ever hate yourself so much that you could probably explode into a small supernova and die and you just wouldn't mind as long as you killed some people in the process

my head hurts and my throat hurts and my ears hurt

i hope i explode sometime soon, before school starts

it would be better than this

the waiting

knowing there's nothing I can do

I feel hopeless and in control of nothing

i can't even control when i explode