I hate my mom.

I hate her so much.

Just after my piano lesson, my piano teacher and my mom were talking how marching will get in my way of studying and all.

They got me included and they were like, "Oh, you have to wake up early at 6," and "You have to memorize everything, and it will takes hours." They were basically trying to tell me, "Oh, do more piano for you career because marching band will do nothing in your goddamn life."

So what? I'm actually more better in playing clarinet than piano, and lately my mother's been pushing me to do more piano than clarinet. How?

1. Sight reading in clarinet is much easier than piano

2. Clarinet will be more challenging with fingerings and breathing in specific places

3. I learn music faster in clarinet than in piano

My mom said to my piano teacher and I, "I'm letting her to do marching band for just ninth grade, and that's it."

I was sad about that, and I really wanted to speak up.

Do you know what my mom said next?

"And after marching band, she will be begging to get out of marching band!" AND MY PIANO TEACHER AND MOM LAUGHED.

LAUGHED.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME.

I HAD TO FACE AWAY FROM THEM SO THEY DON'T SEE ME CRY.

I HAD TO TAKE MY PHONE TO THE BATHROOM TO RANT IT ALL HERE.

I AM SO MAD OF THEM BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE I'M NOT GOING TO LIKE MARCHING BAND

I DON'T CARE HOW HARD MARCHING BAND CAN  BE

I DON'T CARE HOW DIFFICULT TO MEMORIZE THE STEPS AND MUSIC CAN BE

I DON'T CARE ABOUT HOW MUCH TIME IT WILL TAKE

I DON'T CARE THAT I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY TO GO TO PRACTICE (BESIDES, ITS ONLY ONE DAY WITH AN EARLY PRACTICE AND WEDNESDAY'S A FREE DAY OF NO PRACTICE BEFORE OR AFTER SCHOOL)

I DON'T CARE THAT IT WILL AFFECT MY CAREER

I WILL PROVE TO THEM THAT MARCHING BAND IS NOT GOING TO TAKE UP MY TIME

I WILL PROVE TO THEM THAT I CAN DO MARCHING BAND EASILY

I WILL PROVE TO THEM HOW HARD I'M WORKING AND HOW DEDICATED TO MARCHING BAND I AM

I WILL PROVE TO THEM THAT I WILL STAY IN MARCHING BAND FOR ALL OF HIGH SCHOOL

I WILL PROVE TO THEM THAT I CAN BE DRUM MAJOR WHEN IN SOPHOMORE, JUNIOR, SENIOR

I WILL PROVE TO THEM THAT MARCHING BAND IS MORE THAN JUST FUN

I WILL PROVE TO THEM THAT THEY ARE WRONG

I WILL PROVE TO THEM THAT I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL IN MARCHING BAND

AND THAT WILL START ON JULY 28

THE FIRST DAY OF MARCHING BAND CAMP BEFORE SCHOOL