Oh I should've loved you sooner,

Sooner so I could have the sun in my arms,

From when I only knew the dark,

Sooner so I had a reason to smile,

When scowls and frowns and tears were my only solace,

I should've loved you sooner,

My days weren't as bright,

Because I never realized

I had the sun in my corner

You are the sunshine I so desperately

needed,

My rationality, when at times I couldn't keep my head

straight.

My brother, I love you so

But I really should have loved you sooner,

I really, really should have loved you sooner,

And some days, I scold myself, because back then

I told myself;

"Never look him in the eyes,

You've wronged him so, and he will cry"

Never would I have thought, my sunshine

That you would throw yourself at me

And weep in my arms, only to say

"You idiot, you pushed me away!"

And then, I only laughed

Not a joyful one, one full of realization

and irony,

As I wipe those tears away from the face of the

Sun,

And I tell him;

"I'm sorry, love"

I should've loved you sooner,

I should've loved you sooner,

I should've loved you sooner,

When my days were nothing but

grief and sorrow,

You had given me your heart to borrow,

And if I had broken it a million times

before,

Let me try repair it once more,

With the love you have yearned for,

The love I should've given you sooner.

[*] This poem is meant to be entirely platonic.