I hope there's shade in California. When you were a kid, you burned the skin on your shoulders because you were convinced beyond all earthly reason that you could ride into the sun when the horizon was cutting it in half. I hope when you backpedal you find something new each time, and I hope you fall in love with life and not the things you wish you were.

You find glory in whispering. Speaking loudly is not succinct, you tell me; I listen, I listen, I love you. Is that succinct?

There are spaces between my fingers and they are made for you. I want you to revitalize me, recreate me, find me again, pinpoint my anatomy, pinpoint the parts of me that were yours before God thought me up, pinpoint the emotion that is belly deep, that was inside me when I was a child. All the love I have has sprung forth, all the love I have has been waiting for you.

I will follow you anywhere. California is quieter than New York but I'll get used to it; I can be succinct; I swear, I swear, I love you.

A/N: wrote this probably 2 months ago and it's been collecting dust

Not very polished but i like to post most of what i write??? Anyway sometimes I feel kinda romancey but towards no one in particular,, like when i feel sad i write heavy stuff but it's not rlly the whole portrait of me it's kinda just a heavier piece that makes up the whole

Other thoughts: I've gotten better with really connecting with my writing and writing for myself and sometimes i insert little things i know about life in my fanfics and shorts and stuff idk it's just fun to do and i like writin quick things down

I just love the idea that like

You can love someone that much

And it really does feel like John Green said it does, like falling asleep, yknow, slowly, then all at once? Like one day u wake up and ur just like "damn I'm fucked I'm in love with this person they're gonna ruin me i can't wait to die"

I think that the line "there are spaces between my fingers and they are made for you" pretty accurately sums up how a healthy relationship should feel like

That's not always how love feels tho

Sometimes its like

"there are spaces between my fingers because you TOOK A KNIFE AND CARVED THEM INSIDE OF ME YOURSELF"

Loving people gets harder as you learn but i think on the flip side you really truly learn to appreciate what love actually is

Also protip pls don't pretend ur gonna marry your first gf 😅 like @ myself rn i was so bad about that lmao what

Retrospectively I felt literally none of tht for my first gf but yet for some reason i was very intent on tying the knot

Half baked horniness at 14 is not love and does not constitute marriage so please marry when you are older than 14 ty

I am an embarrassment guys

Anyway,

Writing is my kink

i hope this was fun to read for 30 secs have a nice day guys