i did it.
the one thing . . . i promised to not do it.
I'm scared, my thoughts are ablaze.
can you calm me?

i did it;
hooking up the threads of libido.
embracing love without protection.
i'm in deep thought — can i trust my guts?

i did it—
feeling the adrenaline rush.
reaching the scarlet fantasy hues;
but the risk reaps the sense of fulfilment?

i did it. . .
scrolled and self-diagnosed myself;
to the sickness that i might have.
they're going to throw me, can you help me?

i think i did it — on that sinful night
i lusted too much, i seek pleasure and mistrust
my mind's hazy, deleted my concerns.
am i going to hell for what i did?