"The worst thing in life is watching the person you love, love someone else. What hurts even more is to find out that the person you love, loves you too."
{unknown}

//

"Lexie, did you have fun at your parent's wedding?" Dr. Shetland asked, once again bringing up my family.

I nodded my head and smiled, recalling the memory. "We were all so happy back then. Dr. Shetland, will I ever get married and be happy?"

Dr. Shetland shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know, Lexie, but I hope you are happy soon. And, if you ever get married, promise you'd invite me to your wedding."

I chuckled. "I promise, but I doubt that I'll ever get married. Everyone thinks I'm weird."

//

"YOU READY, LEX? We have to be at the wedding earlier than everyone else since you're the maid of honor." JJ spoke, fixing his tie in the mirror.

No, I'm not ready to see the first guy I actually have a crush on marry my sister.

"All ready!" I chirped.

JJ gave me a weird look. "You're being extremely happy right now considering the circumstances."

"I'm happy for Soda. If he's happy, then I'm happy." I lightly smiled, and JJ shook his head.

"I can't believe I'm actually going to agree with Dr. Shetland on something, but Lexie, if you have feelings for him, tell him! You can't keep your feelings bottled up. It's literally making me sick seeing you like this."

I furrowed my eyebrows. "So, it makes you sick seeing me happy?"

"You are not happy, Lexie! Hell, us two don't even know what that word means because we haven't experienced happiness before!"

"I know what I feel, JJ, and I don't need you telling me how I feel. You'd be happy if I was happy wouldn't you?" I questioned, my voice soft.

He nodded his head.

"Well, it's the same for Soda. If he's happy, then I'm happy for him. Because we're best friends." I explained, emphasizing the word 'best friends.'

"Whatever, let's just get this stupid thing over with." JJ mumbled, leading me into the living room.

When we entered, Steve smiled. "There's my partner!"

Steve is Soda's best man, so I have to walk down the aisle with him. I looked over and saw Soda. He was staring at me, wide-eyed, but when I turned to look at him, he looked away and walked out the door, not even saying anything.

"Why is he acting like that?" I frowned, looking at Steve.

"U-uh because he's just nervous about the wedding." Steve sounded like he was lying, but I just shrugged.

I walked out on the porch where Soda was and grinned. "I'm wearing a white dress like you said."

He glanced up at me and smiled, but it faded again, and I sighed. "Soda, if you're nervous about the wedding just tell me. I know a few things about anxiety."

He shook his head and turned around to face me. "We're friends. Just friends, okay?"

I knitted my eyebrows in confusion and a look of hurt washed over my face. "Y-yeah I knew that already. I don't know why you have to confirm it so many times."

I stood up and walked inside. "JJ, can we please go?"

He nodded, but looked at me worriedly. "Hey, you okay?"

I shook my head yes. "I'm fine. Just make sure I don't sit anywhere near Soda in the truck."

Steve looked upset, but didn't question my decision. I walked right past Soda outside, not even looking at him. JJ and I got in the truck and waited for Soda and Steve.

//

Steve

ONCE LEXIE AND JJ got in the truck, I spun towards Soda.

"I told you to stop leading her on, I didn't tell you to be a jerk towards her. Those are two different things."

Soda raised his hands in the air. "I don't know what to do, Steve! If I'm not a jerk to her, then I'll end up saying those things that lead her on anyways! I can't help it! I like Lexie a lot, but I also love Sandy, and that's why I'm marrying her."

(boiii you better get your priorities in check)

I scoffed. "Soda, I don't know if you understand, but like and love have two different meanings. Trust me, I think you got your definitions switched up."

Soda ran his hands through his hair. "I don't want to marry Sandy."

I raised my hands in the air. "Then why did you propose?!"

"I didn't!" Soda yelled, making me jump. Soda never usually yells. "Sandy made me! She said if I didn't, then she'd hurt Lexie! I have to be mean towards Lexie. Otherwise, Sandy will find out."

I shook my head. "So, you have to be like this to Lexie?"

Soda nodded. "She said it would make Lexie not like me anymore or whatever."

"I hate her so much." I whispered, dragging Soda off the porch.

We got in the truck and drove to the wedding in an awkward silence. You could tell there was tension between Soda and Lexie.

//

Lexie

"LEXIE, HOW DO you think this dress looks on me?" Sandy questioned, twirling around in her black wedding dress while looking in the mirror.

"It looks great on you. No wonder why Soda wants to marry you." I grinned, but it was fake. It hurt to say that, I don't know why.

She laughed. "Oh, I love him so much. He makes me happy, ya know?"

"Yep." I mumbled, feeling sick.

"I have to go to the bathroom." I excused, walking out of the room.

I can't make it through this whole wedding.

I ran inside the bathroom and sat down on the floor. I leaned my head against the wall and took deep breaths. You can do this, Lexie. Just put on a smile, and you'll be fine. And even if you're not fine, everyone else will think you are.

There was a knock on the bathroom door. "Lex, are you in here? It's about to start." JJ's voice came from outside the door.

I stood up and opened the door. When JJ saw me, he frowned. "I told you. No person is ever happy when the person they love, loves someone else. Remember, Lex? That's how I got in the mental asylum in the first place."

I sighed and walked across the aisle. Soda was looking at me, smiling, and I turned away, not wanting him to look me in the face. It hurts too much. I stood at the place where the rest of the bridesmaids were and the music started.

Sandy started walking gracefully down the aisle. She looked beautiful, I wasn't going to lie. I glanced over at Soda and his face lit up when he saw her. I felt sick again.

I wanted to cry.

I liked when I was at the mental asylum. I never had to worry about crying. I liked it when I couldn't cry.

The preacher said the words that needed to be said, and they each said their vows.

"Sodapop Curtis, do you take Sandy Madison to be your lawfully wedded wife?"

"I do."

Then, the worst part ever.

The kiss.

[poor Lexie :( this is what she looked like while watching them kiss.]

All of the gang was giving me a sympathetic expression in the crowd. Sandy and Soda came over to me. "Oh, sis, you're crying!" Sandy frowned. It was obviously a fake one.

I shook my head, dismissing it and wiped my tears away. "I'm happy for you, that's all."

Soda was looking at me, very worried. "Well, I have to go. I don't feel too well." I spoke, walking away.

I looked at JJ and Two-Bit. "Please take me home."

They both nodded and as soon as we got in the truck, I broke down. I couldn't stop crying and Two-Bit kept rubbing my back, trying to comfort me.

I looked up at JJ. "You know what, JJ? I understand why you wanted to go to the mental asylum. To get away. Well, I want to go now too."

JJ shook his head repeatedly. "Lex, I got into the mental asylum by trying to kill myself. I didn't want to go there."

"Well, maybe I should try what you did then." I spoke, my voice barely above a whisper.

"NO!" Two and JJ shouted, making me jump.

Two-Bit put his hands on my shoulders and turned me around to face him. "Lexie, trust me. You don't want to do that. Soda is doing this for.... well, I can't say anything. Just please don't even think about doing that."

I nodded my head and laid my head down on his shoulder. "Lexie, I have the perfect person for you to meet." JJ smiled.

"Who?"

"James."