Forgive me.24
I walked to my desk and took my seat. I began to do all of the maths attentively. I know these maths are difficult. But I have to do to impress Harry.
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The sound of alarm made him wake up from his sleep. His head was aching and it was throbbing tremendously. His whole body was in pain. He didn't know where he was and he was not able to move a bit.
He opened his eyes and found his head resting at the desk and he was in a chair. He didn't know when he slept while doing homework.
His eyes were heavy, red and his face was hurting more than last night. He didn't want to go to school today. His body temperature was increasing, it seems he got a fever.
He thought it will better if he took an off today but then Harry came to his mind and he stood up from his chair. He has to go to school to impress Harry and he completed his homework.
He checked his phone to see if Harry replied or call him back. But he did nothing which made zayn's heart sank into tears.
He sighed and rushed to the bathroom, did his business and walked to the basin. He turned on the faucet and washed his face. It hurts when cold water touched his face. He couldn't even touch that swollen face. It's too much pain.
But he had to cover it. So he did little makeup to cover those scars but he couldn't fully cover the place.
His eyes were heavy, and his body was not moving. It seems like he was walking by placing a brick on his feet. He knows well that he is going to be late today, and the first-class was of Harry.
He somehow reached the school and tried to run to his class. He was breathing heavily when he reached the class. He was standing at the edge of the door and saw Harry already started his lecture. He cursed himself for being late.
"May I come in sir?"Zayn said slowly but Harry didn't listen. He was in his work.
"May I..." Zayn couldn't complete as Harry nodded, motioned him to come.
Zayn felt bad as he didn't say anything to him for being late.
He slowly walked to his seat and took his seat.
"So students, I want to check your homework. I thought all of you have done, correctly. " harry said without looking at zayn who was sitting there gloomy.
"Mr.styles I have done my homework. Do you want to see?" Zayn said with a smile and was about to pull out his copy from his bag.
"Wow, today you did? Seriously. Proud of you zayn" Louis said with a smile as he patted zayn's back. Zayn nodded with a smile in response.
"I will not check homework today," Harry said and took his seat, flipping some pages, without looking at anybody.
Zayn froze, and he didn't pull out his copy. His eyes became teary but he holds them back.
He looked at harry. Harry's jaw was clenched and he didn't look at the teary younger boy who was dying for his attention.
Louis rubbed zayn's shoulder. He felt bad for his friend. He did homework for the first time, and on that, he got disappointed.
Zayn nodded with a fake smile. His heart cried and he was struggling not to cry in front of his whole class.
After the period, Harry went out of the classroom and came back with a huge container.
"So students, there are some gifts for you to attend class regularly. I am giving this personally to encourage you for your study. I will call you by your name. You will take it from me one by one" harry announced which made zayn's face lit up. He can't wait for Harry to call him.
"Louis, " he called and he went towards him. Harry called everyone in this class. Zayn was waiting for his name every time his heart broke when harry didn't utter his name, But still, he was hoping harry will call him.
Zayn eyes widen when he noticed Harry sat back on his chair without giving zayn his present. Zayn looked down and tears were rolling from his eyes. He didn't want anyone to notice it. But Louis knew how much zayn was hurt.
"Mr.styles you didn't give zayn his present," Louis said as he stood up.
"Sorry, it finished." Mr.styles said without breaking his eyes from the paper. Zayn wanted to cry more, but he stopped himself by biting his bottom lip. He gulped his thick slobber which was because of crying. He knew he did wrong with Harry and he was sorry for it.
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"Zayn are you okay?" Louis said as he sat beside zayn. Zayn was sitting under a tree of his schoolyard, crying. He instantly wiped his tears when he noticed Louis sat beside him.
"Yeah, I am" zayn nodded.
"You didn't come to the cafeteria? Don't you want to take lunch?" Louis asked worriedly.
"No, I am not hungry." He replied.
"Why are you crying? Because of Mr.styles...." Louis couldn't complete as zayn hugged him tightly, broke out on his shoulder.
"Looueh..... Yes, it's my fault. He is not talking with me. I shouldn't do that. I shouldn't......I.....I didn't know it will turn up like this. I was confused.....on that...that time." Zayn said between his sob and he was hiccupping. Louis couldn't say anything so he holds his friend tightly and rubbing his back.
"Shush...don't cry zayn. I know you did wrong. But you shouldn't give up. Harry loves you. Doesn't he? So you should go and seek your forgiveness."Louis said while tried to calm his best friend.
"No, nothing will happen. He hates me" Zayn sobbed as he broke the hug.
"Zayn he does. He still loves you. You shouldn't give up. You are strong right?" Louis said as he cupped zayn's cheek. But at that moment Zayn hissed in pain and he squealed.
"Are you okay? Zayn you are burning" Louis said worriedly as he placed his hand on zayn's forehead.
"Yeah yeah, Louis I am fine."Zayn lied. He was not well, his head was throbbing.
" no zayn. You should go to medical right now." Louis said as he stood up and tugged zayn's hand.
"No, I am fine. Please Louis I don't want to go there. Please sit with me."Zayn pleaded. Louis couldn't reject him and sat beside him.
" Okay so tell me what's your plan?" Louis asked.
"Umm...I don't know. But I can't live like this. I want Harry to talk with me." Zayn said weekly.
"Okay then go and ask forgiveness from him. He is now in his room. Go." Louis said and Zayn smiled.
"Okay, Louis thanks. "Zayn said and stood up.
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He walked to Harry's room where he was. He peeked to the door and he noticed Harry was checking papers. Maybe some important papers. There was a glass of water in front of him with a jug. Water helps him to cool down so he often consumes water.
Zayn couldn't stop staring at the older boy who was looking so much handsome in his black suit.
He took a sigh before entering the room.
"Harreh" Zayn called by standing near the door, fiddling with the sleeve of his hoodie.
Harry's jaw clenched as soon he heard zayn's voice. He didn't look at him, he was in his work.
Zayn gulped and walked to the room. He didn't know he did right or not.
"Harreh I am sorry. Please talk to me "Zayn said with teary eyes but Harry didn't look at him.
" Harreh please." Zayn pleaded, this time he holds his hand. Harry spattered his hand away from zayn.
"Harreh I beg you. Please harreh. I am sorry. I know I shouldn't do that. At least talk with me. Please" Zayn couldn't control his tears and this time tears started to roll from his eyes.
Harry couldn't see him crying so he thought it is better if he goes away from him. He stood up and at that moment zayn hugged him tightly by wrapping his arm around him, clenched his head on harry's chest.
"Please harreh. Don't go. Please, harreh... Please." Zayn begged as he was sobbing in harry's chest, digging his head more in harry's chest.
"Zayn go away from here. " Harry said sternly without looking at the trembling boy.
"Please no. No no, I will not until you talk to me." Zayn screamed as he clenching his head on harry's broad chest.
Harry clenched his jaw and gripped zayn's arms tightly and untangle them.
Zayn looked up at him with teary eyes but harry didn't look down at him. Harry was fixing the paper quickly to leave this room.
"Harrah no, please. Listen to me." Zayn begged, crying and he was tried to stop harry. But at that time Zayn accidentally bumps into the glass and the water in the glass falls on all Harry's necessary papers. Harry's eyes widen in anger and disbelief. Zayn got panicked and scared. He tried to make harry delighted but it turned opposite.
"What the hell did you do, zayn? I had to complete the mark sheet today and I had to submit it tomorrow to the principal. You ruined it. It took too much time to prepared." Harry yelled at zayn which made zayn flinched. Harry took all the wet paper, tried to fix it. But it was impossible.
"I am...I am..sorry, Harreh. I didn't mean to... " Zayn said crying out, couldn't complete as harry gave zayn a strong glare. Harry clenched his jaw and left the room by leaving zayn.
Zayn broke after harry leaving the room. He began to cry loudly, didn't bother to slow down. He was not caring for people to hear. He only wanted to cry to make himself better.
Zayn was in grim in all of the class. He couldn't concentrate on the lectures, even he didn't take his lunch. Louis insisted zayn eat something but he didn't. He lost his appetite.
After school is over, zayn saw harry was walking out of the class. He ran to him and hold his hand.
"Harreh. I am sorry. Please" Zayn pleaded, last word came as whispers. as tears started to roll down his cheek.
Harry didn't even look at him, he yanked his hand back from zayn and continued his walk. Zayn became frustrated and started to weeping slowly.
"Zayn" Louis called him from behind. Zayn looked back, turned around with tearful eyes. Louis's heart twisted by seeing his best friend broken.
"Zayn, don't worry. He will definitely talk with you. If you want I can talk with him......
" no no Louis don't please. I want to mend this own my own" Zayn pleaded by cutting Louis off.
"Okay. I won't. But zayn you have to be strong. You can't be broken like this."
"I know Louis. I can't help myself." Zayn said by looking down, his voice cracked because of crying.
"Zayn look at me. Look " Louis said as he tilted zayn's face up. And zayn looks at him with teary eyes.
Louis wiped his tears from his cheek.
"Zayn. Be strong. You can do it. Harry still loves you. He can't live by not talking with you."
"Thanks. I know he can't." Zayn said quietly, and Louis smiles at him softly.
.......
Zayn knows that whatever it is, Harry will come to teach Zayn tonight. He will definitely come to tutor him.
He was sitting on the couch, tapping his legs impatiently. There was raining outside, heavily, still, zayn thinks he will come. Because he always came in any kind of weather. This minor rain doesn't interrupt him to walk.
Zayn was not feeling good. He was sick to his stomach. He was feeling nausea. He looked at the clock and saw it was 8.05 pm. Five minutes passed, but Harry didn't come which made zayn on the verge of crying. His eyes were red swollen because of crying all day and due to fever. His cheeks were full of tearstained. Harry didn't even glance at him in school today. He never thought that Harry wouldn't talk to him, it would affect him so much.
Then the incident of that day came to his mind. He couldn't forget how he forbid harry not to come again which was making him more cry.
"You are not my private tutor anymore. I am done with you. I will tell my mom to hire a new tutor for me."
Zayn began to cry. He couldn't resist crying. When he caught it it was 8.10 pm. He couldn't stop himself and he thought he should go to Harry's home.
He was not feeling well, as his temperature was increasing. And due to rain, the weather became freezing.
Zayn wore an oversized soft hoodie to make himself warm. He took an umbrella and headed to harry's home. He gulped before going out on this night, raining thunderstorms.
But he didn't let his fears win. He took a deep breath and led the way to harry's home.
He sighed in relief when he reached harry's home. He drenched fully though he had an umbrella. He was shivering due to the cold.
He pressed the doorbell with his tremble hand. After giving two-time press, Harry opened the door. He was in a white shirt and sweatpants.
His eyes widen by seeing zayn there. His heart cried by seeing zayn like this. His eyes were red and he was shivering. He let go of his thought and was about to close the door in front of him. But zayn holds it.
"Harrah, please. Forgive me. Let me in please." Zayn pleaded in a shiver.
Harry sighed and walked away from the door. He also didn't want Zayn to be out on this frozen night. The rain was heavy and there were thunderstorms. So he didn't feel safe letting Zayn go out. But he was surprised how zayn came here in this weather and in night.
Zayn went inside the house. It was a little warm. He put his umbrella on the stand and slowly walked to harry.
"Harreh. I am sorry, please. Hear me. Talk to me, please." Zayn pleaded from harry's behind. Harry began to walk at that moment zayn ran towards him and kneeled in front of him, hugged the older boy's leg, began to cry.
"Harreh please forgive me. I am sorry. Punish me, beat me. Do whatever you want to do with me but please talk to me. I know I am a very bad boy. Teach me, Harreh. Slap me, kill me. But talk with me, please. I was confused at that time, I didn't...I didn't know what I was doing. I am sorry Harreh. Please talk to me." Zayn said in between in his sob.
Harry's heart broke and cried by seeing zayn like that, broken. He didn't want zayn to be so weak. But he can't forget what he has said to me. Zayn was shaking by holding harry's feet which made harry weaker.
He gulped his thick saliva and unwrapped zayn's arm from his feet and continue his walk.
"Harrah please. Don't go. I will die. Please, Harry. Why are you doing this? Why are you not punishing me? Why are you not scolding me? Harry, please do. I need that. But please talk to me. Harry, please do whatever you want to do but don't go." Zayn cried as he laid on the cold floor. He began to sob loudly.
Harry couldn't take it anymore when he heard zayn's sob turned into choked sobbing. He looked back and his heart twisted by seeing that sobbing, shaking boy on the floor. He was worried what if zayn will be seriously sick because of so much crying. His face was pale and he was crying by covering his face on the floor. He regretted now for not talking with his baby.
His heart melts and he ran towards zayn. And gave a consoling hand on zayn's shoulder. Zayn instantly flinched and looked up at Harry with teary eyes, his thick eyelashes were glued on tears. His eyes lightened up when he saw harry. He was hiccupping and sobbing tremendously.
Harry kneeled and hold zayn on his chest by wrapping his arm around the petite body of Zayn.
"I am sorry, Harry. Forgive me, please. I am....so..." Zayn couldn't complete it because of sobbing. He fisted harry's shirt and began to cry.
"Shush. Don't cry. It's okay. I am sorry. I shouldn't be too rude. Forgive me." Harry said in teary eyes as he rubbed zayn's back to make him calm.
Zayn looked up at him with tremble lips now he jumped at him, hugged him on his shoulder by wrapping his arm around the older boy's neck, whimpering loudly.
Harry didn't mind the tight hug, even he clenched his baby more tightly on him.
"Thank you, Harrah. Thanks a lot." Zayn said in between his sob, on harry's shoulder.
Harry kissed Zayn's side to calm him
"It's okay. I love you." Harry whispered. Zayn broke the hug, he was suffocating because of constant crying. And he was passing out on the need of air. He wanted something on his mouth to stop himself from whimpering.
Harry cupped zayn's cheek and he squealed. His jaw clenched when he thought about what Jed did to zayn. He kissed zayn's sore cheek and zayn closed his eyes. Harry wiped his tears from zayn's tear-stained cheek.
Zayn needed something in his mouth so he took harry's large hand on his trembling little hand and put harry's thumb on his mouth, sucking it to make himself quiet. He leaned to harry's chest and rest his head on it, sucking harry's thumb passionately.
Harry smiled softly and ruffled zayn's soft hair. He carried zayn in his arm. It was difficult for him to carry him in bridal style when his other hand, the thumb was in zayn's mouth. But he didn't want to make zayn uncomfortable. Zayn was looking fragile on his arm, he will be break if harry will give a little pressure. he somehow walked to his room and placed the younger boy in his king-sized bed.
He laid beside him, adoring the way zayn was sucking his thumb. He stroked zayn's hair and he got shocked when he found zayn's forehead was burning.
"Zayn you are burning. Oh, God. I need to do something" Harry said worriedly but zayn didn't move a bit. He was sucking his thumb, not taking a name to stop. He pleaded to Harry through his Bambi's eyes.
Harry couldn't free himself away from zayn, so he thought it will be better if he stays here with zayn right now. He softly smiled and laid beside him.
Zayn moved towards Harry, placed his head on harry's chest, sucking harry's thumb, and closed his eyes.
Wooh at last. I completed this chapter. I didn't know how to write it and to complete this chapter. But at last, I did. I am so much happy. Please don't forget to give votes and comments. Your comment means inspiration for me to write more. So give comments as much as you love.❤
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