POV Shawn

 I glance at Jack who is staring at the deep red roses which cover a pure white casket. Shots of honor were fired before and some lame speech was held by dad. About serving the nation, bringing honor and being brave. Bullshit.

Neither dad nor Jack are crying and here I am left to hold my arms around mom who is silently sobbing against her napkin which is already wet from her tears. We're sitting on the chairs which are nearest the place which will be our sister's last resting place. Jack stands near us, his hands behind his back and wearing a uniform.

They're folding the flag which they bring to mother. I look up at my dad, Colonel Moon who tries to keep his pose. Soon this torture would end and we could get to mourn with real people and not with these lifeless, emotionless dolls of the army.

Once father placed the flag to mother's hands she lifted her face up. Seeing dad made her lose it and she broke free from my grab and jumped to dad, embracing him and crying against his shoulder. The sight made me feel bad, she made dad crack and they both were crying now while holding each other. Jack had always been the clear image of our dad when he was younger.

Again I look at Jack, he doesn't even look at our parents. He is just plain and cold. People are slowly leaving the cemetery and our family is the only one left. Some of them, relatives mostly and Emma's friends would come to our house later. Oh do I wish that Emma would've listened to me and didn't join to military but no. She didn't and now I can only rely on my memories when I want to meet her again.

"Mom, dad. I'll stay for a moment longer," I told them when they were going towards our car.

"Are you sure?" Dad asked with his raspy voice.

"I am. I'll bring Jack with me. I got in here with my car anyway," I respond bravely.

Someone needs to keep it together for them. I'm the oldest of their kids so it must be me.They left and I was left alone with Jack who was standing in front of Emma's casket. I go to stand next to him, we don't speak a word but I can smell that he had been drinking today. He wasn't the same when he got back from the mission where Emma died.

"You should quit," I say quietly to Jack. He ignored me. Emma and he never listened me when I tried to warn them. I watch how he waves his hand in air and soon he places an icy rose on Emma's casket, in the middle of the red roses.

"She was a butterfly Shawn, so delicate and beautiful. You should have seen her when she flew," Jack whispered quietly as he looks at me.

"Yeah, she always wanted to fly like you could. You carried her in the air whenever she wanted you to, she would've followed you anywhere," I smiled faintly.Jack started laughing and I look at him in misbelieve.

"Jack?" I questioned.

"I did something horrible Shawn," Jack chuckled, his eyes were looking mindless.

"Jack?" I question again. My heart beats faster.

"Horrible... and I'm the one who killed her," Jack hummed and turned his back at her grave.

"What? Don't say that," I gulped and clench my hands.

"Whatever," Jack hissed and began walking away.

"W-where are you going?" I yelled after him.

"Bar. I won't come to that useless memorial service. I mean c'mon! The irony when her murderer would be there," he replied coldly and left me standing.Slowly I dragged myself to the car. He couldn't have killed Emma, he loved her like I did.

People dressed in full black have never been a sight I want to see. Then again I never wanted to hear the words 'sorry for your loss' and today I've heard them way too often even from people I barely know.

I could only think of Jack, the things he said. Once people are out I'll go to that bar. Only few weeks ago we all were hanging in there, I used to play piano there once in a while. That's where I met Toothiana, my ex. We broke up yesterday, I begged her to quit army that day but she didn't and I couldn't be with her anymore. I just can't go through the same thing with her like I did with Emma.

I still remember the evening, we all had fun. Jack was playing a game of pool with Bunnymund. Some guys were buzzing around Emma, she was funny and pretty so no wonder but she didn't even notice them while she was cheering Jack for victory. Toothiana and I were watching the game too, her arms were around my waist and I held my arm over her shoulder. Now all this is just a memory, all the laughter and joy.

After the memorial service, when I had said goodbyes to the people who came and made sure that mom went to bed I left. Dad was sitting in the living room and drinking his shot. He didn't even notice when I left.

My only focus was to find my brother and I knew where to begin my search. He drinks a lot nowadays in the evenings. Also he refuses to speak with me and it feels like we're apart even though he is my twin.

When I was near the bar, where those poor souls who are trained to be soldiers go, I heard a scream. I look around me, it sounded like someone was in trouble. Jack can wait.I managed to track down the sound of begging and screaming, it was coming from a nearby alley. My heart was racing with my feet as I ran.

"Please don't hurt me," the girl cried.

"Shut up bitch," a familiar voice hissed.

I pause to my steps and I stare into darkness. Then I was slowly getting able to see. It was my own brother, ripping off a shirt from a girl. I shook my head in misbelieve, slowly getting closer to them. The girl cried again and I recognize her as Snow White who sometimes sings at the bar.

"JACK! Let go from her!" I shouted when I see my brother pressing his face against her neck. Snow yelled in pain and I realize that he just nipped her neck with his teeth, leaving a mark. It was enough.

"FUCK YOU!" I yell angrily. First he was a jerk at the funeral and now this. I ran towards him and I pull my brother off from Snow.

"Run!" I yell to Snow who nodded her head, tears were streaming down from face. I slam my fist on Jack's face and he falls to his back. Blood is gushing out from his nose.

"WHY!" I nearly cried while watching him. Those emotionless and cold eyes of his.

"She deserved it Shawn," Jack hissed coldly and began laughing."This is not funny Jack! W-w-why are you like this?" I whispered while I stepped back.He stood up, wiping his blood to his sleeve and glaring at me.

"Because I killed Emma... I'm a monster, don't you see? Murderer and a rapist," he chuckled and grinned.I shook my head, trying to approach him.

"Jack, you're not yourself. Come home?" I mumbled and tried to touch his shoulder. I'm his big brother, he needs me now.

"Go to hell Shawn," he yelled and I saw him using his ice powers. I jump back and see how the place where I was standing froze.I glare at him and I groan when I barge at him. I hit him until he was nearly unconscious.

"YOU IDIOT! YOU SCUMBAG! Never come home, never go near that bar again. And keep that bastard body of yours out of my sight! " I shout at him and I kick his head.

Now he was unconscious.I wipe my tears as I leave him. He was never the same when he got back from that mission. Now I guess that I know why.

He is not my brother anymore.

POV Elsa

"Elsa?" A voice called me and I saw Rapunzel standing behind me. I was circling around the base, searching after Captain. Punzie was looking at me and seeming puzzled.

"Umm, hey. Have you seen Captain Frost?," I laughed nervously.

"Why would you want to see him?" Punzie gulped out nervously and I see her staring at me in shock.

"To discuss through our differences. I hate the way he treats me! I'm not that bad when it comes to military skills, right? And he just left because I said something to him and I'm not done" I snapped and it made Punzie to flinch. She was stunned by my furious mood.

"Uh... good luck, he went into The Den,"She said to me and said that she will attend to my funeral.

I glance towards The Den, it's a place where privates and commanders might go to hang out. We can watch television, play games and such in there during our spare time. Does he actually know how to have fun? Our Captain? This might be one of his sick jokes again and he was upset when he left. Nope, it can't be about having fun.

"Thanks Punzie," I mumbled after Punzie was long gone.

It took me a moment to gather my thoughts and go to The Den. It was an old barrack but quite comfy, right in the middle of the training base.I inhaled deeply, readying myself to let it all out from me. All the hateful feelings which I had collected inside me, all the insecurities. I'm just going to throw everything at his face, make him think again of how treating me.

When I opened the door I saw no one and I heard none of the normal chatting that was going on here. Maybe I'll do this other time, I thought as I turn around and ready myself to run out from The Den quickly before he realizes being here.

Then, I heard something that caught my attention. Was someone pressing piano's keys? My heart throbbed, the random tones were now turning into music.

I sneak inside The Den and I walk around the corner. The piano is located at a corner of the room.I watch as thin fingers are playing the piano, they move like feather over the keys and the music is flawless. The melody gets stronger and I stare at the pianist's back. My body is shivering, from admire and fear. He is wearing the white dress shirt that he usually as under his army green Captain's jacket.

If he notices me I'm dead.

And yet, why am I staring at him?

Okay! Time to leave! I turn around sharply and I tiptoe towards the door.

His voice. He started singing and... why it's making me feel this way? My heart is bouncing, I can't move. I'm just listening how he sings. Voice of his is filled with bitter sweet sadness that's enchanting me and I turn around.

"When you were standing in the wake of devastationWhen you were waiting on the edge of the unknownAnd with the cataclysm raining downInsides crying, "Save me now!"You were there, impossibly alone

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go.

Let it go

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel

As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars

You felt the gravity of tempered grace

Falling into empty space

No one there to catch you in their arms."

My hand reaches closer to his shoulder. His voice is heartbroken and I just want to comfort him. Maybe Captain Frost is a human after all? No. Bad idea, he is just using some plot against me right now. I thought as I pull my hand away. I decide to leave before I get caught actually. He can handle this, let's leave things like they were.

"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go.

Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go.

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go.

Let it go."

Crap. His singing ended and I'm still standing right at the entrance.

Captain Frost sighed and stood up quickly. His chair scratches the floor and startles me. I hide from sight as he walks in the middle of the room. I can see him staring at floor.

He touches his forehead and runs his hand through his hair. He is breathing heavily and then he yells. It sounded heartbroken, like his soul was being ripped out from him. Then he collapsed, falling to his knees on the floor. A small frozen circle formed around him.

I know that he is not alright, I know he isn't in control of his powers right now. I was about to go and chat with him, this situation might get dangerous otherwise, he could freeze entire base.

Then I see him pulling something from his pocket, it's shining. I stare in horror as he points the barrel of a gun on his temple. My shock state vanished when I heard the first click from the gun and then the second while I ran towards him, barging through the room.

"NO!" I yelled when I pulled the gun from his temple.

The third shot was an actual bullet which was shot at the ceiling when I managed to get the gun off from his face.

He is staring at me, clearly he wasn't expecting me. I'm still holding his arm and I snatch the gun from him. I threw it to the other side of the room. Then I let go of him and his surprised yes are now showing his pure anger.

"Fucking bitch, go to hell," he hissed and slapped my cheek. I yelped and backed up, we're both still sitting on the floor.

"C-captain, you're not thinking clearly. I shouldn't have spoken that way about your sister. Sir, I---," I began explaining.

"Stay quiet you freaking idiot. You ruined everything. How are you so stupid?" He yelled at me.

Hug him when he is rude.

Anna's words echoed in my mind accompanied with his insults. I gather my courage and approach him, I take him into a warm embrace. Holding him feels so strange and scary but I'm not giving up. This might keep him from trying to shoot himself.

I inhale his strong minty scent and I close my eyes.

He breaths so hardly right now while I hold my arms around him. However he doesn't try to pull himself away but the way he stiffens tells me that he is uncomfortable. The sigh of his scared me but it resulted in him wrapping his arms around my waist, pulling me closer.

"Just this once," he mumbled and I felt his cold forehead against my neck.

His breath was tickling over my collarbone and I closed my eyes. Just this once he is letting me hold him like this. Now the pain on my cheek which he hit me earlier has faded away.This lasted only for about one minute, us being close. Then he pushed me off from him and the coldness in his eyes had returned, the vulnerable him was gone.

"H-have you ever told to C-Captain Toothiana or Colonel M-Moon about how you feel? Sir?" I mumbled nervously. He doesn't seem alright to me, well who would be alright if they try to shoot themselves.

"Never," he hummed his response while standing back up. I did the same and he was just avoiding eye contact.

"You should, you're clearly upset about what happened in your past and with your sister. I can tell," I insisted.Captain chuckled and turns to look back at me.

"Are you some sort of shrink Private Arendelle? I will never tell anything to them. I'm not weak like you," he hissed.

"You could tell me," I said and regretted it soon enough.

"Maybe," was his simple answer. It made me blink couple of times from the surprise it made me feel.

"You are so stupid that you're not a threat," he laughed and smirked deviously. It made me huff a little which he noticed.

"I would like to have your permission to go, sir," I said between my teeth.

"Since you just threw that energy bar at me, I guess that you didn't eat. I order you to meet me in the park outside the base in ten minutes," Captain told me and walks past me.

He left his uniform jacket on the chair which I went to grab. It seems like he forgot it.

I crumbled the fabric of his jacket in my hands while walking towards the gate of the base. My mind was focused on throwing the jacket at him. Our Captain clearly is the stupid one, he has problems but he denies them. I did that once and it did nothing good.

My eyes wander to look at his jacket again, there's his shiny name tag and couple honor marks. I was just passing our living barrack with five minutes before I should see him face to face again. A quick detour wouldn't be bad.

I hid the Captain's jacket behind my back and ran inside the barrack. No one was there gladly. I hid Captain Frost's jacket inside my chest and beneath a pile of my clothes. I smelled his scent while doing it, the minty one. I could maybe blackmail him with this.

Apparently Captain had given me a permit to leave from the base today. I was sure that the military police would've stopped me from going out from the gates but they didn't. They just checked the list and found my name. The permit was given by Captain J. Frost. I was hoping that he would've forgotten that private's can't leave from the base before weekend holidays.

At park were some civilians having great time. And one grumpy Captain, leaning against a tree with his arms crossed, clearly waiting for something. Just the fact that he wanted to see me outside base was scaring me, when no one was looking he could really beat me up.

"Took you one minute too long," he mumbled when I managed to bring myself to stand before him. I just nod my head, sometimes he gets me so mad that I act in anger, say him anything I want to but sometimes I can't help to be scared of him. Like now.

"Sorry sir," I whispered.

"Follow," he ordered and walks behind the tree and then he goes behind a bush fence. Being out of sight was something that I didn't want to do right now. Reluctantly I followed him.

"You know about my powers," he hummed as he stands in front of me. His hands are inside his pockets and I see only his back.

"Yes, you can make ice sir," I replied quickly and he looks at me, glancing over his shoulder and having a sly smirk.

"And fly," he laughed shortly and turns around.

"And that," I gulped as he was walking towards me.

"I suggest that you get a really good grip from me right now. Private Arendelle," he said while glaring at me.I hesitated of how to take a hold of him.

"Oh for fucks sake, make it an order. Just take a hold of me, now," he hissed and took his hands out from his pockets.

His eyes were glowing angrily, it was like a snow storm was roaming inside him.I hold my breath when I wrapped my arms over his shoulders and around his neck. Then I felt how there was nothing under my feet. I literally pulled myself closer to him, holding onto him for dear life. His heart was beating calmly unlike mine which was about to explode from fear.Suddenly a big airwave hit on us, we're flying but I'm not daring to open my eyes.

It didn't take long until he landed.

"Let go of me nuisance," he said quietly and I let myself drop down to my shaking feet. I look around, I don't know where we are but I see a diner.

"Why you brought me here, sir?" I ask from him. He is so confusing personality.

"You need to eat something and these guys owe me. Besides I skipped eating today also. Why the hell would I have had that energy bar with me?" He questioned while lifting eyebrow.

I follow him inside and he goes to sit on a corner table.I stood in front of the table, looking at him nervously. He had his white collar shirt on as well as army green pants and black boots. Only difference in our outfits was the fact that I wore a white t-shirt.

"Sit down idiot," he sighed and I sat opposite to him quickly. A lady came to take our orders soon.

"What would you like to have hon?" She asked from me and I was about to reply.

"We'll take two hamburgers with lemon sodas," Captain told her.Unfortunately I had already began to say my order.

"If you have chocolate cake ---- never mind," I mumbled. Captain glanced at me."Anything else?" She smiled warmly.

"Couple slices of chocolate cake with vanilla sauce," Captain told her and she touched his shoulder.

"Of course Jack, I will get back to you soon," she winked her eye and left.

"Thanks Tiana," Captain grinned and looks on Tiana's direction. Then he looks back at me.

"What?" He snapped angrily."N-nothing," I whisper and look at my hands which I keep on my lap.

"You're not the first woman in my squad. She was and they didn't force me to take another one until now," Captain groaned and my eyes widened.

"She quit as should you if you're sane," he continued and stares into my eyes.

"No I won't sir," I told to him strictly.He sighed loudly.

"Well, then only option is for you to go through a hell. Full of abuse and rocky shores but I will train you personally... if you manage to stay alive you're like any man would be and maybe you have a chance," he said half in his thoughts. I was horrified, whatever he is planning I think that I don't want to know. However it is like he has now this sick goal in his mind.

"Here you go," Tiana smiles at me while she serves my food. I stare at the burger and thank her while she handed Captain his portion.

"No problem, enjoy. I will bring your cakes little later," she laughed while heading to pour some coffee to other people.

Captain started to eat and so did I. Sharing a table with him was making me uncomfortable. There's no telling of what he is thinking. I look at him quickly. There's something in the corner of his mouth. Some ketchup, I think.

"What the heck are you staring at Private?" He insisted and made me startle.

"K-Ketchup," I stuttered and pointed at his mouth.

"Clean it."

"What?" I whispered.

"You heard me," he said strictly and placed his burger to plate.I hold my breath while I stand up and lean over the table.

My hand was shaking when I reach towards his face. His body is strangely radiating the feeling of cold as my front finger is about to touch his face, wipe the ketchup stain from the corner of his mouth.Slowly I wiped it away and I was about to sit back down. He grabbed my hand however, his eyes stared into mine keenly as he pulled my hand back towards his face. I gasped when my front finger went between his lips and he kissed it clean. Then he let go.

"Eat," he said like nothing happened and I drop back down.

Slowly I ate, figuring out why he did that.Tiana brought us our cakes when we were finished with burgers. While she was giving mine she leaned close to my ear.

"Finally he has someone to like," she said playfully. Likes? I wanted to yell at her that he hates me but I couldn't.After eating we left the place. He was just walking quietly towards a nearby forest road. Sun was already setting down as it was getting late.

"We should do some of your training today," Captain said and went to sit on a bench. He patted the place next to him and I sit there.He leans back and closes his eyes.

"I guess we did something that we shouldn't last night. That will happen again and again if I say so. You won't tell anyone or I kill you. If you refuse I won't train you and I will beat you until your crippled and have to get out from military. Understood?" He said with cold voice.

"Yes I understand," I replied after weighing the odds. Then he was taking something from his pocket and I saw a blade.

"I want you to do something brave," he told me as he placed his hand on the bench.

He began hitting the blade between his fingers, getting up the speed fast. I watch in horror as he does it and finally he slammed the blade next to his wrist.

"Now you follow my lead or are you a coward?" He asked quietly. I wanted to ask him about who the fuck would want to do that! Risk cutting their hands off but then I realized. I need to prove myself to him, that I can deal with his horrible training.

I grabbed the knife from him, I examine it in my hands and I touch the edge. It's knife sharp, how obvious actually. He stares at me, waiting for my failure. I place my hand on the bench, right between us on the previously blank space. I just hope that my blood won't soon run on the pure white paint which they used on this bench. Well, considering that I'm going to follow his lead and stick the tip of the blade inside the wood of the bench, some blood won't be that bad.

My speed is slow at first while I go stabbing the blade between my fingers. I pick up the speed and I'm doing quite good. A smile spreads on my face when I realize that I finally can show him that I'm not a stupid coward.

In a moment I see blood dripping down from the narrow gaps of the bench. I let out a whimper when the blade cut my front finger and caused me to let go of the blade.

"I guess you're not used to surprises, Private," Captain spoke sarcastically. He was staring at his own hand, his front finger was also bleeding. He had placed his right hand over my left one when I was about to hit. There was just a small gap between our finger and I managed to cut us.

I groaned at him and I see how he sucks his finger, taking the blood away and then he blew. My eyes widened when I notice him cooling down the wound with his breath. Unfortunately I can't do the same thing, my finger is just hurting and pulsing from pain. However keeping my powers hidden from him is the best thing to do.

I use my healthy hand to search for a napkin or something from my pocket. When I looked away he took my hand and took it to his lips, then he cooled down my aching wound. He notices my staring, I just froze when he did that and I'm just holding the napkin while being dump.

"You're clumsy as hell, Miss Arendelle," he partially chuckled after letting go of my hand.

"We have tons of things to train with you tomorrow," he hummed and sighed while looking up."Like what," I questioned.

"Do something brave and stupid right now... something that might get you killed. Prove that your worthy of the training to m....mmmhh," he began but rest of his words were muffled.

I'm holding the blade close to his neck, I just barged towards him. Towards a kiss that could be deadly.

Slowly I back up a bit and I look into his eyes, he is staring back in shock and breathing heavily. I let my lips touch his again quickly and I pull myself away to look back at him again, my heart is pounding inside my chest.

Now a much long lasting one, to make him kiss me back. I close my eyes and move forward, he is having it hard to breathe when the blade presses onto his neck.

"No," he said harshly and I feel him pushing me back. I open my eyes and I see him holding his hand between our faces.

This isn't a brave act, to back up and retreat but the fact that he is pressing an ice spike against my back is haunting me. I pull the blade away and he gasps for air as it gets easier for him to breathe. He dropped the spike and stares at the ground.

"Never do that again. Do you hear me?" He shouts and jumps up. He is glaring at me angrily, clenching his hand into fist and I'm sure that he'll hit me. I cover my face quickly before the impact might come.

"Let's go back," he said quietly. I nod my head to him and I hand him the knife which he puts back. He scooped me up to carry and I'm surprised still of how strong he is, even though he is so skinny. Just when he was about to fly a thought came to my mind.

"You just took me out to eat," I laughed silently aloud. Oh I wish that I would've kept my mouth shut.

"What?" He hissed. "No I didn't," he muttered and landed back down. His grip tightened around me and it hurt.

"I'm sorry... o-of course you didn't sir," I gulped.

"Indeed. I have killed a woman before... killing you would be easy so fucking keep that mouth of yours sealed," he yelled and if he wouldn't have been holding me I probably would have gotten a hit from him.I nod my head, I can barely breath and I shiver in his arms.

He just rolls his eyes and without a warning goes up in air. I managed to muffle my yell and I keep my eyes shut. Slowly his grip loosens and I relax a bit. Hopefully I'm back at my barrack soon and I can hide under blanket.

Stuff like this is too much for me.

A/N

Update finally! I'm working on with my other stories too but I get really tired easily. And nauseous...cranky.. lol.

I might as well tell you that I'm currently quite early on my pregnancy. (I'm adult you peoples, no worry). It might go badly or well and I would be a mom in february 2016. This is slowing me down on my writing though. Lol.