I'm updating twice today, yes. Why? Because I feel like it. Hehe. Also, because everyone was too shook to breathe over the last chapter.

Millie's pov

I was sitting in my living room with a blanket on me, Sadie next to me, and I was leaning my head onto her shoulder. We were watching movies.

I told her what happened last night and I was crying over the phone, she came right when she woke up.

It's probably 2:00 now, and we've been watching movies all day.

Then, we heard a knock on the door.

"Answer it. If it's Finn, tell him I'm not home." I said, and hid under my blanket, and she got up to open the door.

"Is Millie there?" I heard the soft voice of Finn ask.

"No, she's not home." Sadie said.

"She's obviously home if you're here. I really need to talk to her." Finn said, and my heart started racing.

"She doesn't want to talk to you." Sadie said, and I heard Finn sigh.

"Okay." He said, and I heard the door shut. I moved from under my blanket and Sadie sat back down, and we were watching the movie.

-

I was on my phone in my room, looking through my camera roll with the pictures and videos of Finn and I. My favorite one is when we fell asleep together in the basement that Ava took. Then the video where he asked me to formal, and I hugged him. He was smiling, but I didn't see him.

"Come on Millie, you need to stop looking at those." Sadie said, taking my phone and setting it on the nightstand.

"Let's do something to distract you." She said, and I looked at her.

"Like what?" I asked, and she thought for a little bit.

"I'll be right back." She said, running out of my room. She brought back Ava.

"Why is Ava in here?" I asked, and Ava ran onto my bed.

"What happened?" She asked.

I sighed. "I kissed cute boy," I said, and she gasped and smiled, "and he closed the door." I said, and she furrowed her eyebrows.

"Ugh, come on cute boy. I was rooting for you." She said, and I looked to Sadie.

"Not helping." I said.

"We can go to the animal store and look at all the animals." Sadie said, and I smiled.

"Yes!" I said, and we ran downstairs to Sadie's car, and I turned on the radio.

Ava wouldn't shut up in the back though.

-

We walked into the animal store, and you could already smell the smell of the animal store.

I looked around and saw hamsters, so I went to see them. Some were on the wheel, and some were in the little huts.

"Millie, look!" Ava said, and I turned to see a tiny carousel prop with dogs running around the fenced area.

The carousel never stops turning, am I right?

Sadie Ava and I bent down there and got
to pet the dogs, and it was a really fun time.

"Millie, can we get ice cream?" Ava asked, and I shrugged.

"Sure." I said, and after about an hour more, we left to go get ice cream.

-

"I'll have strawberry please." Sadie said, and a minute later, they got her strawberry.

Ava had cookie dough, and I had mint chocolate chip. Ava had hers all over her face.

We laughed, and we got in the car, to drive home.

We listened to the radio, and Sam Smith was on most of the time.

Ava didn't know any of the songs, but Sadie and I sang our hearts out to ever song that came on.

After a while, we made it back home and Sadie dropped us off and said bye, and we got inside.

"What do you wanna do?" Ava asked.

"You need to go to bed." I said, and she groaned.

"Why?" I asked, and I looked to her.

"It's a school night. And if mom comes back and sees you're still awake, I'm dead." I said, and she looked at me.

"Why don't you say mom and dad? We have a dad, Millie." Ava said, and I shook my head.

"He's never home, and he doesn't like me. Doesn't seem like a dad to me." I said, and she sighed, and went upstairs. I took my phone out of my pocket to see if I had any notifications, and I had none.

He didn't even text me about it.

He really doesn't wanna talk to me.

I just sighed and went upstairs, showered, and got into bed.

I tried to go to bed, but I couldn't stop thinking about my dad.

I wonder where he even is, hooking up with another girl or staying at a friends house, passed out drunk.

I don't even care.

He hates me. We used to be okay with each other, but my psychosis and schizophrenia set him off the edge. He looks at me like I'm a mistake that he didn't mean to make.

Well, he wanted me for other reasons too.

Flashback

"Millie, open the door." He said, and my heart was beating, beating too fast for my body to handle.

I got up and opened the door, and he looked at me, and he shut the door.

"Your birthday is tomorrow, you're turning 12." He said, and I nodded.

"I'm going to give you my birthday present today." He said, and I looked at him.

"Where's Mom and Ava?" I asked, and he locked the door.

"They aren't home." He said, and he took my hand, and led me to the bed.

"What''s going on dad?" I asked, and he looked at me with a stern look on his face.

"Don't call me that. You can call me daddy." He said, and I looked at him.

Don't tell me I'm right about what I think he's thinking.

I felt his hand on my thigh, and he moved it up to my shirt, and was taking it off of me.

"Dad-daddy no." I said, and he slapped me. I squeezed my eyes shut, and tried not to cry, as he took my shirt off.

He felt me. He was touching me.

I felt him take off my bra too, and that's when my heart was starting to pound, I thought that he could hear it.

He felt me. Everywhere.

I heard a door open from downstairs, and he stopped and looked at me.

"Put your clothes back on, and you are to never speak of this. It may happen again. If you do, you will have a severe punishment. Okay?" He said, and I looked at him, tears in my eyes.

"Yes daddy." I said lowly, and he walked out of my room and shut the door.

Leaving my scared, shaking and 11 year old self, in my room, feeling violated as ever.

That's the first time my dad has ever tried something on me, and it was also the thing that started up my schizophrenia.

Fuck you, dad. People care about me. Like Sadie and Ava. My mom, Noah, Gaten, Caleb, Fi-

Finn.

Nope, not Finn. I ruined that for myself too. God I'm so stupid.

I just closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep. Chances are, I won't.

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I have like 2 flashbacks written with her dad in them and I can't do it anymore I'm CRINGING UGH but seriously, it triggers me that there are child predators out there. It needs to stop. Society is horrible.

Hopefully I made your day by updating this twice today. But I also broke your heart. Oops. Gn love you all.