"I told you not to get close to me," I said to my fiancé who looked at me with utter betrayal 

"Em, why would you do this?" asked my fiancé Ethan

I signed and looked down at the knife in my hand and looked at Ethan, "I'm sorry but I have to do this I have no choice," I said

"What do you mean you have no choice Em!" screamed Ethan

I dropped the knife and walked up to Ethan, "Look, Ethan, I'm sorry but this is happening and you have to deal with it," I said with a smiled

I kissed his cheek and left him stood looking broken and betrayed.

On my way out I saw Ethan drop to the floor and he started crying I heard him say, "I don't know what you mean by got no choice Em but I will save you.

I chuckled sadly to myself and through You won't save me I'm doing this to save you.

I made my way quickly to the car because the sound of Ethan's cries was breaking my heart.

Flashback to a few weeks before the betrayal

It was 3 weeks before I got into trouble with a gang but as I knew someone working with the police I managed to let the police know.

But what I didn't realise I would have to leave my at the time fiancé and best friend at the alter and pretend  I was working with the bad guys.

The police told me that they would said me to the gang with a hidden microphone chip that would pick everything up that was said.

When it came time to do the main part of the mission I was dreading it, I really didn't want to leave Ethan at the alter but I had no choice.

The day before I was having doubts and concerns of doing the mission that I went to my friend who worked with the police Ross.

I feel sorry for Ross because I was a mess.

"I can't do this Ross," I cried "I love him too much to hurt him,"

Ross signed and said "Em you know we need to do this so you need to pull yourself together,"

"Your right," I said and wiped my face

"Guess I'm doing this," 

The day of the mission the gang came and caused chaos and I had to put a knife to Ethan's throat.

"Em, what are you doing," asked Ethan

"I'm sorry Ethan, I told you not to get close to me," I said

"You betrayed me," said Ethan

"Ethan believe me I have no choice I have to do this," I said

"I don't care you broke my heart" said Ethan with tears in his eyes

I don't like seeing people I love cry but I couldn't break

I signed and dropped the Knife and went up to Ethan and kissed him.

"Sorry Ethan, I just need to do this," I said with a strait face even through I was screaming on the inside

As I left I saw Ethan collapse to the ground and start crying I turned away and walked quickly to the car waiting for me and got in.

Ross was in the car and said "Well done Em,"

Even through I was happy to get the mission done with I couldn't get the picture of Ethan crying out of my head.

Ross mush of noticed my emotional struggle because he moved next to me and let me rest my head on his shoulder while I cried.

I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life but I didn't care I had just betrayed the one person who I loved the most in the world all because of some gang.

I didn't care if I seem weak to the other offices in the car I just wanted to get the gang members behind bars and off the street.

Just before we got back to Ross's house, he said "Don't worry Em we will get the gang soon and you can go back to Ethan,"

I nodded on Ross's shoulder still silently crying because my heart was broken for breaking Ethan's heart.

You know when I said it was the hardest I even cried in my life well there was two more incidents that week.

The first one was when Ross got a phone call telling him the gang had been caught.

When Ross hung up and told me that and mentioned I could go back to Ethan I hugged Ross and sobbed out of happiness he would never amit it but I could tell Ross was silently crying as well.

The following evening I went to see Ethan at first he didn't want to see me but I pleaded with him to hear me out which he agreed.

As I told Ethan of the plan that had been going on I felt my eyes start to tear up.

I walked up to Ethan and said, "Ethan sorry I did this but I love you will you forgive me," as tears streamed down my cheeks

Ethan signed and hugged me and said, " I love you two, of course I forgive you,"

Those words made me sob in happiness again but this time because of two things.

One reason the gang was behind bars and two Ethan still loved me.

And because of that I was the happiest I ever had been in my life.

Me and Ethan stood in the kitchen for 20 minutes while we both sobbed our hearts out because of the pain of what I had to go through for Ethan and because we loved each other and were happy nothing could keep us apart again.

After we finished crying I looked at Ethan said, "I love you so much," Ethan chuckled wetly and said, "I love you two Em," and then we kissed

Later that year we finally got married and Ethan cried during his speech, I didn't cry and I thought it was because of all the crying I already done but when we went to the hotel I hugged Ethan and cried out of happiest while he held me.

"It's alright Em, I love you," he  whispered 

And I was the really happy

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