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colby's pov:
wake up bitch!!

i quickly sat up in bed. my body full of sweat and my body shaking. y/ns small frame was still next to me in bed the blankets covering her bare back.

i looked back up and around the room watching as a flashback came back..

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"no colby please." the girls cried. their wrist were up in a rope, a burn mark forming from struggling to get out.

"let us out!!" the other one screamed. i looked at them and laughed twirling a knife around my fingers.

"what's the matter girl? you wanna leave and go hug your mommy?" my voice said in a deep matter. they both nodded quickly looking at each other before i walked over to the blonde one.

"you're my favorite. very loud and ya know.. emotional. i think imma kill you first." i placed the knife to her neck before looking at the other girl, "hey hey, eyes here." i put my finger on her chin making her look as my knife slit the girls throat.

"MARIA!" the other girl screamed as tears ran down her face and she started to twist and turn on the ground.

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i quickly unwrapped the blankets from on top of me and ran to the bathroom sitting by the toliet.

i started to cry and puke, hyperventilating right after from everything. i usually have random burst of sadness from thoughts.

you killed those girls so you should do it again.

"shut up, s-stop." i smacked my head knowing nothing will ever help. he kept talking making my head hit against the wall as tears formed.

"hey hey." i heard before a hand was placed behind my head. i thought y/n would be there when i opened my eyes but i saw her mom crouching in front of me.

i stared at her, my face drained and multiple tears running down my face. "please-"

"mom?" i heard y/ns voice making me want to hug her but i felt too weak. "what's wrong?"

she looked at her being able to see me sitting there in a mess. she stared at me before walking out making me start crying again thinking she doesn't care.

"she getting water. shhh, you're okay." her mom reassured me. i looked down and closed my eyes not wanting any eye contact.

y/n came back with a glass of water sitting in front of me not wanting to scare me anymore than i already was.

"what happened." she quietly said, my eyes watering from remembering. "was it another flashback."

she said it more quieter than before so her mom wouldn't hear over the water faucet going since she was getting a hot rag to put over my head.

i nodded before starting to sob again. she sat down next to me pulling my head into her chest, trying to sooth me.

"here." her mom gave her the rag before she left the bathroom.

"i d-did those girls .. s-so wrong. i did y-you so awful." i spoke, my words getting choked up on. she set the rag on the bathtub after cleaning my face up.

"people change colby, you changed." she kissed my forehead rubbing her thumb against my arm.

"but what i did doesn't."

y/n is the only exception that i choose

"what?" i spoke, y/n knowing it was the stupid voice only to rub my head gently.

when i said "go get your girl" did i mean it? yeah to kill her later.

"no."

yes

"shut up!" i hit my head making y/n grab my hand and hug me tighter.

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