Chapter's song: Love me like you do by Ellie Goulding

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ChaPtEr sIxTEEN           _________________________

Loved by him…

His lips were soft and his hold was gentle as he pulled me closer to him.

Different feelings and sensations burst within me. A scorching sensation ran from the lips to the pit of my stomach. I got lost in the moment as my hands gripped tight his shirt and a throaty groan reverberated through his chest. My heart throbbed while we pulled even closer.

His hold tightened as I gave him total access and the kiss deepened.

A raw sensation washed over me.

I couldn’t breathe while my whole body was on fire. I felt like I needed him closer.

Breathless, we pulled apart gasping for air. His pupils were completely dilated and bored into mine making my stomach flutter. My lips were swollen and searing as his thumb caressed my bottom lip. My chest heaved as I stared at him completely mesmerized.

He blinked once before leaning closer to me.

My heart was racing non-stop as my hands slid around his neck. His nose rubbed against mine as his lips almost brushed mine.

“We shouldn’t be doing this…” his voice was raw and husky making me feel tingly all over.

His hands gripped me by the hips as I murmured back, “no, we shouldn’t…”

Our bodies were still moving to the rhythm of the music. My heart flipped as I felt his lips brushing mine once again. They barely touched me as if he was giving me time to pull away. I tugged his head closer as I trailed his bottom lip with my tongue. Groaning, his hold tightened pushing me to him.

Completely on fire, we kissed urgently with raw need.

I lost track of the time or the music or the place we were in.

I lost myself in him.

We kissed and kissed and kissed.

His hands roamed all over my body as my hands tangled on his hair.

My head was spinning as we pulled apart. We were not in the center of the dancefloor anymore. Somehow we had moved to a dark corner. My back was pressed against the wall as my legs were around his hip. My dress had hitched and his hands were caressing my thighs.

His eyes blazed as he stared at me like a predator looks at its prey. I swallowed hard. His thumbs were drawing circles on my legs as my heart thumped rapidly. Biting my swollen lip for a moment, I boldly whispered, “Do you want to leave?”

His breathing was uneven as he swallowed hard. He closed his eyes for a moment as his fingers dug on my thighs. Leaning his forehead to mine, he murmured huskily, “you’re beautiful Marianne…”

I didn’t know what to think about that for an answer.

I closed my eyes as my stomach plummeted to the ground. Placing my hands on his chest, I pulled away from him as I averted my eyes.

Guiltiness washed over me.

He has a bloody girlfriend.

What kind of person does that make me?

Tears brimmed on my eyes as I pushed myself through the crowd looking for one of our friends. I didn’t look back to where we’d been but it didn’t seem like he was following me.

One tear rolled down my cheek as I reached our table. My breathing was ragged as I tried to control the rest of tears away.

I felt awful. I had pushed myself to him knowing that he had a girlfriend.

“Hey,” Ed asked concerned, “Marianne, what happened?”

I closed my eyes. My tone was pained as I asked him, “could you take me back, please?”

“Of course. I’ll text Pablo.”

He grabbed my hand and led the way outside the club. My eyesight blurred as the tears were now rolling down my cheeks.

As we approached a black jeep, Ed stopped me. “Did Jason do something to you?” his green eyes studied me closely.

“No…” I shook my head, “Oh, God…I’m such a slut…I came on to him and he-“He pulled me to him as a sob left my lips.

“I’m pretty sure that he was well aware of what he was doing,” he muttered under his breath as I cried on his shoulders. “Come on, I’ll take you back.”

Rubbing my eyes with the back of my palm, I sniffed. “Thank you…”

“Don’t mention it.”

He drove me back to the hotel as I silently watched the blackness of the road around us. Tears were still rolling down my cheeks as he parked.

“You’ll be fine…” he trailed unsure. He was out of his way here, I could see how uncomfortable and nervous my incessant crying had made him. Still, he was trying to be nice.

I stepped out of the car as he jumped out to see me walk to my room. Weakly, I reached out for him and kissed him on the cheek, “Thank you.” His green eyes softened and a small smile played on his lips.

“I’ll see you around, alright?” He climbed on and before starting the engine added, “And if you need me to beat the crap out of Jason, I’ll gladly help out!” Feebly, I waved at him.

Completely discouraged, I walked up to my room as I heard tires screeching on the driveway. My heart raced as I heard a strong stride coming my way. I rubbed my eyes with the back of my palms trying to erase the smudged makeup. I took out my key and placed it on the lock as a strong hand encased my wrist.

I bit my lip as Jason turned me around and crashed his lips on mine.

This kiss was filled on raw need.

His whole body pushed me against the wall as his right hand played around with the key trying to unlock the door. My heart was in overdrive as my mind was swirling with different thoughts and feelings.

Finally, the door unlocked. Without stopping the kiss we stumbled inside the room. He groaned as he kicked the door to close it and I tangled my hands on his hair as a soft moan sounded deep within my throat.

He hovered over me after I’d fallen on the bed. His breathing was ragged and his eyes dark as he stared at me, “You have no idea how crazy I am for you…”

“But you-“ he brushed a strand of hair off my eyes.

“I want you,” his voice was deep and husky.

My head was spinning as his left hand traced my thigh raising my dress up to my waist. His grey orbs were scorching as his lips touched mine. “Do you want this?” he murmured against my lips.

I closed my eyes and moaned softly, “yes…”

He kissed me as I urgently unbuttoned his shirt. His chest tensed under my palm bringing a smile on my lips. Smiling back, he pulled away and watched me with so much emotion in his eyes that I lost all train of thought.

He stood up and took off his pants before taking out a foiled package from the back pocket. His lips tugged up on a slight smirk as he shook his head, “Your aunt gave it to me…” he rolled his eyes playfully as a light blush crept upon his cheeks.

Chuckling, I propped on my elbows as a small shy smile drew on my face. “Me too…” I bit my lip as he burst out laughing.

With a sly smile on his face, he climbed on the bed and helped me out of my dress while leaving a trail of soft kisses on my bare shoulders and back.

He kissed me tenderly while his strong hands touched me softly. His eyes were burning as he opened the package and we got lost in each other.

Something trailed on my left arm as I stirred. My eyes fluttered as a husky chuckle sounded beside me. Grey-bluish orbs were watching me softly. I smiled at Jason as his lips tugged up. He was propped on one elbow as his other hand was tracing a soft line on my arm. His eyes were intense and a small subtle beard showed on his chin. I observed him mesmerized for a moment before thinking how awful I must look, so I pulled the sheet covering my whole head.

Jason chuckled and tried to pry it away, “what are you doing?”

“I look awful!” my voice was muffled.

With a strong tug, he pulled it off my face. “What are you talking about?” His thumb caressed my cheek, “I’ve never seen you so beautiful as now…” he trailed softly as my heart skipped a beat. Still, I kept my mouth covered because, let’s be honest, morning breath sucks. He shook his head and kissed the top of my nose.

Bloody hell…I’m doomed…

My heart swooned.

The hold on the sheet loosened and he pulled it off completely. Before I could do anything, he leaned into me and kissed me for a moment as butterflies fluttered on my stomach and a soft moan left my lips.

Pulling apart, he groaned, “I should get going…”

Tracing my bottom lip with my tongue, I whispered, “Really?”

He took a deep breath, “You’re not helping, prankster.” I rolled my eyes at his nickname. A smirk formed on his lips for a moment. “I think that we should keep this-“he pecked me on the lips, “to ourselves.”

 Frowning, I sighed, “Yeah…I guess…”

His grey eyes roamed all over my face before setting on my lips. He pulled me closer and kissed me deeply for the longest of moments. Things started to heat up again. Groaning, he pulled away. I pouted, making him chuckle. He pecked me lightly on the lips before getting up completely. “I’ll see you later, beautiful.”

I bit my lip as he put on his pants, grabbed the rest of his clothes and opened the door. His eyes searched mine for a moment with a wide smile on his face before he walked out closing the door after him.

Sighing, I grabbed my alarm clock. It was 5:30 in the morning. And obviously, I wasn’t sleepy at all.

I stayed in bed replaying every touch and kiss…he’d been so gentle and passionate at the same time. I’d only slept with one guy before but last night. But it had been, without a doubt, the best night ever.

I rubbed my eyes and grabbed a pair of fresh clothes to get a bath. As I rinsed, a small doubt crept upon me. Why had he left? Because of his? A large lump formed on my throat, girlfriend?

I felt like the worst person ever as he was cheating her because of me. Maybe last night was it. Maybe he didn’t want anything else.

My heart constricted. I didn’t know what was worse…to never have been loved by him or to know what it felt like being loved by him knowing that he’d never do it again…

Shit. Shit. Shit.

I wasn’t cut out for a one night stand. Especially not with him.

I wanted more…

I wanted everything with him.

Damn it.

Doomed couldn’t start to cover it.

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OK. THIS WAS HARD TO WRITE!! I didn't know to go further because well...this is PG after all and honestly, I am a Mom so my motherly side kept nagging me if it was appropiate or not...blah blah blah :)

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