Hey, y'all. I'm here to give out a life update for the past month and so.

Marching season is over, and concert season up and running. My winter concert's on Monday, and I'm slightly scared, but not really?

One of our pieces is the Polar Express, and there are some hard rhythms and tempos there.

Anyways, my grades are good. Only one 80 and everything else is above 90.

And I've got a bit of something, to be honest

*sighs*

I've got a slight, slight crush on someone.

I'm gonna be honest, it's not that big. It's not where I'm blushing and uncontrollably stuttering every time I'm near him.

Yes, it's a guy. Growing up straight can take a while for me as a pansexual now. His name is Samuel, or Sam, and he is also a clarinet. Plus, we're basically rivals when it comes to auditions for all region, district, etc after Lucas, my rival in middle school that everyone used to ship me with, quit band in high school.

It really didn't start the first time I met Sam, though. I first met him at a clinic and concert in all-region last year. I got first chair, and I was wondering who got second. All I knew from that time was he went to a different middle school feeding to the same high school from his name tag on the stand.

Whenever I saw the swarm of the people from his school and he sat down next to me, it was the most awkward moment of my life. Since he got first in district but second in region, he was wondering who was the guy or gall that beat him. We didn't even talk to each other until like two hours before the clinic ended?? I can't remember, it was already a year ago.

Anyways, the first meeting was awkward, but we didn't think we'd see each other again in marching band. We don't remember if I saw him at freshman marching camp. Maybe...? My memory was blurry that time. I'm only positive that we were more interactive to each other in full band camp in August.

It really didn't show as soon as I started to make a new friendship with him. It really didn't start until around October, where I sorta got little infatuation on him.

He...

*sighs*

He didn't appear to me because of his looks. Really, it leaned more of his personality. I gotta be honest, he was better than Lucas last year. While Lucas was more quiet during band, Sam's got this outgoing personality that makes me laugh. I sometimes even put him on my Snapchat story! (To anyone, mostly HetaSquad who has my Snapchat, you sometimes see him on my story, more of every month or so). Anyways, he was sometimes not the man every girl wants. Heck, he and his two friends ran three miles to Chick-fil-a and back and was late to rehearsal by, like, ten to twenty minutes!

Honestly, I really like him, both platonically and 1/10 romantically, more of between infatuation and crush. He and I always talk to each other. I sometimes get sad whenever I don't see him for the day, but I hide it. He's probably one of the only guy friends I can rant to so easily without a problem. Really, I got kinda attached to his personality after a month or two near him.

It's not even a crush, seriously. I started my somewhat infatuation with him while he was dating someone at that time, and yet I loved him and his relationship with his girlfriend at the time. She's my friend and still his's too, so they're fine. I remember it was the bus trip back from a football game during my somewhat infatuation. I was one of the only people awake, and Sam was kissing Linzy, his ex-gf who's still friends with, on her forehead. Man, that was the cutest thing I've ever saw, I almost squealed.

If he ever starts dating anyone else, I'm totally fine with it. We're still friends, and that's okay to me. Hopefully, this weird thing in my body fades away won't get worse.

Now, my new FAVORITE youtubers

I shall give you a favorite video of each of my new favorite youtubers in somewhat particular order! Love their friends too, but I love them more

(If you don't like cussing, then these YouTubers aren't for you. Unless you've already seen Markiplier, Jacksepticeye, or Pewdiepie, then you're fine)

Smii7y

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He's a Canadian, and his character is basically... milk. Either a milk carton or a milk bag, really depends. He barely shows his fav out to the public, but sometimes it accidentally happens. He did a "face reveal" video, but it really was him showing videos and pics of him and his actually face. Actually legit.

Honestly, he's the YouTuber who got me into the BBS, or Banana Bus Squad. I was searching for more Cards Against Humanity videos and decided to check his videos out. It took me about two to three months—and still ongoing—to figure out who's voice is who's.

H20 Delirious

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(I swear to god, this thumbnail is straight)

The ONLY—from what I know—YouTuber in the BBS who's never revealed his face ever. Never goes to PAX, e3, etc. It's one of the things he's really popular for. Heck, there's even theories to know what he really looks like.

What I like about him is his laugh. Somewhat like mine's, but even more crazier. It's contagious, like mine's. He also has a close friendship (or even more ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)) to VanossGaming, and I ship them together. Makes a shit ton of angst of that. Read a few fanfics, and some are good shit 👌

His character is a man with clown makeup only on his face, but he also has a mask over his face, as you see on the weird thumbnail on the video. Wears a blue hoodie, and that's kinda it

Daithi de Nogla

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This tall man is Irish, and he's pretty awesome. Yes, he has his raging moments and screaming and cussing nearly every second of his life, but it's great. He's ranked my second fav, to be honest. He also accidentally mispronounces words as time, like the time he said evolution as "evo—LOTION" in one of my  first fav youtuber's video.

His character used to start as Zoidberg, a weird octopus man thing from a show I can't remember, but it died around two years ago. Now, he has himself as his character but sometimes a big head with a mic, and a green shirt that says "PANCAKE STORE"

One of the things I also love about him is the fact that he cusses and screams so much but he has one of the most beautiful voices I've ever heard. Seriously. I was about to cry of how good he sounded

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This was about a year or two ago, but that's one of his two videos that he sings beautifully in.

VanossGaming

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He's the most popular YouTuber in the BBS, with 21 million subscribers. He's a Canadian Asian, too, which kinda makes me feel better that there is also an Asian in there besides white people. He's the next YouTuber I've watched after Smii7y, and his videos are amazing.

His character an owl. Human body with an owl mask. He also likes to make jokes about his character once in a while, ESPECIALLY his hoodini joke.

Mini Ladd

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Mini Ladd is my favorite YouTuber out of everyone in the BBS. I love him with all of my heart and soul. I even love his girlfriend and they're so cute together. I watch more and more of his videos since he has a SHIT ton of Cards Against Humanity videos.

This character is almost just him but in a suit and sunglasses and black hair. He, in real life, sometimes dyes his hair. He once dyed his hair FULL ON PINK, then his ends blue, and now his ends are blond(?). He's also an Englishman living in LA

Also, the video up there is one of my favorites because Marcel, or BasicallyIdoWrk, keeps writing his blank cards as "Unedited Dathidenogla videos" and it's funny as shit.

Anyways, here are more videos if y'all want to watch

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Thank y'all for letting write 1400+ words and 11 videos on this shit.