I couldn't sleep these days.... *sigh*

Since that night.... When I unluckily heard Inseo's conversation, it's hard to face him at home.
I .... My instinct automatically avoid him... these days.
I go back home when it's about time for him to sleep... or spent most of my times in my study room.

"Director nim"

"Yes?"

"Tonight... you have annual family dinner"

"I don't think I'm going"

"Sir, your parents will be there too. May be you should go this year sir"

"I'm definitely not going. No more words about that"

Annual family dinner...
This family tend to be busy throughout the year so it's rare for all of the members to gather.
So, chairwoman made a day when we all should leave for a time every year.
The chairwoman and her 3 daughters' families will be there.
I will see two aunts and their husbands... and two cousins.

Plus, chairwoman started calling my mother again for this meet up since last 3 years ago.
That's when I completely stopped attending that.

I don't want to see them.
No, I don't need to see my parents.
It's not because I hold grudges for abandoning me.
It's just, I don't have no emotional attachments to them anymore.

"Sir"

"Mr. Wu!"

"I'm sorry for overstepping again"

"No... you can leave now"

"You have one appointment sir, you said you will have to take Park Chanyeol ssi's team to our mall for their survey"

"Ah... right..."

"Yes. It's in 15 minutes"

"Okay. Tell them to wait at parking lot. I will come down"

"I will drive sir"

"No. The car won't fit. I will just drive"

*Message*

'Hyung, are you busy? Will you be back for dinner? Can you come back for dinner time? Since I moved in, I couldn't even see and spend time properly. I miss you.' Inseo

I can't help but.... wanting to avoid
I'm scared to face the reality.
That..... that he will be leaving me either way... after getting what he needs.
I don't want to ..... give up....
Even if he needs me for money..... may be I can..... I can endure everything.....
so at least... he will be with me somehow..

It's hard...
It's ...... very.... Suffocating.
I hated being rich.
And I'm still hating everything.
What if I have nothing ?

Who will still be with me?
It's scary even with the thought.... Because I know no one will be.

I sigh out loud "Well... I should get going now" I say to myself and go down to car parking.

Right, the kid.. Park chanyeol.
It will be a bit awkward to meet him..
He completely shut me out that day when I went to his house.
May be because he already got a girlfriend.

Kids these days..

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"Sorry, did I take long?"

Director nim finally arrives at the car parking. We were waiting for him to go visit the mall.
Actually we could just go by ourselves but, he said he had to meet with mall's person in charge.

"No Director nim" Kyungsoo answers

I can't look straight in the eyes.... Because of that day.
I vented my anger on him.
I got.... Jealous... and sad... by how easily I can be pushed aside when comparing to his... Inseo ssi. Even tho I don't have any rights to be.

He visited to my house and I just told him to get lost..
But he doesn't seem to be bothered by it.

He looks so worn out today. More like he's about to get sick.
His dark cycles seem to be getting worse and .. his face doesn't look bright at all.
Isn't he supposed to be happy?

We are surprised that he's driving today.
So, Kyungsoo sits in the passenger seat and me and Kai sit at the backseat.

"Thank you for sending us there, Director nim. We know you are busy" Kyungsoo breaks the silence we have in the car

"It's nothing. I also need to check the mall and cinema progress too. So, how are you guys keeping up with the app? I missed your progress presentation yesterday" Director nim says

"We are doing good as usual. No fault until now" Kyungsoo keeps going with the conversation.

"I'm surprised actually. Even pro developers have threats in the progress more or less"

"It's because our team leader , Chanyeol's design is perfect and detailed"Kyungsoo suddenly brought up my name

"Ah.. is that so" Director nim says "have you all eaten?"

What's with that reply? He just.... cut the conversation.

"Not yet. How about you?" Kyungsoo asks

"Let's have lunch altogether after the survey"

"Nae"

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We explore the mall arena and Director nim follows us from a far with the mall manager while having conversation.
I think he's a very extraordinary man.
A small and petite man leading one big tech company and now side business, a shopping mall.

Just.... He's really amazing.

"Now, shall we all visit the cinema? We left one theatre vacant for the survey" the mall manager says

"Shall we go?" Director nim says and we all go to cinema floor.

Actually , it's hard to create an app for whole mall when the mall itself is already operating to public.
Most importantly, theatres.
Since we have to replace the old app, our new app must be very user-friendly so it will advantage SOLE, and the customers.

We explore the theatre and the mall manager told us we can enjoy the movie while we are here.
So we all start enjoying the movie in a theatre where there is no one but us.
Director nim also sits behind us.

Not after the movie started, Kai got a call from his home and had to go back because something urgent came up at home and kyungsoo accompanied him.

I'm left alone with.... him.
I don't want to turn back and talk since it's.... already been this awkward between us.
I got stuffy from the atmosphere so...

"Director nim, I will go back now. Excuse me" I bid him and...

"Park chanyeol ssi"

"Yes?"

"Perhaps, did I do something wrong to you?"

He doesn't know because.... he never once cared about my feelings.
It's just a very .... Sad truth?

"No. There's nothing, so excuse me" I say and walk out of the theatre.

But... as soon as I got outside.....

"Fuck....... I can't leave him like this...."

He shouldn't look this lonely for someone who has a lover....
"Will he continue to watch the whole movie?" I mumble as I watch for him just outside of the theatre

I want to be brave. At one point.
And spill everything I have been wanting to tell him.
Without thinking of the consequences.

The consequences..... huh....

The theatre door opens and... he comes out.

"Oh... thought you left" he says

"Director nim"

"Yes?"

"From now on. Just answer my answers without questioning back"

"........okay...."

"About my feelings. Are you aware of that?"

"What? Why are you asking...."

"Answer me"

"I don't know...."

He... doesn't know?
Because he doesn't care... huh.

"But don't you have a...."

"I like you."

"You have..."

"I like you so... how much percentage do I stand a chance?"

"Park chanyeol ssi?"

"Or you have never see me in that way?"

"Look.... I don't understand you since you already have...."

"Answer me Director nim. Have you seen me in romantic way? Or do I stand a chance?"

He locks his eye contact with me... for a few moments and.... Look away....

"................ No..... not at all"

"Okay....I get it"

So..... this is it.
My curiosity.... just killed me.
It's the consequences that I ..... don't know how to react more than this.

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