"Good night sweetheart" I whispered.

Zayn's pov:

I woke up with worst headache and back pain, feeling nausea. My whole body was aching like someone stabbed me hundred times. I rubbed my eyes and yawned. My eyes widen with shocked when I saw Harry's body bedside me, I was in his chest. There were no clothes on him, and me as well.

I immediately sat up and then I found I was naked. I was scared and gulping continuously. No no I can't do that. I couldn't remember anything of last night. What we did last night?

"Harreh Harreh" I shouted which made Harry's eyes fluttered.

"What happened?" He asked in his rasping voice and sat beside me, acting like nothing has happened. And he was rubbing his eyes.

I got furious and I instantly slapped him harshly in his cheek.

"You, curly bastard, fucker. You raped me. I knew that , you are not good and I knew that how much low character man you are"

I could see Harry clenched his jaw and looked at me with his green cold eyes full of rage. I got scared and gulped by seeing him but I was angry at him most.

"Will you be shut up? And you have to pay for this slap and for your dirty mouth, kid" Harry said by gritting his teeth.

I stood up and started to dressed myself.

"I .. I am going to tell everyone that you raped me. And then you will be finished. You will be in jail " I shouted and I was about to leave the room but then he yanked me by grabbing my arm and threw me in the bed.

"What are you doing? Are you going to do that again? Huh? What can I expect from you?" I shouted.

He immediately towered me,made me fall back to the bed and pressed his palm to my face, made me gagged.

"Shut up. Okay?" he said sternly, looking at my eyes. I was blinking and trying to look in his rage green eyes.

I was patting his hand in order to remove his hand from my mouth. Muffling sound was producing from me.

He put out a handkerchief from nightstand, tied that over my mouth and made me gagged. Then he cuffed my hand from my back.

"You will not talk anymore. You have talked enough. And now I will say and you will listen" Harry growled.

He made me sat and then he dressed himself. I was struggling to free.

"Okay, so first of all. I didn't rape you. You were the one who wanted to do that with me. I had forbidden you for that but you didn't listen me. And Second one is that you were in drunk. And because of that you will get punishment. After punishment I will permit you to talk." Harry said sternly and walked out of his room, leaving me there.

I was continuously struggling to free. But I was failed.

My eyes widen when I saw Harry came with cane in his hand. I gulped and fears started to creeping in my cheeks.

"You will getting punishment baby boy" harry said by gritting his teeth. He come towards me and took me in his lap. Then he pulled down my sweatpant along boxer.

"You will get 10 spank hardly with this" he said. I was squirming in his lap, and struggling for free.

SPANK.

He gave me a hard smack, which made my ass burned instantly.

SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK SPANK.

He gave 5 spank continuously without stopping. I began to cry and whimpering.

"Will you ever be drunk again. Huh?"

SPANK.

"Will you ever dare to slap me again huh?"

SPANK.

"Will you use that curse word again?huh?"

SPANK SPANK SPANK.

He gave rest of them without stopping and then he made me sat. And untied my hand and removed that clothes from my mouth.

I hitched when my bare ass touched the mattress.

"Oi, curly give me those pillows. I can't even sit" I said annoyingly. He huffed and gave me two pillows.

"So ....."

"You raped me. And still you are not regretting for it. On the contrary you are punishing me? You are so bad and cruel. " I said as I began to cry and shaking.

"Okay wait." He said and took the phone from the table.

"Watch it'' He said as he threw his phone in my lap.

I turned on his phone and my eyes widen with shocked when I saw that video, our sex video of last night where I was craving for sex and the way Harry was resisting and kept interrupting me, moving away from me was really noticeable.

I stood up from there, shocked.

"No no I can't do that. How can I do that? No" I said as I shook my head and rubbed my hair.

"Yes, you wanted to do that.".

"No harry. Me? I love Jed. " I cried and I about to fall but at that moment Harry caught me in his arm. I was completely broken. Flashback of last night was coming back in my mind. Not the moment with Harry's one but the moments when Jed cheated me.

I fisted his shirt and I began to cry in his chest. He made me sat , and rubbed my back.

"Okay it's okay. You can share anything with me. I am here for you." He said while rubbing my arm.

"Actually.... actually. Jed he..." I couldn't complete my words because of my hiccuping. Ugh I hate that. As soon as I began to cry, my hiccuping always get started. My bottom lips were continuously quivering which was making me more difficult to talk.

"Okay first calm down. Then tell me. But I had warned you before ,that he is not a guy for you Zayn. You deserve best. And he never loved you." He said while pulling me close.

"He cheated on me. He cheated me and took Alice. He cheated me for Alice. Bu......but trust me. My love for him was pure and I had truly loved him. But he..."I couldn't complete and I began to cry.

"Zayn, look ,look at me. "He said by pulling me out from his chest and cupped my face in his hand. My eyes were red puffy because of crying.

"Zayn, listen. You shouldn't waste your tears for that cheater. I already told you once that the way he treat you that is not called love. He had always left you whenever you needed him most. So you should listen to me and forget him." He said worriedly. I can see how much tensed and worried he was. He eyes were getting soft on me. Those cold green eyes were no more cold.

"Hmm. Harreh I...I need some alone time. Can you please leave me alone for sometimes?" I said quietly and sniffled. I wanted to be in his arm more but I need some space time for me. I don't why I always feel comfortable in his arm though he always punish me. I think there is something on this curly which made me fall towards him.

"Nope. I am not. What if you do something horrible, without knowing. I know how much immature you are" he said and crossed his arms around his chest.

"What I will do? I am not going to do anything. What are you talking about?"I asked confusingly.

"What if you try to harm yourself then..." He said which made me giggle.

"Harreh.... you are unbelievable. I am not going to do anything like that" I laughed. Sometimes I think he is more foolish than me. Wait, I am not foolish. I am smart and thousand times smarter than him.

"Whatever. I am not going"

"Please Harreh. I just need some time for me. Please" I pleaded . I don't know why I love his protectiveness towards me.

he sighed.

"Okay. I am going but promise me you are not going to...

"Nope I will not. I promise" I said and gave him a force smile, he nodded and walked out of the room.

As soon as Harry left the room,I broke out in crying and tears again started to roll down from my eyes. I didn't want to cry in front of Harry.

I never thought Jed will cheated me. I was in delusions. How can I be? If he never loved me, then why he said me that he loved me, why he first came to me and proposed me? I laid in the bed by kept my head over the pillow. And I was crying like mess. I was digging my face to that soft pillow and crying.

Why all of these things happen to me? I used to think that if I would get my love then I will be able to forget my terrific past. But no I didn't get my love. I am like a pathetic right now who is crying for a cheater. Yes, I am pathetic.

I was trying my best not to cry loudly. I don't want my crying sound go out of this room. I closed my eyes and started erasing all of these memories of Jed with me. I swallowed my thick saliva. That pillow became wet because of crying. I let out a sniff loudly and started to breath heavily. The pillow where I was crying became dark, wet patches in tears.

After some moments of my crying I sighed and sat up. My eyes was swollen and red. My hair were messy and I was looking completely broken.

I was about to stood up but at that moment something caught my eyes. I saw a dairy under that pillow. I took it up which was under the pillow.

I flipped the page and my eyes widen with shocked.

"WHAT?"

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Hello. I know it is a little bit short chapter. Forgive me for that.

You know guys I just realized something that I am not good in writing. So sorry if you ever get any mistake in my books. But I always try to make story realistic where I always fail😔. Should I continue my writing or should I stop?