"Chanyeollie....."

"Stop! ..... stop calling me with that name...."

"I....."

"Final..... question. Director Byun Baekhyun..."

"..................."

"Did you..... really love me?"

What should........ I do?
We have come till this way... and I made... a hard ... decision...

If I turn back now... will you still believe me?
That image of you with a girl... still popping up in my head like a cinematic record.
And words that your parents said..
My pride that have been.... thrown away by those words....

"I......... I....... I didn't...."

And .... He just... laugh a very dry and.... sarcastic laugh.

"Just a replacement for your beloved ex-lover... huh...."

You are so.... Stupid park chanyeol...
How can you believe that?
Don't you know I love you.....that I'm lying now....
At least..... at least don't.... Don't look at me with those.... Cold eyes..

"Chanyeol... that's not it!"

"So?" I flinch a little by how cold his eyes are right now.

"I...... it wasn't......"

"What wasn't? Ah..... not a replacement but just a toy for you?"

"Don't talk about me like this?"

"That pride of yours..... I wish someone will crush that definitely"

"What?" I frown

"Your high and mighty pride.
That you don't admit your feelings.
That you don't want others to think bad of you when you are actually.... The Worst"

The....worst?

"My parents said something to you that hurt your pride?
And run away like a coward..
If you really loved me.... If you are in love with me....
You would try for me.
Or...... is.... Being in love is something that..... is hurting your pride?
And not worth of it?"

He is just blabbing things.....
they are not right..... he should know this....
Why is he..... why is he hurting Me?

"No words?" He asks

Yes..... I want to say.... They are all wrong...
And......
And that I love you....

"I......"

"Sorry to waste your time... all these times.
You are just a coward.... And liar.
I hope we never encounter again" Chanyeollie says as he just walks away from me

No....
Please.... Please don't leave me....
Please....

"Director Byun!" Mr. Wu catches me as my legs give up and about to drop onto the ground

"Are you okay? Let's go into your house... or... should I follow Park chanyeol ssi?"

"N....no...... he's... gone. He's gone for real now.... He's just..... he just..... he hates me now" I can't help but start crying out like a kid who just lost his favourite thing.
No matter how much I cry, the one that I lost...
Won't be back.

Because this is the decision and a way that I chose to walk on.
Regrets?
As soon as I saw those hatred in his eyes, my regrets start filling me up.

Ah...... I really..... sincerely..... love you.

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3 months later

"Make sure you make clear of product delivery process. So, marketing team?" I ask

"Nae, Director Byun. Since this application is dedicated to middle-age and who are employees, we will use email-marketing and SMS marketing."

"Okay. Make sure it's on time as soon as the app is launched."

"Nae" they all say

"So, dismiss the meeting now. If any enquires, contact my secretary."

"Nae, Director Byun. Have a good day"

They all dismiss and I am just left behind in the big meeting room.

"Director Byun. You have lunch meet up with K Group Chairman" Mr. Wu says

"And?"

"And to visit the Grand opening of Art Gallery in Gangnam"

"And?"

"As Chairwoman instructions, dinner with your blind date.... Are you going to... meet?"

"Do I have a choice?"

"....... I am sorry."

"Why are you sorry? Did you make me do that?"

"No..."

"Then, don't say sorry"

"Nae"

"I'm going for a drink tonight"

"Do you want me to wait and drive you back?"

"To hotel? I'm going to get a partner for tonight"

"A...ah... Nae... if you want to I can..."

"Don't.. no need to"

"Nae"

"Go meet blind dates will you?" I told Jinho

"I'm not interested sir."

"Hahah... funny. You can't just stay with me forever .."

"Until you retire, Director Byun"

"You are just wasting your time"

"For me dating is more a waste of time"

"You sound older than me... well, let's head to lunch meeting now?"

"Nae"

My life..... is back to normal.
Work.... Work ..... and spend a night with a random stranger.
Except for that I'm going to meet with random women as Chairwoman told me to... nothing new in particular.

It's lifeless...
And...... I'm still.... Trying to fill the void inside me.
I'm still trying to move on.

'I hope we never encounter again'

That word.... He really meant it...
We never... encounter each other... by any chance.

It's hard for me.
It is still very hard for me.
Every single... moment that my head is free from work...
Everything that is coincidental with him...
Every morning when I wake up ...
When I'm about of go back home..

Or... haha.. I might sound funny and stupid right now... every Park names... get my hopes up for a second...

But I frequently ask myself a lot of question...
What if..... what if I really run into him?
How should I react?
What should I say to him?
What will be his facial expression?

On the other hand...I'm scared...
Because I know he .... hates me now.
The anxiety .... whenever I think about it..

But still.... From time to time..
I really wanna see you, Chanyeollie

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