Important A/N at the bottom

Millie's pov

I woke up, feeling terrible.

I think Finn woke up, because he shifted, his thumb starting to trace on my back again.

"Finn, are you awake?" I asked. My head was on his chest, so I couldn't look up to him.

"Yeah, I'm awake. What's up?" He whispered.

"I have a headache. I'm gonna go get water or something." I said, and he moved his arm so I could get up.

I got up, and as soon as I got up, I walked a couple steps and fell down, getting too dizzy to walk.

Finn ran over to me and helped me up, and I sat back down on the bed.

"I'll go get water, then we can go back to sleep." He said, and I nodded. I looked at the clock, and it was around 4 in the morning.

I looked around, everything spinning.

It's getting worse.

I realized Finn came back with water, and I drank some of it and thanked him, and set it on the table. Finn laid back down, and I turned to see him already looking at me.

He opened his arms up for me to go into, and I smiled and laid back down, back against his chest. I felt him kiss the back of my head, and his arms go around my waist.

"Feel better Mills," He said, before we both fell asleep again.

-

I woke up, with a random sense of energy.

I felt Finns arms still around my waist from behind me, breathing heavily, meaning he's still sleeping. I looked in front of me and saw my phone, and decided to quietly grab it to make sure finn doesn't wake up.

I opened it and saw messages from the group chat asking if they wanted to hang out.

I really need to tell them.

I replied back saying that Finn and I could, then shut my phone off, and felt Finns arms tighten around my waist, and his leg hit mine when he shifted.

"Finn," I whispered, and nothing happened.

"Finn," I said, louder this time, and I heard his breathing stop from being so heavy.

He groaned, and I smiled, thinking how cute it was.

"We have plans today." I said, and tried to move out of his arms, but he wouldn't let me, and gripped me tighter.

"Finn come on," I said, and he groaned again. Instead of going out of his arms I just turned my body around so I could face him.

His eyes were still closed, the side of his face smushed against his pillow, his eyebrows furrowed.

"Finn, get up." I said, and he squinted his eyes open, looking at me. I smiled at him, and a smile formed on his lips. He moved his hand from my back to the side of my face, his thumb tracing my cheek.

"What are you doing," I said, giggling. He looked at my eyes and smiled.

"You're beautiful." He said, in his morning voice. I felt my cheeks heat up, and I think he noticed, because he chuckled a bit.

I still have to tell him I'm not doing the treatment.

"Come on and get up, we are hanging out with the guys and Sadie," I said, getting out of his arms, and he groaned.

"What are we doing?" Finn asked.

"We are going over to Gaten's. Probably playing wii or something." I said, and he nodded, as we got up to get ready.

-

"I told you I was the master at wii bowling," Caleb said to Sadie, and she rolled her eyes.

We were all on the couches, either talking or playing the wii. I was sitting next to Noah on the couch, the one across from Finn and Gaten.

"You know, Finns been all over you recently. You know why that is?" Noah asked me. I looked over to Finn, who was laughing at something Gaten said. I looked back to Noah.

I think I need to tell them tonight.

"I kinda need to tell you guys something tonight." I said, and Noah's facial expression changed to a serious one.

"Is it bad?" He asked.

"Yeah," I said, lowering my eyes.

"Noah, Millie, you're up!!" Sadie yelled to us, and we got up to play the wii.

-

We were all sitting in a circle on the ground, talking about life. Finn was next to me, his hand intertwined with mine.

"Uh, guys," I said, making everyone's attention go toward me.

"I have something to tell you." I said, and they nodded.

"Um-I-I passed out about a week or two ago, and I went to the hospital-

"Oh my god are you okay?" Sadie asked, cutting me off.

"When I was at the hospital....they found out that I have a tumor." I said, and their eyes didn't leave me.

"Are you getting it removed?" Caleb asked. Finns hand tightened a little bit around mine.

"The thing is...it's a brain tumor." I said, and Sadie exhaled, eyes starting to get glossy.

"well that's just a harder procedure, right?" Gaten asked.

"My tumor is cancerous. And impossible to surgically remove." I said, and they all kind of exhaled and were processing it.

"There's a treatment right? I've heard about that." Caleb said. I looked at them again.

"I got told about the treatment. It wouldn't fix me completely, it'd just give me more time. But it's really, really painful." I said, and I felt Finn look at me. I looked at him, tears were filling in his eyes.

"You're not doing the treatment?" He asked, a little lowly.

"I'm not going to be doing the treatment, either," I said, turning back to all of them.

"There's also a lot of symptoms with this I've been having, like weakness, tiredness, easily bruising." I said, and they nodded.

"Can we have a group hug?" Sadie asked, and I noticed they were all crying a bit. So was I.

"Yeah," I said, and we all kinda laughed a bit over the hug, and we all hugged.

I'm going to miss them.

-

Finn and I were driving back from Gatens, and he stopped in front of my house. It was dark out, probably about 10:00. 

We haven't said anything the whole car ride.

"You're not don't the treatment?" He asked me, again.

"Finn, I just don't see a point in doing it." I said, and he kept his gaze straight in front of us.

"So you have more time?" He asked. I sighed, and looked at him.

"I don't want to spend the rest of my life in constant pain from that treatment. I'd rather spend it with you, being happy." I said, and Finn let out a shaky breath, then started to cry.

I grabbed his hand and held it, and he continued to cry.

"I don't want you to leave me," He said, and my eyes started to water.

"I don't either," I said, lowly. I leaned my head against his arm, and he leaned his head on top of mine. We stayed like that for a while, and I let him cry, and rant to me.

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Okay THIS IS IMPORTANT READ THIS

I have been so busy lately with school, softball, and work. It's only going to get more and more like this, so I won't have enough time to post every weekend. I am so sorry that I can't do that, I know you guys love these stories, but I never have time to write new chapters. I don't know when I will be updating next, but I know we have a winter break and fall break, maybe I can find some time to write then? I don't know. I'm gonna try my hardest, but it might not be for a while. I'm sorry!!

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