"Yes I am but I will not be able to walk so you have to carry me daddy" Zayn pouted by giving harry his puppy eyes.

"Of course come" Harry responded with a smile.

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Zayn's pov:

I loved it as everything resolved pleasingly between me and harry. I can be free and open to him. I never thought this grumpy tutor has so soft a heart.

For the past three days, he is only caring about me. It seems like I am a small baby, who doesn't know anything. He is making food for me and doing all the works, not letting me do anything. And most important thing is that he is not raising his voice at me for a second. And he almost forgets about punishment though I don't do any mischievous act now for being punished.

It will be a lie if I say I am not liking it. I am loving it. But still, I love to be dominated by him. I want him to be like before. He has changed a lot.

Suddenly, I felt squeezed on my thigh which made me out of my thought and I looked beside, he is driving the car and I am in the passenger seat, staring at the window. I don't know where we are going, he said it's a surprise and I did insist for thousand times but he didn't tell me, at last, he stopped me by placing the dummy in my mouth. And I am still sucking it.

I stared at him and he smiled at me while focusing on the road. I am scared what if one day he will leave me and he will never want me in his life. What if he will hate me and will go away far from me by leaving me in dark? What if he will hate to see my face? What if his love converts to hate by knowing my past? No, I don't want these days to come and shattered all my happiness. I get my pleasure and happiness on him.

I sit close to him and rested my head on his shoulder. He smiled at me and looked down at me.

"What happened, baby? Are you okay?" He asked and I nodded, took out the dummy from my mouth.

"Will you love me always the way you do?" I suddenly asked in gloomy tune. Not sure what I have asked. But anxiety was killing me.

Harry suddenly ceased the car, which made me gulped. I think I did a mistake by asking this. What if his answer will be no?

Harry looked down at me with a sigh. My eyes were full of tears, trying hard not to roll them out.

"Zayn, look at me," he said as he hold both of my shoulders. I refuse him by shaking my head.

"Look at me. please " he pleaded as he tilted my face up by placing his index to my chin. Water flows started when my eyes met with him.

"Why are you crying, Zayn? " he asked slowly and I looked down, trying hard to cry without making noise.

"Look at me. Look up " he said restlessly and hold my face. Before I could look at him, he pressed his lip against mine. Yes, I wanted it. It relaxed my muscles and I melted on his kiss. I was losing my balance but harry hold my shoulders and kept me in place.

I was panting heavily after our kiss broke. I was staring at his green eyes while he was staring at my golden eyes, and stroking my cheek with his thumb.

"I love you. hmm?" He said with a nod and I nodded back.

"Zayn, I have said this a thousand times. For you, I can say it for your whole life and if you want I can say it in every second of my life. But please never think negative. No matter what I will always love you. I have already told you that. And if you want I can give you the proof by sacrificing my life.... "

Before Harry could complete I pressed my palm to his mouth. I can't even imagine what he was saying.

"Don't.....don't say like that, if anything happens to you, I will die," I said while crying and jumped on his shoulder, broke out in crying on the crook of his neck.

He rubbed my back, to soothe me.

"My baby boy is so emotional. Hmm?" He said while rubbing my back.

"I love you." I sobbed.

I don't know why I am getting so emotional these days. I madly and purely fell in love with him.

.....

After 25 minutes of driving, we reached our destination.

"Where are we?" I asked as I was confused. Harry get out of the car and opened the passenger seat's gate and helped me to get out.

Without replying to my question he only smiled. I didn't complain, I will go wherever he wants to take me without any question. But I was scared what if he got to know about my truth.

But the fear disappeared when we were going to a tattoo shop.

"Hello, Mr. styles. Come, your appointment is now"one blonde boy greeted him and I who have lots of tattoos on his body and some were in his face, I was like a lost puppy there so I hold harry's hand tightly and tried to hide behind him.

We walked into a room, there was a small bed there, and that blonde guy told me to lay down on that.

Firstly I was hesitant to lay there but when harry, put an assured hand on my shoulder, I laid down there.

"So can I start now?" He asked and I got more confused and my anxiety was increasing. Is he going to punish me so badly as I have hidden my past from him? I was sweating and breathing heavily. Tears were rolling from the corner of my eyes. I was scared like hell. Did he get to know that?

Those memories were coming in front of my eyes when that guy was assaulting me with his belt and left me bruised. When I wanted someone to touch me, he left me all alone. He laughed when I was mourning and dying in pain.

I gasped heavily. It seems the blood pounded in my ears. My heart thudded in my chest. And my hands started to shook. My feet tingled. My vision was disfigured as if I were looking through a fish-eye lens. I fisted the bedsheet. Oh God, why I am having a panic attack now?

"What happened, baby? Are you okay? Oh God, why are you crying?" harry worriedly said as he sat beside me, made me sit. I was shaking terribly and hugged myself.

"Zayn, babe talk to me. It's okay. What happened, baby?" " Harry restlessly said as he took my fearful, shaking face on his hand.

I was panting and tried to look up at him but I couldn't as water flow occurring from my eyes.

Without thinking twice, I hugged him, by wrapping my hands around his waist and put my head against his chest. I closed my eyes squeezing shut, not wanted my past to come in front of me.

"Is he okay? Mr.styles" that blonde boy asked at the sudden crying of mine.

"Excuse us please," Harry said and he nodded left the room.

Harry started to rub my back and tried to pull me up but I wanted to be there like this, my safest place so I didn't pull up and hold him more tightly.

"Zayn babe? What happened? Are you okay? " he said as he pulled me closer and leaned his face above my head.

"Please don't leave me. I am a good boy. Forgive me. Please, don't hurt me....please...

"Shush zayn, what are you talking about? I am not gonna do anything like this. What happened to you? " harry asked, this time he force me to broke the hug. I couldn't stop my hiccuping. I was crying by producing sound.

"Zayn, I will never leave you. Why can't you understand that? Why you are behaving like this? I have told you a million times I will not. Don't you believe me?" Harry shouted at me which made me more crying. My heart broke but still, I was sobbing and hiccupping terribly. I can't breathe.

"I am.....i.......i.....am sorreh" words was not coming out from my mouth due to constant hiccups.

"Oh my God, zayn you will be sick dear, please stop your crying" harry got tensed and pleaded worriedly but I couldn't stop though I want to stop it right now.

Harry got worried, he didn't want me to fall in sick, he was restlessly rubbing my back to calm me but it was not working. Then he realized something and put his thumb in my mouth immediately, now my nerve slows down, and I began to calm.

"Shush it's okay it's okay" that's what Harry was saying while rubbing my back, pulled me closer to him. I was hungrily sucking his thumb, like my life depends on it.

After 30 minutes, sucking harry's thumb I was completely calm.

Author's pov

Zayn became calm after sucking harry's thumb almost for 30 minutes.

"Are you okay, now?" Harry asked worriedly as he cupped zayn's cheek and zayn nodded in response.

Harry got worried for Zayn. What happened to him suddenly? He already knows that he is hiding something from him. But suddenly why he got a panic attack? Harry's heartbeat was almost stopped when he saw zayn's crying. He thought zayn was never gonna stop his crying and he had to admit him hospital. But thank God that he is calm now

"Zayn?" Harry asked slowly.

"Hmm?"

"Why did you get scared all of a sudden?" Harry asked worriedly and Zayn looked down, pulled out harry's thumb from his mouth.

"I thought......"

"What did you think?" Harry encouraging him to complete the sentence.

"I thought you were gonna leave me by punishing me," Zayn replied by looking down and weeping silently. Harry's heart twisted by hearing that. How can he make this little boy believe that he will never leave him?

'i shouldn't get mad with him on that day. I think he is in trauma because of that.' Harry thought and blamed himself. He shouldn't stop talking with him on that day, Harry thought and his eyes became teary.

"I am sorry Zayn I know it's my fault," Harry said slowly which made Zayn looked up in disbelief.

"No no you have no fault here. Sometimes I think you don't deserve me. You deserve best " Zayn cried.

"Shush, not at all. You deserve best, not me." Harry said as he started to stroke zayn's shoulder.

"No, you deserve best" Zayn pouted, looking at harry with red puffy eyes. And Harry's heart lightened up now. If teasing makes him cheerful then let him tease more.

"No, you, nobody loves me. On the other hand, you are so talented and you are beautiful" Harry sadly pout.

"Harreh. Don't talk like that" Zayn whined and started hitting Harry's chest.

"Okay okay" Harry laughed and Zayn hugged him by placing his head on Harry's chest

"I love you" Zayn whispered slowly but Harry could hear that. So he responded by saying love you too.

"Harreh? If you were not going to punish me at that time then why he told me to lay here on this bed?" Zayn asked innocently

"Zayn I am never gonna punish you unless you do any kind of mischievous act. And he told you to lay down there, as I wanted you to draw a tattoo for me. Wait a second" Harry said as he unbuttoned some of the upper buttons of his shirt and showed Zayn his heart tattoo which was in his arm. Zayn started biting his bottom lip when his eyes fall to harry's big bicep.

"I wanted us to have a matching tattoo. So I wanted you to have a heart tattoo on your waistline if you say so. If you don't like it's okay" Harry said, hoping Zayn will agree to have a tattoo

"Obviously, daddy I will love it. Thanks a lot for that" Zayn exclaimed as he hugged his daddy by wrapping his arm around his shoulder. Harry smiled weakly when he heard zayn called him daddy. He really loves to hear it.

After a moment the blonde guy appeared and sat beside Zayn and Zayn laid on the bed like a good boy.

He gasped when the boy pulled up his t-shirt and pulled down little his sweatpants.

Harry hold zayn's hand and intertwined his fingers with him.
After a couple of moments, he completed the tattoo and stood up.

"Thanks for that. Zayn let's go home" Harry said and Zayn stood up, follow Harry.

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"I am gonna appear in front of him like that he is never gonna recognize me. " the older man said as he wore the extension on his hair, to make his hair thicker.

He wore a blue lens on his eyes and then he wore a facial mask to change his face.

"Zayn my baby, you are dating a teacher huh? Let's another teacher snatched you from him. You are mine. How dare you run away from me. You are mine and will always be. I wish you could wait for the contract to end. But you didn't. So now you have to be mine forever. I am missing you. I will never let anyone take you from me. If anyone wants to take you from me then he has to die." he mischievously grinned and fixing his tie by looking at the mirror.

"Zayn my baby, I am coming. Today will be fun. Meet you at school"

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Harry woke up from sleep and started to rub his eyes. He placed his hand beside him and felt it was vacant, he was expecting zayn will be there sleeping like a princess. But his eyes widen when he saw zayn was staring at the mirror, pulling up his t-shirt, rubbing his waistline, not waistline that heart tattoo.

Thank God today Harry didn't have to force zayn to woke up for school. It was like a heavy task for Harry to make zayn woke up from sleep.

Harry softly smirked and stood up from the bed. And he wrapped his arm around zayn's waist from behind. Zayn gasped and flinched at the sudden contact of harry's touch, and as he was unaware of harry's presence. He immediately tried to pull down his t-shirt but harry hold his hand and stopped him.

Zayn got embarrassed and he was blushing, his face already got red like a tomato.

"You look beautiful when you blush," Harry said in a morning raspy voice as he was nuzzling zayn's neck which made zayn a little shiver.

Zayn was smelling so good now, he was smelling like a newborn baby with vanilla flavour. Harry wanted to eat him right now. But he stopped as he had to be ready for school.

He kneeled in front of zayn and kissed over the zayn's heart tattoo which was in his waistline and zayn closed his eyes, loved harry's lip on his bare waist.

"Daddy, you are making me hard," Zayn whined.

"Not now baby, after school okay?" Harry winked and gave a last kiss on zayn's waist and stood up.

"Okay" Zayn smile widely as he wrapped his arm around harry's neck. Harry pulled zayn closer to him by wrapping his hand around zayn's waist and pressed his lips against the younger boy.

I am so sorry for the late update of this book. I almost forgot about this book. I didn't get any kind of motivation to continue this book. Btw thanks to zarry_sterling and itsishika for encouraging me to continue this book.