⊱Convenir d'être en désaccord⊰

Agree to disagree

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Legs dangling over the top of a building and eyes darting all over the dilapidated apartments before me, I let my thoughts run rampant. The bleak smoky blanket hung over the run down city, a gloomy undertone making it hard for me to guess if it was morning or evening. There were no strokes of green, only faded and pale blue and gray, sprayed with desert dusty orange. Barren. Lifeless.

As if calamity had stricken this poverty-ridden, corrupted city, dust and pollution were everywhere, covering the whole place. It felt like I was looking through a sepia lens.

My head hurt from thinking about what I had to do to help this place. No one would be content living in such country, let alone city. Instead of going the development of the country as a whole, all the money and work were pouring into the pockets of the authorities in this country. How were the citizens tolerating this?

I let out a deep sigh, kicking my legs.

"You seem troubled."

Flinching at the sudden voice in my head, I unintentionally clasped my hands. "I'm- I'm sorry, I just... I just feel like what I'm doing is not enough..."

"What do you mean?" The tone was concerned that I wanted to express myself honestly.

"My heart hurts seeing what's happening around the world because of greed. It seems... hopeless." I fiddled with my fingers. "People are used, discarded and killed, animals are dying just because someone wants to buy an expensive car and drive it once or twice before discarding it, too. Well, it's more complex than that but still..."

Lifting my hands up, I stared at my palms as white glow enveloped them. "Maybe I'm just powerless. I don't know how to help."

God hummed as if understanding me. "You, my dear Virtues can only affect humans so much. The rest, the actions and decisions... they lie in their own hands. You're not here to make decisions for them, you're here to guide them so don't criticize or blame yourself, Saejin."

I bit my lips, letting his words sink into my mind. Was I perhaps trying to control them and strip their free will?

"You're already enough, full of power. You're using your empathetic manipulation too much that I wouldn't be surprised if someone cried out of nowhere." He chuckled but I covered my mouth in embarrassment. "How you're so worried is admirable, but rest assured. You're an excellent Heavenly Virtue."

"Am I... really doing good?"

"Yes, my child."

His warm tone made me hold in a whimper. The reassurance was something I desperately needed for so long but couldn't voice out. I was so used to holding in my pain to not bother others and ending up overthinking. All I had to do was reach out and my worries were lifted even just a little bit.

"Thank you so much." The soft dress material bunched in my hands over my thighs. "But I'll try harder... I want to."

My breath hitched when a white rose suddenly appeared before me. Following the hand that held it, up the pink striped shirt sleeve, I looked up to see Jimin beside me. His expression was uncharacteristically somber as his melted chocolate eyes held me.

"What... What's this?"

His eyes flitted to the flower before gazing back into mine. "It's, uh..." As silence grew louder, they bounced between my eyes as if he was contemplating what to say. "It's a rose. A white rose... For you."

He emphasized its color but I could see that. It was strange to see him being unusually 'eloquent'. It was clear from the way he was fidgeting and shifting his weight from one foot to another, instead of his usual relaxed posture with hips tilted to the side, that he was uneasy.

The last time we met was when I tried jumping off a cliff and how we parted was not swell. Staring at the rose, I was feeling tense as well. He didn't have to apologize then but he still did. And now, he didn't have to comfort me with such a sweet gesture but he still was. It was baffling how he was acting with me and after reflecting on it, I felt like I didn't deserve it.

Smiling sadly, I gently took the rose from him with my fingers brushing his and making them jerk away. I twirled the flower in my hold, marveling at its beauty and wondered out loud, "Why white?"

Seemingly eased by my acceptance, Jimin sat down beside me, legs crossed and his body facing me. "Your everything is white. It just felt right."

I hummed, still twirling it. The thorns were gone and its stem was left bare and smooth. Either he cut the thorns off himself or he bought a thornless one which was more likely.

"Did you steal this? Swiping a single flower from a flower shop is a piece of cake, isn't it?" I chuckled, prompting a frown from him, but I didn't know how else to break the tension between us. "Why else would you look like you're giving an exam you didn't prepare for?"

"Angel," he sighed, disappointed, but a short chuckle escaped him. "Give it back."

"I was joking." Grinning, I tucked the rose into my hair over my right ear. "Thank you."

Nodding, Jimin gave me a small smile and the silence came back again as it slowly faded.

"Agree to disagree?" I asked in a quiet voice, referring to the ongoing conflict between us that could never be resolved. But I didn't have the rights to overstep or dictate anything. It was an endless battle. I just wanted to get along again somehow.

His smile returned as he looked back at me. "Agree to disagree."

"So, we will fight?"

"So we will fight," he chuckled, light and childlike, making my lips curl up.

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