Chapter 23: What Have I Done

I heard the sound of the door being locked.

Why does he bother doing that. It does not even matter now.

My spirits were crushed. I feel like I have lost someone. All my memories I had with him flashed in my head.

The tears started falling and I hugged my pillow and cried.

I Cried to let my sorrow out.

To make my mind a little less heavier

For the brother I thought I had

For taking the foolish decision of following him

I Cried my heart out.

I am alone now. I don't know what to do. What did I even follow him? Why can't I mind my own business? Why am I like this? I don't know what or who to trust.now?

I keot crying for how long I don't know.

"Mam", I heard that women's voice. " I have brought you some food. Please do have them". She said

Why does it matter if I ate or not.

Nobody cares

"Mam".

" Please I don't want anything", I whispered.

" Mam but I insist".

"Please I don't have the strength to talk back",.

" ok Mam", she said. I felt her hand on my head but I didn't say anything. Then she left.

I laod down and cried even more.

I wanted someone to console me. Say to me that all this be okay.

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Seconds passed to minutes , minutes turns to hours but nothing changed.

I couldn't control my emotions. All this crying had made me weak. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. Even when I close my eyes his words came to my mind. I couldn't handle all these emotions. I felt like I am numb inside.

I bet Mom and Dad also does not care about me. My friends don't care about me. Nobody cares about me.

All the worst negatives kept attacking my mind and my mind just Stood there defenseless.

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It was dark in the room. Someone had turned off the light. It was dark outside.

Atlast my tears stopped. I felt nothing. My mind was bland and I kept staring at the moon.

I felt a sense of relief. Maybe due to crying for ao long.

Crying helps to get rid of the negatives in one's mind washing it all out.

His words still hurt but now I hate him for being like this. If he hadn'tdone anything fishy then I wouldn't have followed him. I am glad I saw his true face and now I know that he doesn't even care about it. It will be less painful to destroy him. I will have to report this.
I have decided. I have to get my life back and for that I will play my cards right and get out of here.

I will just have to wait patiently and act smartly so that I may leave this place. They may let be go. I won't even think about this after that. I will go my separate way and will not let anyone affect me.

Now i will have a good night sleep and wake up in a good mood forgetting all about this. I laid down.

--

You only know me as Alex and nothing else.

You know nothing.

You just assumed things.

"Shut up", i mumbled as i kept turning in my bed.

Now don't think that I care about you cause I don't,

"Sahhh ahut up"

Nobody cares

Remember my words

" Just shut up", i yelled as I sat up. I was seating very badly. My heart was beating fast. My hands were cold.

"Mam are you alright".

I quickly snapped my face to the direction were the voice came from.

I saw her face. She was shocked to see my sudden outburst

"Mam are you alright*, she asked

I slowly wiped the sweat off my face with the plan of my hand.

Calm down

Don't think about his stupid words

It will take some time to get over it but I have to try.

Calm down.

The lady was staring at me.

" I am alright", I said slowly

"Are you sure, you looked terrified".

" it's nothing. It's just a bad dream".

" Mam shall I bring you your breakfast. You haven't had anything to eat since last day".

Am I hungry? I don't feel like eating so why would I bother to eat.

" No thanks".

" Mam I insist. It's not good for you to --".

" Well we can keep talking about it and waste both our time and energy or you can stop asking and leave me alone", I said sternly.

She hesitant for a moment but i just stared at her.

She then nodded her nodded and quietly left the rom.

I placed my head on my hands. I feel so angry at myself. I had decided that I will start afresh and won't look back. Then why does his words affect me so bad. Why is his haunting me. Why would a complete stranger's words even bother me.

It shouldn't

I should do something to distract my mind. But what can I do in this cage. There has to something I can do

I wanted to get rid of these emotions out of my system. Staying here with m thing to do is not helping.

It's easier to be depressed and let it swallow you then fight it. So if I lower my spirits and let my emotions take over then I may lose myself. I can't lose myself.

He said that he may let me go. Let's be hopeful and try to get out this place.

There is nothing to do. This silence is unbearable.

The door opened again

" Mam I really think you are not doing well", i heard her voice.

I looked up. it was that lady.

Why did I think it was Alex. Am i hallucinating

" I am fine. It's just I don't know these words.... they are haunting" i mumbled

" Mam I really think you should have something because you have not been eating properly since got here . It may have its side effects".

She is right. Maybe that would help. But I don't want to eat. I don' know that I won't able to eat.

" I can't ", I whispered.

" Mam I will get you a big glass of juice nothing else. It won't hurt to drink that", she said softly giving me a smile.

I don't know but her voice made me fell good inside.

I wanted to smile back but i just stared at her. I can't trust her.

Should I trust her?

She has been nothing but nice to me. Maybe I should trust her.

I nodded.

She poured me a glass and handed me the juice.

I took it from her and gulped it down.

It tastes wonderful. I quickly finished it and asked for more. I greedily drank all the juice.

Now I feel great inside. Maybe having something was the best thing to do to get over the sadness.

" What do you think about eating something", she asked.

" I don't want to. The juice is fine. Thanks I guess".

I can't hear trust her fully but i didn't want to be rude

Does she know something about this place.ayne I should ask her. Ther nothing to lose

" So... Do you know why I am here?"

Her facial expressions slowly changed into seriousness.

" I may know some things but it better you don't", she said darkly.

Her voice

Her voice was sweet but it now was dangerously scary. It gave me bad vibes.
I didn't feel like asking more".

"Ok", I quickly said.

There was a awkward silence now. I couldn't look at her so looked down and I felt her staring at me.

Then her sweet voice was back

" You know what dear. You are a good child. Don't worry you are safe here", I heard her say.

She knows. She. freaking. knows

" So you know--". I paused when I saw who was standing behind her.

She looked back and quickly jumped surprised by his sudden presence.

Am i hallucinating again

I rubbed my eyes and looked again. He was still there with cold face.

"Leave", He said Coldly.

The lady quickly walked away.

I stared at him at him angrily but it was hard as his stare was very scary. I clicked not jaw. His words still hurt but now I feel pure hatred towards him. He treats me like I am nothing.

He closed the door behind and there was silence in the rrom. A scary silence. What is he doing here? What did I do wrong? Is he going to hurt me? My heartbeat rose. He slowly strides towards me.

I wanted to look away but it was also hard to do.

" You have to talk to Mom and Dad now", he said.

Mom and Dad?

That sentence took me by surprise

"What",.

" You have to talk to them and tell them everything is alright okay?".

" But things are not". As soon as those words left my mouth i regretted it. He narrowed his eyes.

" Listen Isabella. You have to talk to them. Let them know everything is great and go along with the lie I told them or..., he trailed.

He didn't have to say it because I knew it was not something to know about

" I will talk to them" , I quickly said.

" Good here", he handed me the phone.
" And one more thing. You should talk with with the speaker on".

I nodded and took the phone. I unmuted the call.

It was an unknown number

"Hello", I spoke hesitantly

" Bella, I thought you wouldn't speak to us ".

" What", I asked confused.

Why would they think that? They don't know I am missing? What lies has he told them?

" Alex told us everything. You were so angry and upset that we left without telling you that you were refusing to talk to us. This so unlike you Bella".

What! They are no even here?

" Where are you", I asked quickly.

" Well we are still here near your grandma".

Grandma?

" Grandma"? , I asked confused.

" She is sick. Now go along with it", I heard him whisperred

She is sick? Why didn't I know about that?

" How is she ? Is she okay?", I asked worriedly.

"She is recovering and soon will be okay darling. Don't you worry. Here Dad wants to speak to you".

"Hello Isa. How is it living with your brother", he asked.

Brother? I felt the sadness eash you over me again

"Hello bella?"

" Yes Dad. It's alright".

How I wish I could tell them what I knew. But I couldn't especially not in front of him.

" Don't worry we will be coming back in a few days".

I don't why I couldn't stop my tears as I started to sob.

" Dad i miss you guys please come fast, I want --" The phone snatched from my hand. I looked up to see him give me a deadly glare.

" Hey Dad, I have to call you back. There is an urgent matter", He said and ended the call.

What have I done?