on essays, statics calculation , projects and tests to complete to my best ability because i had to balanced all of my time schedules and yet  why does teasing or annoying her seem to be at the top of my list for so many reason she was the bright light of my universe especially when she saw me right through all of my bs even if she still hate me.

"Dude, can you chill your grumpy-ass for a second and maybe listen to what i have to say." said Wyatt.

A thousand things and thoughts were flying through my brain all day long that i constantly have to keep up my GPA in order to play more hockey games then i snapped out of my thoughts when I began to hear this very distinctively laugh coming from the door whilst my eyes continued to searched or follow the sound of her soft giggles that filled the air with so many happiness until she stopped laughing when she finally  noticed me standing across the rink from the corner of her eyes she saw me gazing  right at her.

She frowned at me with an parched lips as she tried to look everywhere except for looking at me to resumed talking to her friends as they walked up to the stands to watched us playing hockey whereas her friend Jessasnym was here to support her boyfriend our hockey captain Asher even though, i could still feel her presence, i kept on playing hockey with my teammates being constantly aware that we keep pushing each other away due to our bickering, harsh words, cruel remarks.

I thought it was just the way we were bantering like our own little thing that no one else was in on.

"Come on now, turn that frown upside down." quipped Grayson.

In all seriousness, I didn't know what Gray and Wyatt were trying to accomplish at all like i wasn't going to let her ignored me but it was started to get under my skin even though two of my teammates were trying to make me laugh or cheered me up whereas, Fletcher and Mason both patted me on the back in some sort of way saying there, there to me whilst our captain talked to his girlfriend, in the meantime, i caught her glancing right at me so i winked at her to try get a reaction which made her more irritated by me after she mouthed "go away, McClellan." to me.

Uncertainty unsure, if she spend her whole time in the recording radio room on campus spilling gossips about what hockey players, boys in general should any girl avoid or her top fifteen  of fittest boys list nonetheless, i was pretty sure that i was on her hit list next the very first person on it.

Everyone was so busy doing what they were doing or talking about getting drunk whereas I didn't think of wanting to join them as I headed to the side to remove my mouthpiece out of my mouth to take a sip of water bottle and I wandered off outside of the ice rink.
"When are you going to admit your feelings for me?" I asked teasingly to her.

And then she just scoffed at me, fake a yawn then she proceeded to rolled her eyes at me as i skated right toward she was sitting on the standing on the stand when all that was separating us from each other was the glass/ plastic barriers space in between the two of us as she shoved her hand in her lab coat pockets.

"Never, ever in your dreams or in reality McClellan and that is a true fact." she said in disgusted to me.

There was a slight twitched I could feel my lips moved upwards in a half smirked- half smiled that happened to surprise her that i did not grumble or give up like the rest of the guys who were chasing her even when hearing her say that had caused me smirked furthermore, her reaction was absolutely priceless at the moment as i leaned in against the barrier shaking my head whilst chuckling at her.

"How did you know that  you were in my dreams last night? Unless you dreamed about me, bright spark?" I asked tauntingly to her.

Quietly, I heard her exhaled trying to let go of her anger or frustration of how i made her angry because now, even if i could still have all day to watch her reaction but i had load of things to do on my schedules started off with business class, training for hockey, teaching children how to become an beginner skater level before i could even thinking of progressing them all to an higher level the next day.

"McClellan, stop harrazing the poor girl will you!"coach Jesen shouted out to me.

Quickly, I bowed before I turned around to face my teammates again who were already making their way back to the locker room. I thinks that she does indeed need someone else to cherish who would give her their most utterly and undivided attention as all those thoughts started to consume my mind as i walked out of the ice rink shaking my head after taking off my helmet then those thoughts began to shift into something else and the only thing that could take my mind off of it was noting down everything that was on my agenda for the week once i was done taking off my hockey uniform, taking a shower to change into my regular clothes, i sling my bag on my back and shoved my hands into both pocket slowly walking out the backdoor to go home.