Warning: Depression, lack of self-care, cutting

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It's been a week since you've last seen Hawks and Mirko. You were glad though and at the same time upset. You wanted to continue to see them but, then at the same time you were confused and didn't want to see them. While those two avoided you, the things going on with Hiro kept getting worse and worse. Come to find out there were much more people in Japan that are his little servants than originally known. Within the span of seven days, you were almost kidnapped three times a day. It was beyond ridiculous and you were having breakdowns every day becoming extremely paranoid. You stayed at your apartment no more you stood with the Todoroki's and even they were shaken up. Touya loves his independence but, he was the first one to suggest that they all sleep in the same room to make it safer. What was even more surprising was that Enji didn't protest he simply moved his bed closest to the bedroom door so that if anyone comes in or out, he will be the first to hear it. You were in the middle with Shoto while the others slept by the walls and Touya by the window. It was comforting. If only the thoughts would stop and allow you to sleep. You became jumpy surviving off coffee and energy drinks, you would sleep only 2-3 hours a night. The eye bags and dark circles were noticeable and so was your irritability.

"Y/N?" You glared at the person in the office. To be frank you never liked them they were someone who always made snide remarks about you since you came here to work as Enji's secretary. You always kept it civil and remained in minimal contact with them but the stress of possibly losing your life and everyone else around you were too much for you to keep up niceties.

"Yes?" You felt your eye twitch. It hurt your soul just to say that. You didn't like the way this conversation was turning.

"You are getting behind in your work you should really learn to prioritize." You growled at them but of course, that seemed to make them even more determined. "I thought Endeavor would be smart enough on who he chooses to bring into his office but, clearly he's too overwhelmed to watch everyone. Maybe you should leave it to someone who can handle it-

A resounding crack silenced them forcing them to look at you. The veins in your neck and face bulged with suppressed rage. The desk you had a life grip on cracked straight down the middle forcing the person who had all that mouth to take a step back "Is there anything else you'll like to run your mouth off about? Ever wondered why Endeavor wouldn't want someone like you responsible for anything personal. You've hated me since I came here, and I've done nothing but be kind to you. What's your issue?" You used your tail to show them the computer that said, 'all tasks completed' Once their eyes widen you brought the laptop back the grip on the desk never loosened "That's for your information. I'm damn good at my job. Anything else you want to run your mouth about speak to Endeavor and until then gets the fuck out of my office." They scoffed turning around but not before throwing over their shoulder

"Whatever you say, Lizzy." You lost your shit. With strength and swiftness that shocked them, you slammed the door not caring about the crack grabbing them with your tail and bringing them to your face hissing

"What the fuck did you say" You almost smiled at the fear in your eyes but became even more pissed when they tried to put a brave front up. Keyword. Tried.

"Y-you heard me, Lizzy." You picked them up throwing them onto the desk to finish breaking it

"WHERE DID YOU GET THAT NAME FROM. WHERE? FUCKING TELL ME" You were slamming them into the floor unaware of two sets of arms around you. You snarled throwing out your unoccupied arm feeling the arms leave your body. "I SWEAR TO FUCK I WILL KILL YOU IF YOU DON'T TALK NOW." To emphasize your point, you slammed talons right next to their face leaving four marks that started bleeding. That got them started.

"Hewastheonewhotoldme.I'msorryhehiredmetotellhimeverythingIknow-

Pent up with rage you slammed them again into the floor cracking it.

"SPEAK CLEARLY" You held up your hand threateningly

"H-he was the one who told me. I'm sorry he hired me to tell him everything I know about you. I hacked into your files and told him everything. I didn't think he would try to kidnap you that much. All he wanted to do was just talk." That much? Did that motherfucker just admit they knew?

"Don't do it!" You jumped tightening your tail painfully around them completely immobilizing them. You turned and saw the whole gang. When the hell did they come in? You took a look around the room almost wincing at the damage you made. When was the last time you got angry like this? The room was wrecked with cracks and claw marks all over the place.

"Did you hear?" You needed to know. They weren't going to get away they were going to jail you didn't give a fuck.

"Yes, we did. I promise they won't get away with it. We just need you to let them go. Okay?" You glared at Enji before looking back down at them. Rationally you should listen but, you didn't want to. Your hold didn't let up as you continued to glare at the people staring right back at you.

"Baby girl?" You glanced over at Touya as he held his hands up. "You can let go of them. I promise they won't get away." You loosened your hold a bit, but it was still tight.

"I know you don't want to hear from us but, baby bird, you need to let go. For us." You looked between Hawks and Mirko. Mirko smiled at you whispering baby carrot. You almost let go completely enough for him to get out but not quite

"Come on Y/N-chan. Just a little bit more." It was Kaen and you took a breath finally letting them go. With swiftness red and blue feathers grabbed them and brought them to Endeavor who took them away. You were still tense your muscles clenching and unclenching. You were left alone with the four people who have caused your emotions, turmoil-besides Hiro.

"I'm going to go talk to him okay Y/N-chan?" You nodded once at Kaen watching as he left. Now it was Touya, Rumi, and Keigo. It created a new tension that you had no interest in addressing. Your mind was racing, and you weren't sure which direction your emotion was going to go. It was dangerous and triggering for you right now.

"Are you hungry?" You blinked at the question. At any other moment, you would have laughed at the randomness of it but, you understood what Keigo was trying to do. He was trying to calm you down and the efforts were appreciated. Now the real challenge was what was going to come out your mouth. Was it going to be nice or shitty?

"Why don't you go eat with Rumi? Wouldn't want to interrupt anything" Alright shitty it is. You almost cringed at the way Hawks completely deflated and took a step back. Why did you have to hurt his feelings? It bothered you that he took a step back but, you couldn't stop. You saw Miruko frown glaring right back at you. You almost snarled at that look because you knew he was about to do something. "Don't you dare Rumi?" His eye and nose twitched which meant he was going to pounce. You got ready but, were saved by a door opening.

"Touya, Hawks come. We need you now." You almost took a breath of relief when they both turned to you with sad smiles disappearing out the door. Rei looked between you and Rumi closing the door behind her with a resounding crack. You flinched looking over at Rumi who was already crouched with a determined frown on his face. Shit. You couldn't duck a trained pro hero but, dammit you were going to try. You went left as he jumped right, and it became a dancing game. It felt like minutes but, in reality, it was only 30 seconds. He caught you when you went to duck between his legs. It was stupid but, you were desperate. He wrapped his arms around you tightly as you began to thrash.

"Stop moving Y/N." You growled at him trying to bite his fingers, but he kept moving them. "Y/N!"

"WHAT RUMI!" You hissed at him thrashing until you were face to face "What do you want from me! Haven't you had enough! Do you get off of playing with people's emotions?! You guys couldn't just tell me that you were dating! I don't care I support it but dammit am I not important? Am I not..."? Your voice was losing fight as you slowed down breathing harshly in his still tight embrace. He hasn't said anything prompting you to continue "I know we are all confused, but, you guys could have just told me, and we could have talked and figured something out...I don't want to be mad anymore...I'm so tired...." You sagged completely against him feeling numb. You were slumped in his lap your head on his shoulder, but his hold never loosened. In fact, he started purring. It was a really nice and soothing sound. "I want it to stop...Why can't he just leave me alone...I'm tired of running...I'm so tired...The voices don't even shut up...I can't sleep and eat...I added scars to my thighs...no one cares..." You were pulled back and forced to look at Rumi who looked weird...His eyes were blown wide and his nose was twitching uncontrollably.

"I care dammit. Fuck Y/N I care. Keigo cares. Touya cares. We all care. Please Y/N" He pulled you tightly against him hugging you tightly. It was almost painful but, secure at the same time. "Let me help you. Let us help you. You're not alone. Please. Please. I'm begging Y/N. Don't do this, don't do this. We can't lose you. I can't lose you." The combination of your week, what you just found out, and the raw emotion in Rumi's voice made you combust. You started crying. It was ugly, loud, and nasty. You were sobbing, wheezing, coughing, sneezing but he didn't care. He didn't let go of you once. He kept up his purrs rubbing your back and cradling you to him. You wrapped your tail around him and in return he wrapped his legs around your tail. You both were tightly wrapped up in each other as he did his best to calm you down. He whispered securities and compliments planting kisses along your face and top of your head when you tucked yourself under his chin. You don't know how long you cried, but he didn't rush you or moved until your hiccups quieted to just you sniffling. He said nothing as he took out napkins and wiped your face. It was very blotchy, nose and eyes puffy and red. He didn't seem to care. "You're still beautiful." You huffed rolling your eyes but, still gave him a grateful smile. "Are you ready to get up? I can carry you." He waited patiently as you nibbled your lips before burying your face into his neck and wrapping all your limbs around him. He huffed out a laugh getting up with ease. He placed a hand under your butt like a baby and walked out the room closing the door quietly behind him. He didn't notice that you had exhausted yourself and fell asleep until the little snores escaped you. He looked down fondly at you keeping a protective hold on you as he went into the other room where everyone else was at.

"Is she asleep?" Rumi checked and was 100 percent certain you were in la la land.

"Yeah, so how much shit is going to hit the fan." At the grim looks, Rumi was so glad you were cuddled up to him asleep.

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Rumi got some time with his little baby carrot.