Hi, I feel like I'm dying

Millie's pov

I woke up to a call coming from the hotel phone.

"Leave it." Finn groaned from behind me, his arms tightening around me.

We let it ring, and I closed my eyes again, because I'm really tired. I only slept for a couple of hours.

I heard a ding from the door, and then I heard it open.

"Get uuuuuuuuuuup." I heard a bunch of people say, and I furrowed my eyebrows, and opened my eyes, seeing Gaten and Noah run onto the bed, Sadie and Caleb walking in. I shut my eyes again.

"Wow, they're cuddling. Not surprised." Gaten said.

"Awweee." Sadie said, and Noah laughed.

"Are they up?" Caleb asked.

"Yes, go away." I groaned, and Sadie laughed.

I felt the blankets get ripped off of us, probably by Noah.

"We got some serious spooning action going on right here." Gaten said, and I furrowed my eyebrows, and lightly took Finns arms, and softly put them back by him. He groaned, and I sat up, looking at everyone.

"We are going to the beach, get ready." Noah said, and they ran out of the room, Sadie and Caleb walking back to theirs.

"How the hell did they get in?" I asked.

"Caleb has another key for ours and Noah's." He said, and I rolled my eyes, and got up, to get ready. Before I went into the bathroom, I turned around to Finn after he called my name.

"Did you sleep okay?" He asked, and I smiled.

"I didn't fall asleep till around 4. So I don't know. It was a bad night for me." I said, and he nodded, and I turned back to the bathroom to get ready in there.

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I put a tank top and shorts over my swimsuit, brushed my hair, meds, brushed my teeth, everything I normally do.

I walked out and saw that Finn was already ready, and went to brush his teeth.

I went over to my phone to see that I had a text notification.

Mom❤️: How's the road trip going?

Millie: pretty good.
In LA.

I put my phone in my pocket and saw that Finn was ready to leave, so we walked out to meet Sadie, Caleb, Noah and Gaten.

"Finally." Gaten said, and we walked out to the elevator, and we got in, Gaten and Noah talking about some random thing.

We walked out of the hotel and got in the van, Sadie playing her playlist.

I just looked out the window, looking at everything. I've never been to LA, it looks really cool.

"We are here!" Caleb said, after about 10 minutes.

We got out of the van and saw the beach. The water was really clear, even from this view.

We walked through the sand and found a spot, and set all of our stuff down, and laid our towels out.

Gaten and Noah ran into the water, and Sadie and Caleb were flirting, and kissing. They really like kissing.

"Millie! Finn! Let's go!!" I heard Noah say, and I looked at Finn. We got up and walked to the water, and I put my feet in to see if it's cold. It was freezing.

"You guys ran like full force into this, aren't you freezing?" I asked, and they laughed.

"It's gets better once you're in it for a while." Noah said, and Finn got waist deep, when Gaten took his arm and pulled him underwater. I laughed a little, and Finn got back up, and shook his hair like a dog. I laughed again, and got in to my waist.

"If one of you pull me in, I'm gonna kill you." I said, and Finn smiled.

"Even me?" He asked, coming closer to me.

"Finn, don't." I said, and he smiled again, and took my hand, trying to pull me under, and I screamed, but I felt him lift me up. He was holding me bridal style now.

"I'm kidding, I would never." He said, and I smiled.

"Not!" He yelled, right when he dropped me and I fell under.

I swam back up, and moved my hair out of my face, and I heard the guys laughing.

"You think that's funny?" I asked, and slapped Finn across the face. I smiled, and he held his cheek.

"I thought we were friends." He said, and I laughed.

"I thought we were too." I said, and I looked over to Sadie and Caleb, still by our stuff.

"Are they coming in?" I asked, and we turned to them. Looked like they were having a conversation.

"Probably not for a while." Gaten said, and I looked to Noah, and he looked at Finn, then me, than raised his eyebrows twice. I looked over to Finn, and he was looking at Sadie and Caleb.

I furrowed my eyebrows at Noah, and he smiled and winked. I rolled my eyes and shook my head no, but he shook his head yes.

"Is there a secret language I'm not in on?" Gaten asked, and it made Finn turn to us.

"Nope, not at all." I said, raising my eyebrows and Noah.

"We should have a chicken fight." Gaten said, and I groaned.

"I'd rather not go on one of your shoulders because you're all weird and hormonal." I said, and they laughed.

"Well I'm gay." Noah said, and I looked to him.

"You could lift me up?" I asked, and he smiled.

"Millie you're like 2 pounds." He said, and I rolled my eyes.

"Fine." I said, and I saw Finn got on Gatens shoulders. I got on Noah's.

"I told you I was gonna kill you Finn. Why take your chances now?" I asked, and he smiled.

"Because I'm a beast at this." He said, and I rolled my eyes.

"Okay go!!" Noah yelled, and Finn and I grabbed each other's hands and tried to push each other off, but I just ended up laughing.

We both fell off at the same time, and I got up, pushing my hair out of my face.

"Round two?" Noah asked, and we laughed.

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"So I think we should go paddle boarding tomorrow." Sadie said, and I smiled.

We were all in their room, just talking. It was about 11:00pm. I was on the couch, laying down, Gaten was on the floor, Noah was in the spinny chair thing, and Finn was on the bed with Caleb and Sadie.

"Let's do that." Noah said, and I closed my eyes, laying on my side towards them, using a pillow on the couch for my head.

"Okay, next topic. Season 5 of the flash. Who do you think the villain is gonna be?" Gaten said, and I heard Sadie groan.

"Gaten, for the last time, nobody watches the flash!! Riverdale is where it's at." Sadie said, and I heard everyone agree with her.

"Fuck you guys." He said, and they all started arguing.

"Millie." I heard Finn whisper, and I squinted my eyes open.

"Wanna go back to our room?" He whispered, and I nodded. He stood up and took my arms, and stood me up.

"We are going to our room." Finn said, and Noah winked at me.

"Okay, have fun. We know you will." Gaten said, and Finn flipped them off, and opened the door for me, and I took the key and opened our room. I went straight into the bathroom to take my contacts out, and I changed into shorts and a cropped shirt, and got into bed. Finn was already laying down.

I put my pillow against the wall and sat my head up, and fidgeted with my hands resting on my stomach.

"Finn?" I asked, and he turned onto his stomach, his elbows up, looking over to me.

"Yeah Millie?" He asked, and I didn't look away from my hands, fidgeting with each other.

"I'm sorry that you got stuck with me, for rooms and in the van and stuff. If I were you I'd be sick of me already." I said, and he set his hand on mine, stopping them from fidgeting.

"Millie, I'm not sick of you. Why would I be sick of you?" He asked.

"I feel like I'm such a bother to everyone." I said, and he shook his head.

"You're not. You've made this trip fun for me." He said, and I looked over to him.

"If you weren't here I'd be stuck with Gaten and Noah and I'd think I'd rather shoot myself." He said, and I laughed.

"I don't really talk that much, but you kinda helped me start talking a lot more." He said, and I smiled.

"Well if we're being honest, I thought Ava was the only one who could calm me down and would help me not get triggered by stuff, but whenever I'm around you, I don't get bad thoughts. The voices don't talk to me that much. You're like a positive orb for me." I said, and we both laughed.

"Well I'm glad I can help." He said, and I smiled.

"I'm glad I can help too." I said, and he smiled.

"Night Mills. Please try to get some sleep." He said, and shifted himself onto his side, and I put my pillow back down on the bed and laid on my side towards him, him doing the same. Both our knees were bent, so they were touching.

I closed my eyes, trying to go to sleep.

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These chapters are getting so boring.

The one good thing that came out of today is that I tried our for my softball team and I made the team!!

Have a good day/night, love you all.