For once, I want to not feel like I'm bad at being a human. It's like everything I do is wrong and all I get is backlash and heads shaking. I want to escape life sometimes and just not disappoint anyone anymore. I need to breathe, but my lungs feel tight and my eyes grow red but they just shrug it off.

Comparison check:

Are you like her? She has two jobs and goes to school.

Are you like him, He just graduated.

Are you like me, I worked hard, put in the effort... and here you are.

Me: ...

Then they shake their heads.

I want to sleep, not because I'm tired, but because at least then I fit into a world where I don't disappoint everyone.

I can't do maths.
I can't speak properly.
I can't spell well.
I can't dress right.
I can't do my own hair.
I can't do anything.

I can't human right it seems.

Maybe I need to be born again so I learn from the start to be a better human. Maybe then someone will smile and not shake their heads.

Pity who?
Pity me?
Never.
Pity is for the fools.

Maybe I'm too lucky, maybe I should just...