Chapter 9
Upon arriving at school Rina heard the gossip that two guys were arrested trying to rob the store. From what she could piece together there were some undercover cops at the store because they had an anonymous tip, and they managed to take the guys into the custody without any problems. "Hm maybe being invisible is not such a bad thing. It might even be possible for me to help out. I just wish I could understand it better or at least learn how to control it. My emotions seem to play a large part but I don't understand why or how." She thought with a sigh. Being preoccupied with her thoughts she wasn't paying attention to where she was going, so she bumped into someone. "Watch it! Loser!" the girl screamed at her as she hurried off to her class without uttering a word. As she sat there listening to the teacher she couldn't help but think about some positive things that her invisibility could bring about if she only learned how to control it. She would be able to not only help people but also to do some things she always dreamed of doing but was too shy to try. Although she was mostly invisible to other people she still couldn't relax when there were many people around her, and she couldn't be her true self.
Scribbling down the notes about what the teacher was saying didn't stop her thoughts from drifting elsewhere. She was always good at multitasking so it wasn't a big problem for her to focus on more than one thing at the same time. Still, she felt a bit guilty of not giving her teacher full attention. No matter how hard she tried to focus on only one thing her thoughts kept getting away from her. "Hm, I could do all those embarrassing things that I thought about doing but was too self-conscious to try, like dancing in public. It might be even possible for me to practice some Latin dances or listen to some Spanish lessons that I never dared try. It always feels suffocating and scary to spend time with people you don't know. Being exposed to so much different energy, different personalities sometimes feels like too much for me to bear. It's like I am too open and in turn, might easily get hurt. The feeling is present even when I am in school but it would be so much worse with a new set of people, in completely new surroundings." She thought to herself. Nevertheless, now that she had this kind of superpower she wanted to try to be her own superhero because no one else seemed willing to help her out. She needed so little to make her happy but the world seemed too busy and big to worry about one girl sitting in the dark craving for someone to love her. Someone to show her that she is important enough that what she does is not insignificant, that she is worth loving. Her family loved her in their own way but what they never managed to do was understand her and support her no matter what. In her mind, she accepted that as a fact and it was okay. But now she had a chance to help herself out, and she thought she owed it to herself to do something to make her gloomy day bright.
After the class was over she started thinking of the ways to help others because she didn't want to be like everyone else, she didn't want to be selfish. She didn't want anyone else to cry themselves to sleep thinking they weren't good enough, that they don't matter. But it was difficult to figure out how to help anyone because everyone needed different things. After thinking about it for a long time (a perk of having no real friends) she decided to take it step by step. She would pay attention to people around her and see what their problems were and then when she turned invisible she would try to help them as much as she could. Even to herself, the plan sounded silly but it was all she got for the time being, so she decided to stick to it. Keeping an eye on what was happening in school was very easy for her because people rarely noticed her and even when they did they didn't seem to care. It was as if she was so unimportant that it didn't matter if she heard their deepest and darkest secrets. Even though other people never offered her help or comfort she wanted them to feel happy. In a strange way, seeing someone else being as happy as they could be made her feel better. The world was sometimes cruel and not very understanding which she felt on her own skin. That only made her even more determined to stop anyone else from feeling that kind of loneliness and despair that came with being unhappy. Her world was draped in darkness, and she started thinking that maybe her new ability was not a curse but a power, a light to guide her on the right path. "I am being ridiculous." she thought as those thoughts overwhelmed her. "Maybe I can be a small light to the souls lost in pain and sadness." She thought wistfully. Suddenly she heard some commotion and on reflex moved towards it.
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