I flipped the page and my eyes widen with shocked.

"WHAT?"

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Harry's pov:

I never thought Zayn will took me as a rapist. I thought he had some feelings for me. I think he had some special and eminent feelings for me. But I was wrong and I was living in delusions. It really broke my heart when he claimed me as rapist . I think I should forget all of these love feelings for him. Does these feeling have any meaning?No, I think I should let my feelings go.

I sighed and making breakfast for Zayn. He must be tired as he had gone through a lot. I am sure he is crying right now. Sometimes I think he is so dumb and foolish where the truth is he is too much innocent.

Abruptly my phone rang, I whipped out my phone from my back pocket, Louis called .

"Hi Louis."I said, pressed the phone between my arm and ear as I was cooking.

"Hello,sir. Thanks for finding Zayn. Last night I was too much worried for him. Thanks for handling him"

"Don't worry, Louis. I am here for him. And I am glad you chose to inform me when Zayn was missing"

"Thanks. How is Zayn now? And what happened to him last night? Is he okay?" Louis asked worriedly. He was unaware of everything.

"Umm it is all because of his boyfriend Jed. He cheated on him" I said angrily, I will never forgive Jed for this.

"What? I knew it. I hate Jed. I told Zayn that the boy was not good for him, I warned him a lot but he did not listen to me. Zayn never try to understand anything. Ugh" Louis's voice was full of angry and disappointment.

"Yes, Louis you are right. I hate that guy too. But Zayn he is too much stubborn." I huffed.

"Yes he is. but you know No matter how immature Zayn is, in fact he is so much innocent and sterling. You know that right?"

"Obviously I know he has a pure soul and heart. You don't need to worry about it. I will take care him perfectly." I said with a smile. Yes zayn is too much childish.

"Okay bu...... forget it. Bye"

"What? What happened? Tell me Louis." I asked worriedly.

"Umm no..nothing. forget it."

"Are you hiding something from me?" I asked confusingly

"No no. What I will? Bye sir"

"Buuu..." I couldn't complete Louis hang up the phone. He was talking as if he was hiding something from me. Is he hiding something from me? I am sure Louis knows a secret of Zayn that I am oblivious of.

Okay forget it, I smiled and completed making breakfast for Zayn and me. I don't think I should keep him alone for too long, what if he do something senselessly. So I quickly ran towards my room where Zayn was. I pressed the door handle for opening the door, then I noticed it was lock from inside which made me scared. I started feeling restless for him.

"Zayn. Open the door" I shouted and knocked the door. No sounds were coming from inside which made my heart twisted.

"Zayn are you there? Open the door. Open the door please" I shouted, still no response. My anxiety began to increase, I can't be quiet now.

"Zayn, I am going to break down the door if you don't open it now. Please open the door" I said loudly, banging the door, this time I can't wait. I am sure Zayn did something to hurt himself. After all he is too much immature.

I was about to break the door and that time Zayn opened the door. My eyes widen with joy and relief, I smiled at him. I could see that how much he cried by seeing his red puffy eyes. And tears stained was in his red rossy cheeks. My baby

"Zayn" I smiled, and engulfed him in my hug.

"Thank God, you are safe"I mumbled in his shoulder.

"Harreh.. you always teased me by saying me that I am impatient where you are thousand times more than me. I was in washroom and I know what you were thinking" Zayn teased, which made me felt embarrassed. But I don't care about my embarrassment right now. I am just glad that he is safe.

"Hmm but you are more. I can't lose you, Zayn" I said,broke the hug.

"Why you can't lose me? Aren't our relationship is only teacher, student relationship?" Zayn asked by raising his eye brows, staring at me confusingly. It looks like he owes a answer from me.

I got confused in his sudden question. What he is trying to say?

"Zayn..yes I can't see any harm to my student. Can I? Okay forget it. Tell me how are you feeling?" I was confused so I tried to change the topic.

"Feeling good. "

"That's like my boy. Come quickly. I have made special breakfast for you" he immediately scrunched his face

"Noo I don't want to eat those broccoli again. Yuck" he pouted. He is too much adorable. I can remember how I made him eat broccoli last time.

"No no not at all. I am not going to feed you broccoli again. I made chicken wings and yummy tacos. Come downstairs quickly".

His face lightened up by hearing that, which made my heart fill with joy. I want to see my baby's smile always. Wait. Why I am continuously calling him my baby? I can't because I know he has no feelings for me. And our relationship is bounded in teacher student relationship.

"Wow thanks a lot, Harreh. You know how much I love chicken. "Zayn exclaimed and hug me.

"Okay now come quickly. Those are getting cold" I said with smile , pulled out Zayn from hug and crouched a bit to poke Zayn's nose with my index.

"you go first I am coming" he said by looking up at me

"Are you okay?" I asked worriedly as his face became gloomy again. I cupped his cheek, stroking his cheek with my thumb.

"Yup. You go" he nodded and assured me with a smile

I smiled and left the room.

Zayn's pov:

Flashback:

I know I am crazy or more than that who had fall in love with his own student. Am I sound like dumb?or I am dumb.

His beauty is making me crazy. His Golden hazel big eyes are so irresistible. His raven hair and his illuminated, sharp cheekbones are so beautiful. I am sure I will never find this type of rare beauty in this whole world.

His smile is the best thing for my life. If anyone asked me what I want for my life, I will clearly say that his smile. His smile is beyond price for me. I can live rest of my life by seeing his smile. And his pouted lips. Oh god they are most cute thing in my life

Actually I fall in love when I first met him.I know our first meeting was very strange. And I know he is too much immature and mischievous but he is too much innocent and he has a pure heart. He is too much innocent that he even don't know that his own boyfriend is betraying him. He is always so childish and I really love that. He is a rare and amazing kid which I have ever seen.

Yes, sometimes I need to give him punishment because of his mischievous act. Sometimes he seriously get in my nerves. He really needs to learn some manner But I love his immature act. I love him And I will always care and support him. I will be in his side always. I will be with him for the rest of my life. I know he has no feeling for me. Or he has? I am not sure. My love for him is enough for me. I just wish if I could ever confess that feelings to him. But I can't. So I started to writing all of these in my diary which give me relief and pleasure. At least I can express my feeling in this dairy.

I love him and I will always do

My Zayn.

Tears started to roll from my eyes while reading his diary. I can't read it anymore so I closed the diary. I felt like I had no strength in my legs. I was shocked, I can't believe that Harry loves me? How can he do that?

Who said Harry's love is not love? Actually I am the one who did not know what love is. This is the true love that he does. He has always care me,want to make me a perfect guy. He saved me when those itching powder fell on me where I wanted to trap him into this. He saved me that day from Nick. He was there with me when no one was with me. He consoled me with love. I can see genuine smile in his face whenever he looks at me. He had always help me whenever I need him. In fact he helped me to remove those scars from my face in order to impress Jed. He helped me because I was happy with that. Everyone will call me a liar if I say his love is not love.

Harry is a liar. Hiding the truth is also symbol of lying. I fall to my knees and began to cry. Oh why all of these happens to me? I can't love him can I? Why I am so mean? I love Jed. How can I remove all of these memories with him. How? This is very much difficult for me. But I can swear that we don't have much sweet memories together. I know he had never love me. But I loved him .

I broke out in crying and I was shaking tremendously. I can't love harry, I can't. On the other hand I can't broke Harry's heart.

Sudden knock of sound , brought me in reality. I am sure,Harry is in the door and he is becoming anxious for me. He is really too much. An overprotective angry bird. I giggled in my thought unknowingly.

I quickly wiped my tears and put that dairy quickly on that place where it was before. I know I am looking mess right now. Fuck to my beauty. I don't deserve anything. Tears again started to form in my eyes again. I was trying my hard to hold them back. And I was breathing heavily where Harry was banging the door violently. Ugh doesn't he have any patience?

I sighed and walked to the door. I don't know how to face him. But I was hoping for the best

*End of flashback*

Tears were continuously rolling from my eyes. I can't live like this way. I know Harry will definitely hate me if he get to know about my past. He will leave me. I never felt that way when I was with jed. I shouldn't deserve to live. I can't love Harry what if my past come back again? How Harry's reaction will be? He will leave me like Jed did. My parents will also hate me, if they got to know about my past. Only Louis had aware of my past. I don't know what is happening to me. I don't want to live. I am so pathetic. Nobody loves me

Suddenly something caught my eyes. He had some sleeping pills on the nightstand. It is better for me to give up my life. I can't live by keeping all of these burden in my heart.

I gulped and swallowed my thick saliva and walked to the nightstand. I took the bottle of pill with my shaky hand, from the nightstand and opened the cap of it. I took handful of pills in my hand. When I was about to take it, I felt someone caught my wrist.

My eyes widen and I turned my face to see. Then I saw Harry

"Zayn. Are you crazy? Leave it. " He said angrily and snatched the bottle from my hand and he was gesturing his right hand to took that pills from me though I was fisting on it.

"Zayn give me those back. Zayn" he shouted.

I angrily cast all of these in the floor.

"WHAT HAPPENED. WHY DO YOU CARE WHETHER I LIVE OR NOT? WHY? DO I MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU? NO. SO SPARE ME. LET ME DIE. NO ONE LOVES ME. JED DOESN'T LOVE ME. YOU WILL NOT LOVE ME. EVERYBODY WILL HATE ME. I DON'T MEAN TO ANYONE. I AM A PATHETIC WHO ONLY DESERVE EVERYONE'S SYMPATHY" I shouted at Harry and broke out in cry. Harry was staring at me with his tear full eyes for a couple of seconds, he was shocked and no words were coming from his mouth. But then he engulfed me in hug, I started cry in his chest, while fisting his shirt.

"I will always love you Zayn. I love you and I will always do. I promise" Harry said while rubbing my back but I was still crying in his chest.

"Zayn look,look at me. I really care you and I really mean it. I will always support you. You don't need to worry about it okay? And you don't deserve Jed. You deserve more than that. He was wicked and evil. Forget him, Zayn. Please" he said worriedly.

I broke the hug and looked up at him for a second.

"Harreh"

"Hmm?"He asked, looking at me with with his green forest eyes, seeking a question from me.

"No... nothing. " I said by looking down which made Harry to disappoint.

"Zayn , you can share anything with me. I will never judge you. Please don't do this type of thing. Giving up your life, can't be a solution"He said worriedly.

"So what should I do Harreh? Jed left me. I am all alone. Nobody loves me. You ..... you will hate me too" I said in between my crying.

"No no zayn never. I will never hate you. I can't hate you. You mean everything to me. Zayn please promise me you will never do this type of things again." He said by giving me a pleading look. I can't promise him.

"Zayn please. Promise me. Please"Harry pleaded, this time I couldn't say no to him and I nodded.

"Thanks a lot"Harry mumbled with smile pulled my face closer to him and kissed my forehead. Tears drop from my eyes when I blinked.

"Hey don't cry please. I am here and I will always be here for you." He said in a soft voice.

"Thank you Harreh" I know he loves me now but he will not if he got aware of my past.

"Harry, I am feeling sleepy. Can I sleep now?" I said by changing all of these topic.

"Now? At this time? What about breakfast?"he asked confusingly.

"But. I'm not hungry now. Please" I said and put my head on his chest and hugged him, motioned for him to sleep with me and hugged me. Realizing this, he wrapped his arms around my tiny waist and lay down on the bed, keeping me on top of his chest. I don't know he truly loves me or not. But only for sometimes I want to be safe. And this is my safest place.

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