By: user30265478

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3 weeks ago
I slide the hijab on my head in a hurry as I ran out the door
My bio Chem exam the only thing on my mind
I practiced, I promise, I studied as hard as I can, but only God knows the end score

My face is flushed, butterflies in my stomach
See this is biochem, one of my hardest courses
The thought that this course might be the reason I would have to give up my dream of entering the health care world brings aches

As I walk out of the subway, I decide to head for payer
Because I did everything I could and now I leave the rest to God
A mother and her daughter are walking in front of me and the mother turns to look at my mesh of clothing layers

She stares directly at the wrapping around my head
And I don't think anymore of it

But her walk quickens and now she's dragging her daughter

See, I know my clothes and face might of looked disheveled but I promise it was because I had just one thing on my mind, my career and my future collided into this test 
And there was no way to get any rest

She and her daughter walk straight into the small building I'm headed towards
The mother holds the door open, gives me a look that makes me shiver and says "watch out hunny, it's dangerous"

Enzymes, and amino acids, what's dangerous? Glutamine and glutamate, what this lady trippin about?

Trypsin and trypsinogen, remember the difference!

Just then, the girl innocently asks her mother "what's dangerous."

And what the mother says next clears any doubts that I've been trying to shave in the back of my mind

"Nothing hunny, I said were meeting with Dan"

She meant me, I was dangerous.

As if the piece of cloth on my head could possibly tell you about my life history, my character, and my personality

As I stand in prayer, all the worries and anger collide and I wonder...

It's too much, just the other day my sister in the UK had her hijab pulled off in front of her kids.

And last week, my sister is Mississauga was walking her kids to school when thugs walked up to her and left her with no teeth
They ripped her of her dignity as her kids stared from beneath

Or who can forget Deah, Yusor, and Razan, the three model citizens whom the neighbor couldn't stand
He took their lives from them though they had so much to live for
And the worst part is they represented the best of Islam

Though all he saw was that head wrap

How did we get here? Letting our poorly formed opinions pull triggers?

No, you can't make me believe, that the One who told us to be just to even those we hate could possible have caused this state

That His Prophet who taught us that failing to feed a kitten could stop you from getting into heaven

Could possibly have wanted all this destruction and hate

No.

If I can go back in time, I would have told the mother that I would never try to hurt her or her baby

How can I possibly when even little critters I try to spare with mercy?

But I finish my prayer and head to the exam hall, one test of patience down, another to go.