I haven't been going to college lately as I feel like I dont wanna do anything in life,I feel helpless,my heart feels like it has been shattered,it feels like Im trapped in a room and the oxygen is running out as time passes by. To be honest the only thing I don't miss about going to college is the cringey screams,squealing and the notes I get everytime I pass down the hallway. I hate it alot. Like imagine going to school once you step in all you hear is squealing like mice,screaming as if a celebrity had passed through and a ton of comments such as "omg so handsome" "oPpAaAaA" "how can someone be so beautiful" and many more cringey comments I don't wanna hear. I know some people like being complimented and they like that atmosphere,but not for me no.

I hate it I just wanna live like a normal human being.....not being stalked,like even when im eating I'd find people staring at me,their mouth wide open and jumping up and down and whispering to their friend or whoever is with them. Of course I'm grateful for the way I look and stuff but sometimes it is too much..let's talk about the notes I get...I FIND NOTES IN MY BACKPACK  WHEN I GO HOME SOMETIMES,LIKE HOW THE HELL DO THEY GET TO MY BACKPACK?

Some people are brave enough to hand it to me while the rest put it in my stuff like my locker.I've never been in a relationship before,and I'm not planning on having one anytime soon. I don't even like anyone.  Oh and if you're wondering this is what most of the notes will have in them: "Dear oppa, Wow! I think I am 101% in love with you. Can I be so bold to invite you to study with me Saturday afternoon and after, invite you to go to the movies and then, invite you to go to dinner and then, invite you to go dancing and then, if you were not tired of my lack of objectivity, ask you for a kiss? Answer, please, or shorten the process by giving me this kiss at once!"

And sometimes "Dear handsome oppa,We will find our way to finish our lives together. I want to grow old with you and do what old people do. You may outlive me, but if you don’t, I vow I will treasure and care for you until your very last breath. And no different than Johnny and June, I will live out the fleeting moments of my life making sure the world remembers the mark you made for eternity. I never thought I would find someone so beautiful, passionate and giving. We will be like Tom and Jerry, me after your life all the time, and you trying all ways to escape. We will be together like them, always. Your sacrifices do not go un-noticed. I love you beyond anything." 

"Babe,Maybe I shouldn’t be telling you this, maybe this is the worst idea I have ever had, but I cannot get you off of my mind. My friends keep pushing me to get over you, but the thing is that I don’t want to get over you I never want to delete your photos from my camera roll or your image from my brain,please love me oppa"

Had enough of the cringe? I have to go through that on the daily,imagine how much I cringe. When I show them to jungkookie and hoseok hyung they laugh and cringe,they also tease me about it but I don't care.

We have prom next week...I'm not planning on going as there is no-one I can take with me. Everyone is wondering who I'll pick, yesterday jiminie was telling me about a fight that happened in the hallway of the college. He said they started fighting cz one of them said that I'll take her to prom but the other girl interrupted and said I'll take her to prom and so on till the fighting got physical. Stretching hair,kicks,punches,you name it.
*sighs* aishhhhh why do I have to suffer......gosh help me.

I decided to call the whole squad for a movie night,sleepover....I just wanna laugh and get my mind off of things and what better way to do that than hanging out with friends am I right? My dad has been traveling for work so it is okay if we have a sleepover....wooyoung and ryujin don't mind them over as wooyoung is friends with jungkook and jimin and ryujin...let's just say she is whipped for yoongi hyung so.....I'll call jin hyung first he always picks up.

*on the phone*

Tae: hey hyung?

Jin: hello,yes Tae? Are you okay? Are you feeling better?

Tae: yes I'm okay..but I was wondering could you come over today? We can eat dinner together and have a sleepover! I'll invite the others too.

Jin: sounds fun! I'm actually at joon's right now so I'll see if I can bring him with me.

Tae:😏😏

Jin: YAHHH,STOP YOUR THOUGHT IT ISNT THAT.

Tae: okay okay whatever you say hyung..👀 if you can,bring him with you too

Jin: okaii I'll see you in a bit then!

Tae: bye hyung

Jin: bye

*call ended*

Next up I'll call ummm....yoongi hyung! I bet you he's in bed....cz apart from the musical genius that he is that's all he does.

*on the phone*

Tae: took you long enough to pick it up...

Yoongi: you're the one who interrupted my sleep in the first place.

Tae: you were NOT sleeping!!!! You were online when I called!!

Yoongi: anyway what do you want?

Tae: can you come over tonight?

Yoongi: who's there?

Tae: the whole gang😌 well.....you're the second person I called so I don't know-

Yoongi: what do you wanna do?

Tae: eat dinner,watch a movie,play games,go crazy,a sleepover you name it.

Yoongi: is your dad okay with this?

Tae: hyung are you interviewing me now? My dad isn't even in the city and I don't think he minds...I'll call him real quick but are you coming?

Yoongi: is y-your s-sister h-home?

Tae: why does that matter huh?

Yoongi: so I can know what to wear obviously!

Tae: yeah sure....well anyway yeah she is so don't come shirtless pls...and even if u did it's not like she minds..

Yoongi: w-what do you m-mean...?

Tae: for God's sake....ANYWAYYY you coming?

Yoongi: yes! I'll be there in 10.

Tae: okaii see you!

*call ended*

Wow they really are very obvious....I'll get them in the right direction some day... yoongi hyung has a point tho ....what if my dad isnt okay with this? I'll let him know!

*on the phone*

Tae: hello dad! How are you? How is work going? You coming back again? I miss you :(

Mr. Kim: hey taetae yes everything is fine! Ik I miss you too son....there is only one more month then I'll be back to Seoul. How are you doing? Did you get in any trouble? What have you been up to?

Tae: I am doing fine! No...I am not going to school.....

Mr. Kim: *deep sighs* Tae.....I know you are stressed and stuff but you can't stay at home all day...you need to continue your studies,your mom wouldn't be happy if she knew that you're not going to college wouldn't she? And that isn't what a good role model does.....

Tae: I know dad...b-but I tried going there....it was useless I didn't u-understand anything I j-just sat in class doing n-nothing *sobs* as much as I try I can't take my mind off of it....*sniff* when the day is over sometimes friends come over and they tell me everything that happened and they help me understand the new lessons and stuff.

Mr. Kim: oh taehyung....first off don't cry...comeon now wipe those tears and listen to me. Okay?

Tae: o-okay *sobs* *sniff* *wipes tears*

Mr. Kim:There is one person and one person alone over whom you have control in this life—and that is yourself. Since you are the only person you can control, you are the only person who can take responsibility for your life. That includes your energy, your happiness, your fulfillment, your career, your choices and more. You are responsible for you and you alone. You are not responsible for anyone else. How could you be? It is their responsibility to take care of themselves. Yes, you can and should support someone in making good choices, building a life that makes them happy, and taking care of themselves. In fact, taking responsibility for your own well-being is precisely how we are better able to be present for those around us. Just remember: Support and responsibility are two extremely different approaches. You take responsibility for yourself. You support other people. Do your best not to reverse or mix up the two. Your responsibility for your life unfolds in the present moment. Not in some bygone era. Not in some future left untold. Not when you graduate. Not when you feel like it. Not when you reach a certain age or make a certain amount of money. Right. Now.  This is not something to take lightly. It’s also not something about which to fret. This is a blessing. You get to be accountable for yourself. What a tremendous gift it is to be able to shape, craft, build, mold, and create your life! It is a privilege to have this responsibility. But it’s only when we recognize it’s ours and ours alone that we can actually seize our power. So, take responsibility for how you show up in the world. Honor the gift of life by exercising your right to consciously choose. Again and again and again. Dignify yourself by taking responsibility for your own well-being. It is yours to claim. Do not burden yourself by taking on responsibilities that are not yours. Focus on being responsible for yourself first. As you own this sacred duty, you will discover parts within you that you may have forgotten were there. This is how we rediscover ourselves. This is how we’re better able to show up for others. Giving to yourself is how you learn to give to others. Listen to yourself so you can better lend an ear to others. Be present with your emotions so you can better be present for the emotions of others. Put on your own metaphorical oxygen mask so you can better assist others with theirs. When you take care of Numero Uno, you’re better equipped to take care of everything and everyone else, too. The responsibility is yours. Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better. We’re all figuring out this thing called life as we grow through it. We’re all doing the best we can based on the information and resources we have at our disposal. But some things are simply better learned through experience. Do your best. Don't be afraid to make mistakes. You will do better when you know how. And you often only find out when you get there. It won’t always look how you imagined because life is rarely predictable, but it will feel familiar, it will feel right, it will feel like home.All you have to do is keep going. No matter what. I'll support you with whatever decision you take!just be happy! And think about it son...you can do it

Tae: *sniffles* d-dad I w-wish you here right now I wanna g-give you a big h-hug

Mr. Kim: now what did i say about those tears?

Tae: ...w-wooyoung? Why are you here?

Wooyoung: (a/n he came in the room tae was on the phone in) why are you crying? *comes closer to hug*

Tae: n-nothing

Wooyoung: who are you on the phone with?

Tae: dad...

Wooyoung: awww Tae come here *arms wide open*

Mr. Kim: take good care of your brother woo

Wooyoung: of course dad! Now I'm gonna go take him to an arcade so he'll call you back later.

Mr. Kim: okay! Stay safe guys! I love you...

Tae&woo: we love you too dad byee!~

Tae: WAIT

Mr. Kim: yes?

Tae: you are okay with my friends over....r-right? 👉👈

Mr. Kim: yes of course! They are like my sons too...and whatever makes my tae happy I'm okay with!

Tae: okay! Thanks dad bye!

*call ended*

Wooyoung: comeon hyung lets get you ready!

Tae: well actually woo....I called the squad over! They are coming for a sleep over and a movie night...

Wooyoung: really??...so you don't wanna go to an arcade?...

Tae: no it's not that..but I already called jin and yoongi hyung. Namjoon hyung is coming with Jin. And I need to call the rest. Sorry if I disappointed you... :(

Wooyoung: ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Tae: sorry..

Wooyoung: THAT IS BETTER THAN ANY ARCADE!! I WILL FINALLY BE ABLE TO BEAT JUNGKOOK HYUNG AT OVERWATCH I'VE BEEN TRAINING FOR THIS!!

Tae: wait...so you aren't mad? Or sad?

Wooyoung: no!! This is better an arcade! Imma go get ready....wait.....can I join you guys? Or is it just you and friend alone time?

Tae: no I don't mind! It will be even more fun! And I'm like 93939292% sure the others don't mind either! Now go change. AND DON'T WEAR REVEALING CLOTHS.

Wooyoung: whyyyyyy *wines* :(

Tae: woo they are my friends- you can't wear stuff like this

(A/n I'm low key screaming)

Wooyoung: okay foinnn *fine said as a cute tone* I'll wear sweats and an oversized hoodie then!

Tae: okay perfect😌👌

Wooyoung: so you said yoongi hyung is coming huh?😏

Tae: yes....why?

Wooyoung: nothing...just thinking about teasing ryujin noona....

Tae: 😏😏 I like the way you think!

*they both evil giggle*

*wooyoung leaves the room to get ready while Tae calls the rest of the team*

*on the phone*

Tae: kookie?

Jungkook: helloooo ssup? You seem excited about something

Tae: will come over? I'm inviting the whole team for a sleepover and a movie night!

Jungkook: ooOoOO sounds fun! IS WOO HOME? IM GONNA BEAT HIM!

Tae: all you guys do is play games.... *sighs* but yes he is here and he is excited.

Jungkook: yesss! *mutters under his breath*

Tae: you said something?

Jungkook: no don't worry about it! :) is everyone coming?

Tae: I still need to call hobi and chim but till now yes!

Jungkook: don't worry about jimin hyung! I'll take him with me but he is asleep currently so I'll wake him up when we need to leave.

Tae: wait....how did you- .....how did you know he's asleep?

Jungkook: ahhh- I slept at his last night! I woke up earlier he is still asleep cuddling looking like mochi

Tae: kinky😏

Jungkook: YAHHH HYUNG NO.

Tae: shush! You're gonna wake him up! Well whatever you guys were doing..👀 bring him with you✨ if he doesn't want to then DRAG HIM here I can't have fun without my soulmate :(

Jungkook: okay! See you soon then!

Tae: see ya!

*call ended*

One more person to go! Hope hyung!

*on the phone*

Tae: hyunggggg

Hoseok: WHAT? ARE YOU OKAY?

Tae: HAHAHA yeah I'm feeling just fine.

Hoseok: you scared me-

Tae: I didn't do anything tho...any way wanna come over today?

Hoseok: for?

Tae: everyone is coming we will be having a chaotic sleepover and a movie night! You're the last person I have to call then we got the whole squad!

Hoseok: I'm sorry but I made plans with ayeong earlier....you guys have fun tho!

Tae: hyung pretty pleaseeee

Hoseok: b-but ayeong what am I supposed to tell her?

Tae: bring her with you!

Hoseok: w-what

Tae: yupp she can spend time with ryujin or with you BUT HERE we can't have a fun day without having you with us hyung! So you coming?

Hoseok: okay I'll talk to ayeong first then let you know! So...see you?

Tae: see you!

*call ended*

This is gonna be funnnnn!

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End of chapter 2
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Hope you guys are enjoying so far!! This was a long chapter😅 Please don't hesitate to leave your opinion it helps me alot! You guys dont know how bad i cringed writing this😊☺ and i may have teared up too...but that is fine! See you next week! Stay safee💜💜 if you have any questions you can ask them here👉